FemmesPassion
Ever since I was a little girl, I've always had a problem with my weight. My mom is overweight and my father is overweight. Like most people who is or was my weight, it comes with a lot problems physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. As each day goes on, my well being is getting better because I am making the steps in improving not only myself, but the people around me. I am a family orientened person and when I am not able to run and play with my younger sisters or even to be active the way I want...no...need to be...it hurts me. I want to be able to functon and play arouind like the rest of my family on trips, vacations, and outings. Not only that, but I want to feel sexier, healthier, wanted, and loved. I know I am these things, but it's a difference in knowing and actually feeling them. My goal is to be the best I can be in life and being overweight isn't in my vision. Point blank!!! LOL... I went to see my surgeon and get all of my paperwork together today and I am so excited. I met with my dietician and she stated I was following a good eating habit even before I started the process of eating right. She did want me to eat more fruits and keep the routine of eating the way I have it. But I also need to incorporate exercise into my routine. My surgeon stated he wants me to lose about 30 more lbs and then I’ll be on my way in getting the surgery at maybe an earlier date. I am so excited…I could jump out of my skin…lol. We’ll see what happens…I am on my way…yay!
02-12-08 (Heartache)
My girlfriend and I broke up a few days ago and as much as I am trying to be strong, it’s hard. We were together for a year and a half, but it feels like a lifetime. I just couldn’t take her cheating on me in my face and being an azz about it as well. I can’t take this anymore and I swear I am SO depressed. This seems to be more than heartache. It’s a being break as well…
03-04-08 (Psychiatrist Appointment)
I am declared sane!!! LOL…no, but my psych. stated I was “mentally prepared” for the up coming surgery. I am so excited…once again!!! LOL. But my fam. And friends made fun of me…saying they could’ve paid them to tell my surgeon I was crazy…lol. That’s ok. That’s how they tell me they love me. But I am still on my way…yay!!!
03-24-08 (Gastroenterology Procedure)
I got my procedure done and they stated I don’t have the bacteria in my stomach bag so they surgery will go more smoothly. So I am happy about that. The little steps are as important as the big steps. It’s a stepping stone to a better me…
04-03-08 (Disappointment)
I went to see my surgeon and I already knew what he was going to say. I gained 15 lbs instead of losing the weight I needed to. I am so disappointed b/c I let something in life that would come and pass mess up what I have going that’ll change my life for the rest of it. I need to get back motivated!!! *screams* No…I will get back motivated b/c the little things in life don’t matter anymore. They don’t make me…I make them!!! God give me the strength to better myself inside and out. I know I can do it…as long as I have You on my said…thank you Lord. I thank You… I am doing this biggest loser competition at my job and I worked REALLY hard to lose some weight and I was weighed in and I lost 7 lbs!!! I am so excited I could’ve burst!!! LOL…I have to keep up what I am doing. Obviously it’s working…
01-21-08 (I Am On My Way)
04-23-08 (Joyful)
