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I have officially been on medically supervised weight loss for 2 months- only 3 more to go before I schedule WLS.  I have made so many HUGE changes.  I'm still learning and working at changing every day.  100 opportunities to make choices every day that impact my goals.  I feel great that I am really doing this- just wish the scale showed a little faster movement....

I'm starting to feel like the changes are routines now.  I drink my water and take my vitamins as a routine activity now.  I don't miss Diet Coke, which is an incredible thing to me.  I am trying to be more tolerant of my choices and not to be a fanatic about what I eat.  I am working this week to increase my exercize from 2X per week to 3X per week for at least 30 minutes. 

Met with the dietician and counselor yesterday.  They want me to be 6 months without any binges and I have only gone 6 weeks so far (the fact that it was just one binge doesn't matter- its 6 months or nothing).  So at this point I am looking at June for surgery. 

I am disappointed, but I have so many life changes to make that the time to get used to it and make the changes necessary can only be valuable.  In the past 2 weeks, I gave up carbonated sodas (big change), started drinking 64 oz of water daily.  

In the next 2 weeks, I commit to walking 3X per week on a schedule (Sunday, Wednesday, Friday) for 30 minutes or more each time.  I will eat no more than 2000 calories every day.  I will avoid high fat junk foods like doughnuts, candy bars, cookies, etc.; except for some item that I really want and am willing to be accountable for eating.  I will increase my awareness of what I am eating and when and how I feel when I am making decisions.  

5 months to go. 

Call from the dietician today-  They want me to wait 4-5 more months to schedule surgery.    I'm trying to embrace this decision, but I'm going to appeal it.  I want to progress faster than that....

I am accomplishing my immediate goals to prepare for surgery.  Have completed psych eval, labs, 1/2 dietician (have another appointment), 1/2 support group.  Will see my OB-GYN tomorrow and my PCP Monday to clear me for any outstanding medical concerns (can't wait to tell my PCP that I am finally going to have the surgery since he is the first one who discussed it with me).  Prayerfully, I will be able to tell the center next week that I have done everything requested of me, and then we can get the approval from the insurance company to set a surgery date!  Almost weaned off Diet Coke (though I still hope to hold on to "some" Diet Coke until surgery time.  Trying to plan how to eat better foods- fun trip to the grocery store tonight!  

I'm working on decreasing my intake of Diet Coke, which has been a staple of my diet for years.  This may be the hardest part for me.  I met my dietician today and though she didn't really tell me anything that I didn't already know, it seemed much more real.  I feel like I'm defendening my decision to pursue surgery too much.  I don't know if I'm just being defensive or if people just don't understand my situation or what.  I need to stop worrying about others opinions and work on what I know to be true.  They say "well if you are going to be dieting and exercizing anyway, then you'll lose the weight that way" as if I have 20 pounds to lose.  32 years of experience proves to me that I won't be able to lose and maintain that kind of weight loss without the gastric bypass.  So maybe I'll be a little quieter about my plans...... 

I am having serious concerns about how committed I will be to following this program that I will have to live after the surgery.  Many failures in the past leave me concerned that I will fail with this.  I really want to do this and believe that I can do this, but worry about my own behaviors.  I will need a lot of support and help to make this happen. 

Yesterday I attended my first meeting with my bariatric team.  I met another team a year ago but then learned that my insurance plan had no coverage for any weight loss options.  Our employer switched plans effective yesterday.  I went to a meeting with the bariatric team with my friend, Mandi.  We both plan to have the surgery as soon as possible since it looks like the insurance company will cover it.  I have 4 things to do before they will schedule my surgery- dietician appointment, MMPI and psych eval, labs, medical records from my doctor.   Hoping to schedule surgery for March!