Amanda M.

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First of all I have to say the ladies in the office had me a little confused.  They have not yet submitted to my insurance because I needed the nut. consult and the psyc. evaluation.  They did find out that the only thing my insurance is asking for is  a letter of medical necessity, and they will send everything together after I have completed both UGGGG!!! 

My appointment with the nutritionist went well, she was very friendly and answered a LOT of my questions, I think total I was there for almost 1 1/2 hours.   She explained to me the types of foods that I would need to eat after surgery, how to prepare before surgery.  And some of the concerns I had in regards to types of foods.  She had a general check list that she went through, so that she could cover all the bases, and that really kept us on track, since I can talk and talk, we tended to stray a little!!! 

She went over how many calories I will need, and how many grams of protein, what types of protein, and what types of vitamins, including that awful in your bum B-12!!!! 

I have my psychological evaluation on the 15th of this month.  They sent me quite a few forms to fill out, and there are some of the strangest questions on there!!! But over all I think I get what they are looking for.  They really just want to make sure that I/we are not eatting uncontrolled due to an underlying issue,  but Im not, I eat because it is there, and I make the wrong food choices, including my portion size.  I have to say that since starting this process, I find my self eatting a LOT better than I have in years, and I have already lost six (6) pounds!!!! YIPPY!!! 

Okay enough for now, will update again soon:)

Oh how I hate the wait!!! I was hoping to hear from the surgeons office today, to see if they had denied my request or if they are going to go ahead, or if I need more to submit!!!  

It is so hard to not keep calling and bugging the ladies at the office!!!  I know they can't help the time my insurance company takes, and they probably have a hundred other things to do, but I have to say, if they havent called by Tuesday afternoon, I'm gonna call and see whats up!!! 

It took me over a year to make the decision to have wls and it's not that I want to rush, but I'm ready, my mind is ready, I have started eatting better to prepare, and I have stared exerc.  So now I want my WLS!!!!! 

I guess I should just stop whining, and sit tight, UGGGG!!!

Just a little confused, okay real confused after talking with the girls from the surgeons office. 

The lady who deals with the insurance called, and said that yes, my insurance does cover, but would not give her specific info on what they would cover, that they would give her a pre aproval, that all they needed was my doctors letter of medical necessity(sp?)

So does that mean it's a go? Will they cover me? and for how much?What do I do now?  Who knows? Not me?

She said it should only take a day or two before she hears more, so I guess just sit tight until then?  UGGGG

Well I have taken a few days off to visit with my grandma, she was in from eastern KY!!! 

Okay on to the good stuff.  My consult went very well.  I am morbidly obese.  Officially.  Kinda scarey but a great platform to work from:) can only get healthier from here.  Dr. McClellan was a very nice person, she was very easy to talk to, she answered all my questions and more.  She didn't talk over my head, or treat me like just another "fat person"  she eased my fears and made me feel like I was headed in the right direction!!!! 

Now we just have to sit tight and see what is needed for my insurance so we can get started.  I am afraid I may have to do a six month monitored weight loss program, which is fine, thats what I want is for the weight to come off, but I feel like I have already tried that. . . hundreds of times.  I will do whatever she asks of me.  In the long run, what I want is to develope healthy habits, and to lose weight.  So it won't do anything but help if I start to develope those habits before my surgery!!! 

Okay now for some even scarier stuff!!! My measurements. 

Left Upper Arm  ~ 16 inches
Right Upper Arm  ~  16 1/2 inches 
Around Back and Across Breasts  ~  53 inches
Around Tummy  ~  53 inches 
Hips  ~  59 inches 
Around Butt under Tummy  ~ 52 inches 
Left Thigh  ~  26 inches 
Right Thigh  ~  26 inches 
Left Calf  ~  17 inches 
Right Calf  ~ 17 inches 
Shoe Size  ~  9 Wide

I have to admit, it is a little scary to list all those numbers.  But I think thats what it will take to force me into weight loss!!! with or without the surgery!!! 

I am going to start a reduced calorie diet and exercise program on Wednesday April 23, 2008.  I am going to walk, and I am going liquid diet for as long as I can handle it.   So here goes nothing!!!  I will keep my blog updated as I go along :)

Well tomarrow is the day I have been waiting for.  My first consultation, this will be the appointment that starts me on my weight loss journey.  I have to say, I am a little nervouse, a little excited!!! 

My hubby is going to take my before pictures tonight, so I will post them after my consult on Thursday.   

Just knowing that I am on my way has really prompted me to start eating better!! Funny how before I had to actuall stick~to~it~ness, but now it is on my mind all the time. 
 
I am a little worried about one thing.  For the last week or so everyday I wake up I have a head ache, everyday if I exerc. or something more than just walking around I get a headache.  I have never had problems with my blood pressure before, bu I am thinking that might be what it is.  I will have to ask at my consult I guess.  

Other than that not much happening.  I am lurking around OH making a couple of friends, and getting anxiouse to get this process started:) 

The person I am wants to come out!!!!  I have to say one of the strangest things is when I walk past a mirror and I am surprised by my own reflection.  In my head I am not nearly as large as that lady in the mirror!!!!  

I have never been one with low self esteam.  Maybe that is half my problem.  I am comfortable with myself. NOT with my weight, but with who I am.   I think my confidence shines through, and most people see past the fat.  Most, not all.  

My husband is a wonderful, wonderful man.  He is attentive to my every need, and I know he loves me thin, he loves me fat.  He just plain LOVES me.  Now don't get me wrong, I am sure he would love a much more fit version of me. . . (maybe he will buy me sexy undies when I am at my goal instead of cookies!!!)

My son, he is three, he is a wonderful, gentle, loving soul.  He is the embodiment of LOVE.  I hope he never loses that aspect of himself.    He told me today . . . "mommie your belly is really REALLY fat!!!. . . I LOVE it!!" and then gave it a big squishy hug and ran off!!!   He is so wonderful!!! Now I know this could have been a big OUCH moment for me, but it wasnt,  He is so little he doesnt really know the difference.  He just knows that's my belly and he loves it!!! How could it be any better? (well it could be a skinny belly that he loves, that would be better. . . but it will get there)

I don't think that this decision will change the person that I am.  It will just allow the person that I am to come out!!!! 

Hmmmm . . . some of the things I will do after I have met my goal? 

1.  I will get dreads, have always wanted them, just thought they would look ridiculous with this big round face(and my parents wouldnt let me get them when I was thin!! and living at home)

2.  I will buy the wardrobe I dream of not the one I fit in.

I am sure more will come, but right now I can't think of any:)

First consultation with Dr. Leslie McClellan is on April 17, 2008 at 2 p.m.