hotyboomba
looking less bleak.
Sep 19, 2007
i have not been around OH for a while now. mostly because i'm living life instead of watching it from behind my computer.
i'm doing really really well. i'm not just talking about weight stuff, although i have lost about 140 pounds in the last several months...i'm talking about everything. things are just amazing. i have amazing friends. i'm in the process of getting a new job. i got into COLLEGE. like, real college - not a JC. i'm moving out of my mom's house where i've spent the last several years helping her to raise teenage foster boys. and for the first time in my life i am really looking forward to only having to take care of myself. did i mention i love my friends? and there's this girl. there are girls. my confidence has changed. things are good.
i'm wearing a size 24 which i haven't done since like 8th grade. i bought girl jeans because they make my ASS look good. i mean...yeah. things are good. :)
i'm doing really really well. i'm not just talking about weight stuff, although i have lost about 140 pounds in the last several months...i'm talking about everything. things are just amazing. i have amazing friends. i'm in the process of getting a new job. i got into COLLEGE. like, real college - not a JC. i'm moving out of my mom's house where i've spent the last several years helping her to raise teenage foster boys. and for the first time in my life i am really looking forward to only having to take care of myself. did i mention i love my friends? and there's this girl. there are girls. my confidence has changed. things are good.
i'm wearing a size 24 which i haven't done since like 8th grade. i bought girl jeans because they make my ASS look good. i mean...yeah. things are good. :)
from my old profile.
Dec 31, 2006
i'm not really sure what i want to say here. i'm 25 (although sometimes i think i'm 17) and i've been fat all my life. i'm feeling really great about every other aspect of my life right now. for the first time in as long as i can remember i'm really very happy. i'm just finally at the point where i really feel like i cannot lose the weight on my own. it's a matter of getting healthy. i want to learn to snowboard. i want to be able to sit with my elbows resting on my knees.
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4.14.4
today i had my first consultation with my surgeon and his awesome staff. i weighed in at 467 (holy crap) and i need to lose 5% of that or like 23 pounds before i can have surgery. i've decided to have the LAP BAND and it looks like my surgery date will be sometime around the end of may. i can't say that i'm not completely nervous and i'm really not looking forward to being on a diet before having the surgery...but i guess i really kind of have to.
4.28.4
i haven't been as good about my diet as i should have been but i haven't been TOTALLY killing it. today i've rededicated myself to getting this 23 pounds off. i'm following the diet my doctor gave me exactly. i've decided to adopt the "i can do anything temporarily" motto. as you can see by my last post, i was really not thrilled about the having to be on a diet before surgery thing. i'm feeling good. i'm motivated...:)
6.2.4
so yesterday i had my labs, my ekg, an ultra sound of my legs, and a chest xray. my nurse practitioner weight me and i'm down 17 pounds...hot damn! i have a couple more tests to do within the next week or so. i think a stress test and and physical. plus i have to see a cardiologist. and then i get to schedule my surgery. i must admit i'm getting pretty excited.
7.18.4
it's been a while since i've updated. i'm doing well although i put back on a few pounds. i'm getting very excited and a little nervous. i'm getting banded on tuesday!! so right now i'm on the first day of my bowel prep (yummy phospho soda) clear liquids only for the next 2 days. i can do this. :)
7.19.4
i'm so majorly bummed. my whole family has had a cold for the past week or so and i even went out of town for a few days to try to avoid getting it. i woke up this morning just knowing that i was getting sick. of course when i talked to my nurse practitioner she said we're going to have to pospone my surgery. i was doing so well too. i'd just about made it through my bowel prep completely PLUS i wasn't as nervous as i thought i would be. so here i am back to waiting for a date. til next week anyway, depending on if i feel better or not.
i do believe that everything happens for a reason, though, and that my getting banded will happen at just the right time.
plus it give me an extra week or so to lose somemore pre-op #'s and get my liver in better shape.
thankyou to everyone who wished me well over the past few days. it did help to know that everyone around here is rooting for me.
7.22.4
i'm still sick. my cold is worse than i'd thought it would be. i talked to my dr today and we rescheduled my date for august 9th. it seems so far away. i hate to have to wait again, but things in my life tend to work out exactly the way they should.
i'm still feeling great and very positive. i wish it weren't so freaking hot! :)
8.8.4
so, tomorrow's the big day. i'm a little nervous, but i have really good support. a great family and friends. it's getting late so i'd better go to bed. tomorrow i'm going to be a loser. :)
i messed up something on my "i've got a date!" page and now it won't let me update that my date is actually tomorrow, not last month.
8.13.4
for some reason obesity help dot com has been the last thing on my mind for the past couple of days.
i got banded on monday. couldn't think of anything right after surgery except getting the catheter out and getting up to walk around(the longest two hours of my life.) didn't sleep much in the hospital, i was peeing all night (they told me i had to pee more than 250ccs or the catheter goes back in, and i guess i got a little carried away :) )and was just uncomfortable in the hospital bed. i finally was able to walk out of the hospital around 5 on tuesday. i've slept great the past three nights in my recliner but CAN'T WAIT to be back in my own bed sleeping on my tummy like always. my doc has me on clear liquids (water, sugar-free beverages, sugar-free popsicles, watered down clear juices, broth and protein drinks) for the first two weeks and then i move to mushies. i'm doing fine with these things because the gas is still pretty uncomfortable (+ my doc told me no gas-ex) i haven't cheated at all (don't even want to) , but mentally, i sure could go for a cheeseburger :)
all of my incisions look great (knock on wood) and i'm feeling like a million bucks. took myself to the video store yesterday to get some movies. i have no idea how much i weigh and am truthfully not even worried about it right now. i didn't really have any co-morbidities (except the fact that i weighed 450 pounds and had a BMI of like 83) but i did have paroblem with one of my legs that stemmed from a celulitis infection like two years ago and i can already see how much better that leg is getting. my first follow-up appt is on the 25th. i'll probably update again then.
8.25.4
so i had my first follow up appointment. i'm 2 weeks and 2 days out. i got the go ahead to start mushies and i'm down about 41 pounds!! plus my BMI is now at like 75! woo hoo!
9.15.4
went for my second check up...all my incisions are healed and i'm eating food again! my loss has slowed down some, but i think that's to be expected + i'm still losing, which is good.
9.29.4
stillll losing. slowly but surely. went for my first fill today and am down to 420. that's a total of 47 pounds. thet thing is i started working out a couple of weeks ago, doing cardio and resistance training, and i know that i'm putting on muscle. i can feel it + see it. they said that because i am still losing i didn't have to get a fill if i didn't want it, but i figured "what the hell." and truthfully it wasn't bad at all. it didn't hurt and i probably could have done it with out the numbing meds since i didn't even feel the numbing needle in the first place. it's obvious from my face that i don't have a huge fear of needles...three weeks ago tomorrow, i added a septum piercing to my small collection. anyway, just wanted to say, i'm still alive and doing pretty good. :)
7.20.5
i'm really not doing very well and i haven't been to this site in like, forever. i got an email tonight from obesityhelp telling me congratulations on my 1 year anniversary. this was the date i had originally been supposed to get my surgery on, but it ended up being postponed to august 9. i just couldn't figure out how to change it. so yeah, anyway, it's hard to believe that it's been almost a year and i'm still around 450. i was losing really well right there at first, but after my first fill, i got some kind of infection around my port and the pocket around it filled up with fluid and somehow my port flipped and i can't afford to fix it and i'm scared of the anesthesia and i really don't know what to do. and this probably isn't what most people want to hear, but here i am. i'm pretty depressed and i don't know what to do and i'm starting to think i'll be fat forever. so there's that.
4.14.4 = 467.
6.2.4 = 450.
7.18.4 = 450ish.
7.19.4 = 445. (after my bowel prep)
8.8.4 = 465ish. (i put it back on after we postponed my date.)
8.25.4 = 425.
9.15.4 = 423.
9.29.4 = 420.
12.15.5 = 465.
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4.14.4
today i had my first consultation with my surgeon and his awesome staff. i weighed in at 467 (holy crap) and i need to lose 5% of that or like 23 pounds before i can have surgery. i've decided to have the LAP BAND and it looks like my surgery date will be sometime around the end of may. i can't say that i'm not completely nervous and i'm really not looking forward to being on a diet before having the surgery...but i guess i really kind of have to.
4.28.4
i haven't been as good about my diet as i should have been but i haven't been TOTALLY killing it. today i've rededicated myself to getting this 23 pounds off. i'm following the diet my doctor gave me exactly. i've decided to adopt the "i can do anything temporarily" motto. as you can see by my last post, i was really not thrilled about the having to be on a diet before surgery thing. i'm feeling good. i'm motivated...:)
6.2.4
so yesterday i had my labs, my ekg, an ultra sound of my legs, and a chest xray. my nurse practitioner weight me and i'm down 17 pounds...hot damn! i have a couple more tests to do within the next week or so. i think a stress test and and physical. plus i have to see a cardiologist. and then i get to schedule my surgery. i must admit i'm getting pretty excited.
7.18.4
it's been a while since i've updated. i'm doing well although i put back on a few pounds. i'm getting very excited and a little nervous. i'm getting banded on tuesday!! so right now i'm on the first day of my bowel prep (yummy phospho soda) clear liquids only for the next 2 days. i can do this. :)
7.19.4
i'm so majorly bummed. my whole family has had a cold for the past week or so and i even went out of town for a few days to try to avoid getting it. i woke up this morning just knowing that i was getting sick. of course when i talked to my nurse practitioner she said we're going to have to pospone my surgery. i was doing so well too. i'd just about made it through my bowel prep completely PLUS i wasn't as nervous as i thought i would be. so here i am back to waiting for a date. til next week anyway, depending on if i feel better or not.
i do believe that everything happens for a reason, though, and that my getting banded will happen at just the right time.
plus it give me an extra week or so to lose somemore pre-op #'s and get my liver in better shape.
thankyou to everyone who wished me well over the past few days. it did help to know that everyone around here is rooting for me.
7.22.4
i'm still sick. my cold is worse than i'd thought it would be. i talked to my dr today and we rescheduled my date for august 9th. it seems so far away. i hate to have to wait again, but things in my life tend to work out exactly the way they should.
i'm still feeling great and very positive. i wish it weren't so freaking hot! :)
8.8.4
so, tomorrow's the big day. i'm a little nervous, but i have really good support. a great family and friends. it's getting late so i'd better go to bed. tomorrow i'm going to be a loser. :)
i messed up something on my "i've got a date!" page and now it won't let me update that my date is actually tomorrow, not last month.
8.13.4
for some reason obesity help dot com has been the last thing on my mind for the past couple of days.
i got banded on monday. couldn't think of anything right after surgery except getting the catheter out and getting up to walk around(the longest two hours of my life.) didn't sleep much in the hospital, i was peeing all night (they told me i had to pee more than 250ccs or the catheter goes back in, and i guess i got a little carried away :) )and was just uncomfortable in the hospital bed. i finally was able to walk out of the hospital around 5 on tuesday. i've slept great the past three nights in my recliner but CAN'T WAIT to be back in my own bed sleeping on my tummy like always. my doc has me on clear liquids (water, sugar-free beverages, sugar-free popsicles, watered down clear juices, broth and protein drinks) for the first two weeks and then i move to mushies. i'm doing fine with these things because the gas is still pretty uncomfortable (+ my doc told me no gas-ex) i haven't cheated at all (don't even want to) , but mentally, i sure could go for a cheeseburger :)
all of my incisions look great (knock on wood) and i'm feeling like a million bucks. took myself to the video store yesterday to get some movies. i have no idea how much i weigh and am truthfully not even worried about it right now. i didn't really have any co-morbidities (except the fact that i weighed 450 pounds and had a BMI of like 83) but i did have paroblem with one of my legs that stemmed from a celulitis infection like two years ago and i can already see how much better that leg is getting. my first follow-up appt is on the 25th. i'll probably update again then.
8.25.4
so i had my first follow up appointment. i'm 2 weeks and 2 days out. i got the go ahead to start mushies and i'm down about 41 pounds!! plus my BMI is now at like 75! woo hoo!
9.15.4
went for my second check up...all my incisions are healed and i'm eating food again! my loss has slowed down some, but i think that's to be expected + i'm still losing, which is good.
9.29.4
stillll losing. slowly but surely. went for my first fill today and am down to 420. that's a total of 47 pounds. thet thing is i started working out a couple of weeks ago, doing cardio and resistance training, and i know that i'm putting on muscle. i can feel it + see it. they said that because i am still losing i didn't have to get a fill if i didn't want it, but i figured "what the hell." and truthfully it wasn't bad at all. it didn't hurt and i probably could have done it with out the numbing meds since i didn't even feel the numbing needle in the first place. it's obvious from my face that i don't have a huge fear of needles...three weeks ago tomorrow, i added a septum piercing to my small collection. anyway, just wanted to say, i'm still alive and doing pretty good. :)
7.20.5
i'm really not doing very well and i haven't been to this site in like, forever. i got an email tonight from obesityhelp telling me congratulations on my 1 year anniversary. this was the date i had originally been supposed to get my surgery on, but it ended up being postponed to august 9. i just couldn't figure out how to change it. so yeah, anyway, it's hard to believe that it's been almost a year and i'm still around 450. i was losing really well right there at first, but after my first fill, i got some kind of infection around my port and the pocket around it filled up with fluid and somehow my port flipped and i can't afford to fix it and i'm scared of the anesthesia and i really don't know what to do. and this probably isn't what most people want to hear, but here i am. i'm pretty depressed and i don't know what to do and i'm starting to think i'll be fat forever. so there's that.
4.14.4 = 467.
6.2.4 = 450.
7.18.4 = 450ish.
7.19.4 = 445. (after my bowel prep)
8.8.4 = 465ish. (i put it back on after we postponed my date.)
8.25.4 = 425.
9.15.4 = 423.
9.29.4 = 420.
12.15.5 = 465.
