hunnybean923
I have been a big girl most of my life. Both sides of my family are full of big people like me. Growing up, I never really thought about it. Since I never let it get in my, my weight was never an issue. I was involved in lots of activities at school, very active, and I loved being on stage. In fact, you could probably say that I was popular. Although I would occasionally experience a rude person, I did not experience the ridicule that extremely overweight teens usually have to go through. The world was my stage, I was a great actress, and I looked happy. BUT, as we all know, looks can be deceiving.
I started to put the weight on when I was 10, in an attempt to keep myself safe. I know this now because I have worked really hard on the "head" part of my weight stuff. You see, I was abused as a kid. So, when I was 10, I started to feed myself. I know a lot of us understand the cycle of emotional eating. When my parents got divorced, my dad got custody of me. He was depressed and would feed me out of "love". I learned these things in therapy, as I came to grips with some other tough subjects, while learning effectively how to handle stress.
Flash forward to present day. I have two children, who I adopted. They both have mental illnesses, and so life is very stressful at times. I have managed to not gain weight because I can manage this stress. However, my age is starting to catch up with me...LOL.. I need more energy to be able to keep up with them, and I am worth being able to live a full life. We all are. I have had my appointment with the surgeon and he has decided that gastric bypass will be the best choice for me. There are just three things I need to complete. I am excited!
