IndyRN
Hi :) So, my name is Misty. I'm a critical care nurse from Indianapolis, IN. I work at the Veteran's Hospital dowtown and I love my job. I'm having the RNY on June 10th, 2008 and I am very excited. I'm 28 years old, married with one child. Noah is three years old and has truly been a blessing to me. I love dogs, I have two German Shepherd mutts. I was reborn on July 31st, 2005 when the Lord blessed me with baptism. My metamorphosis takes place this June :)
This was a last resort for me after many, many attempts at losing weight. I used to think of them as failure after failure, but now I see, I was just practicing for the real thing. It takes people multiple attempts to get anything worthwhile right, and for me, it will be right soon. At, my lowest point, I had given up hope. This to me is the ultimate in sadness. God commands us to hope, and when that is gone, we stop appreciating the life we have. After deciding to have the surgery, I have been hopeful and excited and making life plans again. I cannot wait for the opportunity to put this addiction to food behind me. I am very aware of the fact that I am addicted and have already been working with a therapist to curb this addiction and not transfer it to another vice.
I don't want to be the 'heavy' girl with blonde hair anymore. Or, "but, your still pretty", and "your face is pretty". I know people mean well, but geez ;) I haven't been overweight all my life and I still see myself skinny! I have like the opposite of anorexia! I still picture myself as skinny in my head, in my dreams. When I see a picture, I am dumbfounded. This was when my life changed. I started realizing I was fat, my self-esteem became nil and my marriage was in serious trouble. Now, I'm on my way to becoming a better me, and only then can I handle the problems left to face. And, God willing my marriage will indeed survive. I cannot attempt to fix problems outside myself when I don't face problems within. I am learning to love myself again, and allowing people to love me.
