JacquiBarr

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Ok, so here goes my first blog.  My surgery is tomorrow and I'm a nervous wreck.  I have 3 beautiful kids, a son 13, and twin 11 year old daughters, and a very wonderful husband.  I know in my heart everything will be ok, but my head tells me something totally different...am I making the right choice, I'm just being vain, I'm being selfish, what if something goes wrong.    Yet, I know in my heart the real reason is for them, to be a better mom and wife.  To be able to play ball and go on hikes and enjoy just hanging at the beach with them instead of dreading every minute of it, things that I haven't been able to do in a very long time.

I have a terrific support unit at home, especially my dad, who himself just had the RNY done on April 6.  He is doing great, although he did have a minor set back when he had to go back in the hospital 3 days after starting back on solids due to a stricture at the incision which kept him from being able to keep anything down for 3 day.  However...he to this day says it was the best thing he's done for himself and doesn't regret one minute of getting sick :)  He's 50 lbs down!!!  What an inspiration he is to me, he's 66 yrs old and been through many surgury's so I know that if he says I'll be ok, than  I'll be ok. 

Ok, so now I'm going to get positive.  I have a very important wedding to attend in New Hampshire in Sept. and I can't wait to go and surprise all my family who do not know about the surgery...PLUS we are camping for 4 days in Maine, I'll be able to hike with the kids.  How terrific is that?

My next post will be post RNY surgury where I will also be a loser!! :)