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I am one month post op and loving life.  Doc was impressed down 19 lbs and loving every minute of it.  I had my first fill today and it was a 3.  

I am tired and grumpy!  I am exhausted, I just went back to work on Monday Jan 5 after being off for 2-1/2 weeks!  It is hard getting back into the rutine.  I am feeling neglected by my husband and even my son.  I could just be feeling sorry for myself!  Who knows!  I feel great other than a little depressed, but I have had inlaws in since Dec 20, 2009 and they dont go home until Jan 13, 2009.  Lord help me!  Work is kind of a drag as well crazy we are in the middle of a spinnoff and everyone is in panic mode.  Tomorrow is going to be a better day.  See ya!

I would just like to say thank you to all of my new friends here at Obesity help!  You have helped me along the way to go through a life changing experience.  I would like to say good bye to 2008 and welcome 2009 with open arms.  I believe that GOD is going to shower us with blessings upon blessings.  I know that my 2009 is going to be filled with an amaging journey.  I believe that it is going to be like a book that you cant put down.  I just want to thank everyone again for all the help you have provided.  Until next time.

I don't know how to start.  So here goes!  I love that I had the surgery.  I am so very excited and still scared to death!  Everything has went so well except for last night....I cooked supper as usual.  We all sit down to eat and I was talking and looking around observing my family and my husband just out of the blue says "you have so much time to eat that you are staring us down"  I could not beleive it.  I could not beleive the man that I love and the man that has been so supportive to me all this time just said some crazy crap like that.  I was blown away!  I just got up from the table and went to my bedroom and balled like a little baby!  It was the most horrible feeling that I think that I have ever felt.  I was crying so hard that I was boo hooing.  I am not an emotional person, but I have realized that I am rather sensative now!  My husband came in the room and was wondering what I was doing and he felt so bad.  He said that he was not meaning anything by it!  I was so angry and scared and felt so alone!  Here is my lover my friend my everything and the bastard just ripped my guts out.  We talked about different things and I do feel better about that situation, but I do still feel a little blue.  I must be going through some kind of depression or something.  I am so excited, scared, and very emotional right now.  I just know that after mine and my husbands talk he assured me that everything would be just fine and that he did not mean anything by it.  I will keep you posted.

I was able to get most of the gas to go away...WALK WALK WALK...nothing else works.  I had a pretty busy day!  I attended my sons Christmas party and had plenty to do.  I seemed rather hungry today.  I woke and drank a carnation instant breakfast, lunch rolled around not to hungry so I had a jello instant pudding for lunch, around 3pm I was hungry I came home and fixed me a bowl of Cream of mushroom soup and had about 6 table spoons of that and buddy I am still stuffed.  I could not put anyhting in my mouth if I tried it is not around 6:30 pm and I am not hungry.  So we will see how the night goes on.  So far I got on the scale and 12 lbs I have lost Kind of crazy.  More to come later.  

I feel better than expected.  I woke this morning and made coffee woke my son up as usual.  Now I don't feel like going to work, but I feel ok.  I still have gas not too bad though I feel it will be gone today!  Thank GOD for everything he has given me!  I feel so blessed.  I will keep everyone posted!

Well the surgery is done and over with...Gas is pretty bad that is what sucks...but I just wanted to up date everyone.  Talk to you soon...

Today my amazing journey begins.  I have went to the seminar at Dr. Spivak's office and had my consult with him.  I have chosen to have the lap band surgery.  I am so excited and nervous at the same time.  I just want to be healthy.  I want to be here for my child and I want another child.  I am doing this not only for me but for my family.  I dont want someone else to raise my child.  I am on a journey that is going to be tough, but I am so ready to make that step.  My surgery is scheduled for Dec.17, 2008.  I weighed in at a woppin 297lbs good lord that is so much, but I do realize that there is hope and it is just around the corner.  Please pray for me and my amazing journey.  I do have an amazing husband and child that support me 110% and will be there for me so I thank GOD everyday for that.