janiey

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Tues 12th is the day! VSG getting nervous.

 I start 2 week liquid diet in the morning 5/29/12.  Surgery. 6/12/12.  Feel like I have  no support thIs time! I know I can't but I just want to do This all on my own. Including going to pprep and surgery all alone.

 Called my insurance today  they saidy approval letter was mailed Monday! So so
So excited. Calling doctor tomorrow to see if they got their letter. Have not even told my husband yet. 

Unbeleivable I am now up to 212 lbs gained 46 lbs  in 3 month.  I know i eat more then when I had my band on but damn not that much . My feet and legs are swollen . I have not walked for 5 days now cause of the tightness in my legs .  It's starting all over again. Guess I will be going back on BP meds's and antidepressants to start with.  I don't even want to go back to my family doctor.  But then Insurance wins again if I don't use it.  Just venting I got my official letter that insurance will not pay for surgery. 

I'm 48 been overweight my entire life even obese more then half that time.  I felt so good even at 170 lbs.  my lowest was 146 lbs . I was like a different person.  I was more out going, I enjoyed everything and finally I was not afraid to go out dancing which I love to do.  I liked to clothes shop and even shared clothes with my 20 year old.   

I guess it's not meant for me to be a normal weight.  My band had to be removed and I now am back up to 200 lbs Yeah I am feeling sorry for myself but dammit I have a right too .  I had my share of being made fun of , not having clothes to wer not going out in public, being depresssed.  I don't want to go back to that.  I am not strong enough to do this without  some type of resistance. 

  

Sept.       2006    271 lbs  BMI 40.4
Oct.   04, 2006    258 lbs
Nov.  28, 2006    245 lbs
Dec.  27, 2006    238 lbs
Jan.   04, 2007    236 lbs
Feb.  10, 2007    230 lbs
Mar.  10, 2007    228 lbs
Mar.   23, 2007     224lbs
Apr.    13, 2007    220 lbs
Sept.  07, 2007   195 lbs
Oct     31, 2007    194 lbs
Nov     08, 2007    191 lbs  BMI 33.8
Dec.    01, 2010     176 lbs
Feb,    15, 2010     200 lbs this is after the removal of my band Dec 02 2010