Janina P.

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I didn't get a call back from my surgeons office.  That might be good news, because they have nothing bad to tell me as of yet.  Probably just means they haven't gotten around to my file.  I'm so anxious to have this surgery and take control over my life.  I feel like I'm at my stomach's will all the time.  It's a terrible feeling of being owned by something other than yourself.

I want to own myself.  I want to control my appettite.  I want to control my eating patterns.  I want to lose weight without struggling so hard.  I feel like these aren't unrealistic 'wants'.  But if they're so realistic, why are they so hard to have?  Weight is so hard.

 So here's my story; I've done all the pre-op appointments.  I've seen the nutritionist, the fitness coach, the psychiatrist, the pulmonologist, the cardiologist, and had the stress test and breath test done.  My bariatric surgeon's office is now working on getting approval from my insurance company.  I was told they'd start the war on Monday, March 12th.  It's been 4 days and I'm anxious.  I can not wait to start this process and get on with my new life. 
I chose the lap-band method.  I chose it because it's much less intrusive then the gastric bypass method, recovery is quicker, and it's reversible, god forbid.  I've had a hard time finding inspiring before and after stories from those on this site who've had lap-band surgery.  It seems like all the great before and after tales are RNY bypass surgeries.  That's kind of a bummer.

I'm looking forward to making an inspirational story of my own for someone else to read.  That's my long term goal.