Lisa B.

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I have been doing a back -to basics thingie for the past few days,essentially getting back to the original stuff and rules of WLS doing well with it. Guess what?, my pouchie still works as its supposted to. My hunger is vertually nil and I am losing weight as well I 'm motivateted I can lose the weight I gained down about 9 pounds. i wanna get a measuring tape to track my loss that way too as thats the big thing as weight loss is so up and down but inches lost is the real indicator
enough for now

hi there its been about 3 years since I've been able to get online and update my profile. Lets see I no longer work my DH no longer works. I have regained 50 #s and I am working in relosing the regained weight I;m doing well so far so good down about 6 #s so I'v got 46 to go to get back down to 150 #s. The extra weight really sneaked up on me like a stealth bomber it was like a # at a time and ta da 50#s. I am so embarrassed over the gain after doing so well. I am so disapointed in myself but I'm picking up myself and dusting off my shoes and starting fresh, Ya know the funny thing is I really didn't enjoy the food I ate and was never really hungry!!!

Well March 13th I am getting my panni cut off yea!!!!!! its about time with all this stuffing the skin into clothes and all,yea know I am not looking for a barbie doll body just relief from worry about rashes and the icky wetness that gets in the fold its so gross..........and stinky too
thats all for now
Lisa

Hello There,
                     It has been a while since I have written anything here so here goes!!!!!!!
I struggle with my disorder...bipolar it is so hard on me. Before prior to my WLS I self medicated with food...its no wonder I ended up weighing 349 pounds. Bipolar Disorder used to be know as manic depression which discribes the disorder,as one goes from mania ( super highs where you can get to the point of like being on natural speed fun for a while but after a while mentally exhausting and you start to feel invincable...scary) you also get lows  of depression to the point of without a psychatrists help suicidal (I have been there many times post op). I also have a condition called Borderline Personality Disorder which is a result of being horribly abused a child sexully,emotionally,abondonment issues and physically. I also have GAD Genalized Anxiety disorder and Bulimia Nervosa. These disorders have worsed since WLS some how I thought that WLS would "fix" me what a crock of sh*t!!!!! The good part, however is that I am getting extensive therapy and am on a great combination of medications. This a big risk for me to write about this so I hope that people understand and not judge its all about an illness no different to something like diabetes...just it effects more of one's life
thats all for now signing off for now
Lisa

It is 3am and I can not sleep..oy vev...I need to sleep as I have an early appointment with my therapist. What to do maybe some chamomile tea would help!!!!! this really sucks I tell you sleeping has been a major problem for me lately. Guess I will have to have a talk with my psychiatrist..yup I am going to a psychiatrist for my bipolar disorder....right now I am what is known as a manic phase which means I have trouble sleeping and am very active and high energy.....lots of thoughts going thru my brain its kind of fun,but after a while it gets mentally frustrating......I will write again soon
Lisa signing off

Learning to love myself is my goal.