jenblove
I've been bad!
Nov 08, 2011
I hate to admit it, but the last few weeks I've been less than an ideal bypass patient. 
I have not been keeping up with a food diary, my protein, drinking 64oz water daily, twice daily vitamins and calcium. Oh yeah, I'm still drinking some with meals and too close before and after. I had it made up in my mind pre-surgery that I would be in total control of all these things after surgery. It's all easier said than done...I keep saying I'm going to get all of this under control, guess I could tackle one at a time. I figure the vitamins/calcium would be the easiest to accomplish first.
On a good note, I've been walking regularly. Not as much the past two weeks, but trying to get back on a routine. And I've finally gotten below 250!
It's an amazing feeling...to be able to stand on the type of scale at the doctor's office and move the bottom weight? down to 200 from 250. It's been years since that's happened!
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I have not been keeping up with a food diary, my protein, drinking 64oz water daily, twice daily vitamins and calcium. Oh yeah, I'm still drinking some with meals and too close before and after. I had it made up in my mind pre-surgery that I would be in total control of all these things after surgery. It's all easier said than done...I keep saying I'm going to get all of this under control, guess I could tackle one at a time. I figure the vitamins/calcium would be the easiest to accomplish first. On a good note, I've been walking regularly. Not as much the past two weeks, but trying to get back on a routine. And I've finally gotten below 250!
It's an amazing feeling...to be able to stand on the type of scale at the doctor's office and move the bottom weight? down to 200 from 250. It's been years since that's happened!
I see results! : )
Oct 11, 2011
It's been a while since I posted, but the surgery was a breeze! My family was very impressed with Dr. Davidson and the staff at Cape Fear Valley Hospital. They were leery at first about me even having the surgery, but now they are ecstatic...as am I. I'm taking the post-op diet one step at a time. Still missing one of my mvi's or calciums a day, wish I could take them all at once! I'll get it together sometime...soon I hope. I go back to the doctor's office on the 19th, I guess for bloodwork...maybe I'll find out that I can't miss doses of the Ca and the MVI, that it really does have an effect.
The hardest part post surgery is getting in 64oz/2L of water a day. I don't think I have been able to but maybe once or twice in the past three weeks. I was in love with Crystal Light lemonade pre-surgery and now it tastes funny to me...as do the protein shakes. I can't wait to get off them, but don't see any hope in the future if I'm supposed to be getting 80g protein/day. That's hard sometimes even with the protein shakes.
I'm enjoying being able to add soemthing to my diet every week...it's almost like a reward for doing well the previous week. I was able to add chicken and crackers yesterday, so I made some homemade chicken salad. I used the chicken out of a can...next time I'll cook my own. It (canned chicken) kinda grosses me out...wonder if it's okay if my cat's eat the rest?
I took a picture of when I got my hair cut in early September before surgery, so I thought I would take another picture to compare yesterday...see below! I was so excited to be able to see the difference in my face. One of the areas that I hated seeing so fat! I'm amazed at the difference after 5 weeks...I have to count the pre-op diet bec/ I lost 10-13 pounds during that two weeks. As of this morning, I'm 1.2lb away from losing 40lbs. My goal for October is to lose at least 12.2 more to be under 250...haven't been there in ages! It's wild looking at the pic, bec/ even the bridge of my nose looks thinner.
Does anyone know how to post pics other than your avatar on here? I go to upload photos and it tells me I don't have any albums...how would I create an album?
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The hardest part post surgery is getting in 64oz/2L of water a day. I don't think I have been able to but maybe once or twice in the past three weeks. I was in love with Crystal Light lemonade pre-surgery and now it tastes funny to me...as do the protein shakes. I can't wait to get off them, but don't see any hope in the future if I'm supposed to be getting 80g protein/day. That's hard sometimes even with the protein shakes.
I'm enjoying being able to add soemthing to my diet every week...it's almost like a reward for doing well the previous week. I was able to add chicken and crackers yesterday, so I made some homemade chicken salad. I used the chicken out of a can...next time I'll cook my own. It (canned chicken) kinda grosses me out...wonder if it's okay if my cat's eat the rest?
I took a picture of when I got my hair cut in early September before surgery, so I thought I would take another picture to compare yesterday...see below! I was so excited to be able to see the difference in my face. One of the areas that I hated seeing so fat! I'm amazed at the difference after 5 weeks...I have to count the pre-op diet bec/ I lost 10-13 pounds during that two weeks. As of this morning, I'm 1.2lb away from losing 40lbs. My goal for October is to lose at least 12.2 more to be under 250...haven't been there in ages! It's wild looking at the pic, bec/ even the bridge of my nose looks thinner.
Does anyone know how to post pics other than your avatar on here? I go to upload photos and it tells me I don't have any albums...how would I create an album?
Already got the haircut...
Sep 12, 2011
I'm so ready to start my changes I've already gone and got my hair cut off...I've noticed a lot of people who have gone through WLS end up going for shorter hair cuts after they lose their weight. I'm wondering if it's bec/ we keep our hair longer to "slim" our round faces? (I've still got it longer around my face! lol!) I guess I'm doing it backwards! I didn't intend for this to happen but I'm starting to like it after the shock...especially since it doesn't take as long to fix in the morning!
One week from now I'll be in the hospital being woken up by the nurse to take my vitals...can't wait! Pre-op diet is going okay...down 7 pounds so far...hope to lose 3-5 more at least before surgery...
Hope all my OH friends are doing well this week!
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One week from now I'll be in the hospital being woken up by the nurse to take my vitals...can't wait! Pre-op diet is going okay...down 7 pounds so far...hope to lose 3-5 more at least before surgery...
Hope all my OH friends are doing well this week!
And so the Pre-Op diet begins...
Sep 06, 2011
I have never been excited about dieting. I've been excited about losing weight. It's the idea of deprivation that just literally pi$$e$ me off! 
I started the protein shake for breakfast, protein shake for lunch with a piece of fruit, and low cal (Healthy choice, Lean Cuisine) for dinner diet yesterday...which really isn't that bad compared to what I've heard others have had to go through. But I added it up and it's less than 1000 calories a day, 800 if even. So I know I'll lose some weight within the next two weeks if I follow it like I'm supposed to.
I started a food diary as well, to hold myself accountable. I think accountability plays a large roll...uh, I mean role in my success.
Yesterday wasn't bad until we went to the mall and walked around...and then there was Chic-Fil-A...I love Chic-Fil-A. Then there was the smell of the cinnamon sugar pretzels...I can count the number of them I've ever had on one hand, I don't usually get one, but of course I was MAD
bec/ I knew I couldn't have one and I couldn't go to Chic-Fil-A. I guess I'm going to feel this way for a while...at least until the weight comes off and I see the results of the deprivation.
I know I shouldn't look at it as deprivation...but a change in my lifestyle, but right now I'm to "ill/irritated" to convice myself of that right now.
This morning I had a 230 calorie Jimmy Dean D-light muffin with egg, cheese, canadian bacon on the way to work with my protein shake bec/ I didn't eat dinner last night. And then I rationed out 6 almonds between breakfast and lunch and 6 more between lunch and dinner. (Of course, I still feel the guilt
for "snacking" when I'm not supposed to be...) By the time I got home and did 20 minutes on the elliptical, I wasn't really hungry, but I ate my Healthy Choice (in front of the tv, still have to change that) and found myself wanting more even before I was finished...maybe it was bec/ I was watching tv. The whole time thinking, I wasn't even hungry before?!?
Tim is being supportive, he found out he was diabetic a few months ago when I started looking into the surgery and has since lost 30lbs, I hate him, but I'm really proud of him. He cut out the diet mt. dew's and usually drinks only water and watches what he eats, doesn't eat any junk like he used to. He hasn't exercised or anything. Of course he's going to lose more this next few weeks, bec/ we're on a frozen dinner diet for now.
I'm certainly hoping this gets easier as the week goes on. I keep telling myself this won't be ending after the two week pre-op diet...I'm trying to get my mind off of the whole "deprivation" concept...I'm afraid that if I don't, I'll eventually start eating like I used to bec/ I've felt deprived...the killer of all the diets I've ever been on...
I just wish I could stop being so pi$$y!Maybe as the surgery gets nearer, I'll be more excited and it will take my mind off of the 'diet'. 13 days to go! I realized I only have 8 more days at work...Ya-hoo!
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I started the protein shake for breakfast, protein shake for lunch with a piece of fruit, and low cal (Healthy choice, Lean Cuisine) for dinner diet yesterday...which really isn't that bad compared to what I've heard others have had to go through. But I added it up and it's less than 1000 calories a day, 800 if even. So I know I'll lose some weight within the next two weeks if I follow it like I'm supposed to.
I started a food diary as well, to hold myself accountable. I think accountability plays a large roll...uh, I mean role in my success.
Yesterday wasn't bad until we went to the mall and walked around...and then there was Chic-Fil-A...I love Chic-Fil-A. Then there was the smell of the cinnamon sugar pretzels...I can count the number of them I've ever had on one hand, I don't usually get one, but of course I was MAD
bec/ I knew I couldn't have one and I couldn't go to Chic-Fil-A. I guess I'm going to feel this way for a while...at least until the weight comes off and I see the results of the deprivation.I know I shouldn't look at it as deprivation...but a change in my lifestyle, but right now I'm to "ill/irritated" to convice myself of that right now.
This morning I had a 230 calorie Jimmy Dean D-light muffin with egg, cheese, canadian bacon on the way to work with my protein shake bec/ I didn't eat dinner last night. And then I rationed out 6 almonds between breakfast and lunch and 6 more between lunch and dinner. (Of course, I still feel the guilt
for "snacking" when I'm not supposed to be...) By the time I got home and did 20 minutes on the elliptical, I wasn't really hungry, but I ate my Healthy Choice (in front of the tv, still have to change that) and found myself wanting more even before I was finished...maybe it was bec/ I was watching tv. The whole time thinking, I wasn't even hungry before?!? Tim is being supportive, he found out he was diabetic a few months ago when I started looking into the surgery and has since lost 30lbs, I hate him, but I'm really proud of him. He cut out the diet mt. dew's and usually drinks only water and watches what he eats, doesn't eat any junk like he used to. He hasn't exercised or anything. Of course he's going to lose more this next few weeks, bec/ we're on a frozen dinner diet for now.
I'm certainly hoping this gets easier as the week goes on. I keep telling myself this won't be ending after the two week pre-op diet...I'm trying to get my mind off of the whole "deprivation" concept...I'm afraid that if I don't, I'll eventually start eating like I used to bec/ I've felt deprived...the killer of all the diets I've ever been on...
I just wish I could stop being so pi$$y!
Maybe as the surgery gets nearer, I'll be more excited and it will take my mind off of the 'diet'. 13 days to go! I realized I only have 8 more days at work...Ya-hoo!Nesting?!?!
Aug 29, 2011
I've noticed something happening around my house the last couple of weekends, I've been cleaning to the extreme...and I'm definitely not a clean freak!
Friday before last, I started in on my bathroom as soon as I got home...I was even lying on the floor cleaning the baseboards, cleaned out the cabinets, cleaned the toilet, inside and out, scrubbed the shower, mopped...if you knew me, this would shock you...especially on a Friday night.
Then this past weekend, I got up at 7:30a Saturday, which is unheard of for me. I did go to bed earlier than usual, I fell asleep around 11 (reading a book I got off amazon.com, "Fat No More"). I started cleaning the house doing the regular stuff, vacuuming, laundry, running dishwasher, etc. Then I decided to vacuum off the Elliptical...it was pretty dusty, then I found myself vacuuming the blinds in my bedroom...Ummmm...I've NEVER vacuumed blinds, cleaned blinds or anything like that...while I was doing it, I thought to myself that it is as if I'm nesting, which is what pregnant moms do in preparation for their new baby. I must be preparing for the NEW me! Getting my house in order, literally and figuratively...and it feels pretty darn good. THREE WEEKS TO GO!!!
AND after dusting off the elliptical, I decided to try it out. Made it for 20 minutes, with a few short breaks, AND did it again Sunday and again tonight. It's amazing how just the act of doing it makes me feel so much better...why is it so hard to get started and why does it get to where I eventually make excuses not to do it? NOTE TO SELF: GET ON THE ELLIPTICAL IF YOU'RE FEELING BAD...YOU WILL FEEL BETTER AFTERWARDS BECAUSE YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF...NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT FOR YOU!!!! (now let's see if that works...) You may remember in my post a couple of weeks ago or so I said I was going to try to start exercising...well, it took a couple of weeks, but I'm finally there.
Back to the subject of nesting, is this common for people preparing for WLS?
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Friday before last, I started in on my bathroom as soon as I got home...I was even lying on the floor cleaning the baseboards, cleaned out the cabinets, cleaned the toilet, inside and out, scrubbed the shower, mopped...if you knew me, this would shock you...especially on a Friday night.
Then this past weekend, I got up at 7:30a Saturday, which is unheard of for me. I did go to bed earlier than usual, I fell asleep around 11 (reading a book I got off amazon.com, "Fat No More"). I started cleaning the house doing the regular stuff, vacuuming, laundry, running dishwasher, etc. Then I decided to vacuum off the Elliptical...it was pretty dusty, then I found myself vacuuming the blinds in my bedroom...Ummmm...I've NEVER vacuumed blinds, cleaned blinds or anything like that...while I was doing it, I thought to myself that it is as if I'm nesting, which is what pregnant moms do in preparation for their new baby. I must be preparing for the NEW me! Getting my house in order, literally and figuratively...and it feels pretty darn good. THREE WEEKS TO GO!!!
AND after dusting off the elliptical, I decided to try it out. Made it for 20 minutes, with a few short breaks, AND did it again Sunday and again tonight. It's amazing how just the act of doing it makes me feel so much better...why is it so hard to get started and why does it get to where I eventually make excuses not to do it? NOTE TO SELF: GET ON THE ELLIPTICAL IF YOU'RE FEELING BAD...YOU WILL FEEL BETTER AFTERWARDS BECAUSE YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF...NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT FOR YOU!!!! (now let's see if that works...) You may remember in my post a couple of weeks ago or so I said I was going to try to start exercising...well, it took a couple of weeks, but I'm finally there.
Back to the subject of nesting, is this common for people preparing for WLS?
Quote I came across...
Aug 22, 2011
I came across this today when I "Googled" Discipline and Self Control and I really like it and thought I would share...
"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours -- it is an amazing journey -- and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." - Bob Moawad
I have printed it out and put it on the front of my computer monitor for me to read everyday.
Here's to having the best day of my life and using the gift of this RNY tool to improve the quality of it!
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"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours -- it is an amazing journey -- and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." - Bob Moawad
I have printed it out and put it on the front of my computer monitor for me to read everyday.
Here's to having the best day of my life and using the gift of this RNY tool to improve the quality of it!
Getting Cold Feet...
Aug 21, 2011
I received a call from by manager last night whose wife had gastric bypass surgery 2-3 years ago. Apparently her bowel twisted, which the doctor's office mention could happen as a result of the surgery. As a result, she had to have emergency surgery.
Now I'm confused and more concerned...is this a sign that maybe I shouldn't have it?
I don't really want to bring this up with my family and friends bec/ then I know they will probably try to discourage me from having it. But I'd like someone to talk about it with.
Do the benefits of the surgery outweigh the risk?
I'm also concerned because I started thinking yesterday about how hard it is going to be for me to adjust...I LOVE Food! I look forward to eating and I usually eat whatever I crave. I'm going to have to find something else to anticipate throughout my day and that's going to be hard.
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Now I'm confused and more concerned...is this a sign that maybe I shouldn't have it?
I don't really want to bring this up with my family and friends bec/ then I know they will probably try to discourage me from having it. But I'd like someone to talk about it with. Do the benefits of the surgery outweigh the risk?
I'm also concerned because I started thinking yesterday about how hard it is going to be for me to adjust...I LOVE Food! I look forward to eating and I usually eat whatever I crave. I'm going to have to find something else to anticipate throughout my day and that's going to be hard.
I have a date...not with a guy, but with the OR!
Aug 17, 2011
Well, today finally came and I went in to have the surgery scheduled. The PA asked me when I'd like to have it done and I told her "As soon as possible!". She was looking at the calendar and commented that they were booked up Monday and Tuesday of next week and I'm thinking, "This is going to happen! And maybe sooner that I thought!" Then she said they could do it the 6th. I was like, "Wow, that's only two weeks away! I can handle that!" Then when she sent me to talk with the scheduler, the scheduler pointed out something, so it had to be moved to the 19th...two more weeks later. I can't explain why, but that really brought me down. I guess I had gotten so hyped about it being around the corner and then it got shot down. I tried to remind myself that I'm still going to have it and I've made it this far and it hasn't killed me! God has a plan and in His plan, I'm supposed to have the surgery on the 19th!
Dr. Davidson went over the possible complications and I signed the consent and paid for the surgery...now to figure out how to pay the hospital when the time comes...maybe another reason it's not a bad thing it's been postponed!
I guess I'd rather have it moved out two extra weeks now, rather than getting the call in two weeks that it would have to be rescheduled!
It's just so hard not to obsess about the surgery...it seems to be all I can focus on. I'm having a hard time concentrating at work. I was hoping it would get a little easier once I had the date...it's not. All I want to do is research online...everything from books and protein shakes...I ordered a couple of books off of amazon.com today...looking forward to receiving them, I hope they'll help. Trying to figure out what low-carb protein shake I'm going to try for the two weeks before surgery...stay tuned...
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Dr. Davidson went over the possible complications and I signed the consent and paid for the surgery...now to figure out how to pay the hospital when the time comes...maybe another reason it's not a bad thing it's been postponed!
I guess I'd rather have it moved out two extra weeks now, rather than getting the call in two weeks that it would have to be rescheduled!It's just so hard not to obsess about the surgery...it seems to be all I can focus on. I'm having a hard time concentrating at work. I was hoping it would get a little easier once I had the date...it's not. All I want to do is research online...everything from books and protein shakes...I ordered a couple of books off of amazon.com today...looking forward to receiving them, I hope they'll help. Trying to figure out what low-carb protein shake I'm going to try for the two weeks before surgery...stay tuned...
Hope
Aug 09, 2011
Well, here goes...I'm on the verge of setting the date for my surgery with my surgeon next week, the day after my 38th birthday, Happy Birthday to me!
I started pursuing the gastric bypass in May and slowly but surely I have made it here.
I'll never forget how psyched I was after the seminar and how I cried when I found out my insurance covers the surgery if you meet the criteria and I more than did. I went in and shared with a co-worker who had the surgery 2 years ago, she said she knew what I was feeling...it was "HOPE". And she was exactly right! I had HOPE!
The surgeon's office couldn't call me fast enough to set up my consultation appointment. I ended up calling them after two weeks and it turned out my paperwork had gotten buried on someone's desk. Once I got the appointment I still had to wait a couple of weeks. It seems excruciating at the time. At the appointment it was mostly question and anwer. I found out what was required of me financially and what other steps I would need to go through before their office could submit the information to my insurance company for approval.
Then I had to wait another two weeks to meet with the nutritionist (with a group of other surgical candidates). She made the diet sound so easy, but I'm not so sure...I still have concerns. I'm a child of the drive thru and convenience foods. I get stressed when I try to have to plan what I'm going to eat, cook, etc. I usually eat whatever I'm craving and that's going to be hard to adjust to. I'm guilty of using food to comfort me, as well. I'm going to have to find other outlets for my emotional and other needs I use food to fulfill.
Then two weeks later, the meeting with the psychologist. It was pretty basic Q and A. She just had to ask to make sure I understood what I would be undergoing with the surgery, how my lifestyle would have to change...that this was just a tool. We didn't really get into a whole lot of detail about my emotional issues or anything. She agreed I would be a good candidate and said she would have her report to the doctor's office by the end of the week.
Nine days later I get the call from the doctor's office calling to say insurance approved my surgery! Of course, I wasn't there to answer the call and I didn't get anyone until the fourth time I called. My stomach was in knots bec/ I knew there was a "verdict", I just didn't know what it was. When I finally got through, I was told I had been approved and my physical and scheduling (for surgery!) appointment was set for 10 days later. I'm trying to be patient, but it's so hard...it's been a waiting game throughout this whole process, but I know it will be worth it in the end.
So far, it has been 8+ weeks since I've had a carbonated beverage, I'm sticking with Crystal Light and water. It has been 6+ weeks since I quit smoking (so I've put on a few pounds, since...), I'm hoping I don't get fussed at too much...Both of these were big steps for me, so I'm trying to encourage myself for conquering these two hurdles. Now to get started exercising. I have good intentions when I'm lying in the bed at night thinking about how I'm going to get started the next day...and of course, it hasn't happened yet. I'm determined to at least try by the end of this weekend. I hear exercising can help reduce the amount of loose skin throughout the weight loss process, but I know I will have a lot to contend with...
Yesterday was the first day I logged on to this site. It is a little slow, probably bec/ there is so much information, but it is all so good! The goals...I've only been through a few of them, but it's amazing to see so many people wanting the same things I do! "Being able to sit in an airplane seat comfortably!" "Not having to shop for plus sizes..." Just sooo many things...
I'm encouraged and inspired by the Before and After photos. I just can't fathom that one day that will be my before and after photo. The hardest thing for me now is looking at a photo of myself. It literally sends me into the throes of depression...but that's a story for another time.
I read one girl's blog about her experience and it was so inspiring how candid she was and I thought I'd try to start writing about my experience, hopefully to give someone "Hope" or just to remind myself down the road what was going through my mind throughout this process and to see how far I've come.
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I started pursuing the gastric bypass in May and slowly but surely I have made it here.
I'll never forget how psyched I was after the seminar and how I cried when I found out my insurance covers the surgery if you meet the criteria and I more than did. I went in and shared with a co-worker who had the surgery 2 years ago, she said she knew what I was feeling...it was "HOPE". And she was exactly right! I had HOPE!
The surgeon's office couldn't call me fast enough to set up my consultation appointment. I ended up calling them after two weeks and it turned out my paperwork had gotten buried on someone's desk. Once I got the appointment I still had to wait a couple of weeks. It seems excruciating at the time. At the appointment it was mostly question and anwer. I found out what was required of me financially and what other steps I would need to go through before their office could submit the information to my insurance company for approval.
Then I had to wait another two weeks to meet with the nutritionist (with a group of other surgical candidates). She made the diet sound so easy, but I'm not so sure...I still have concerns. I'm a child of the drive thru and convenience foods. I get stressed when I try to have to plan what I'm going to eat, cook, etc. I usually eat whatever I'm craving and that's going to be hard to adjust to. I'm guilty of using food to comfort me, as well. I'm going to have to find other outlets for my emotional and other needs I use food to fulfill.
Then two weeks later, the meeting with the psychologist. It was pretty basic Q and A. She just had to ask to make sure I understood what I would be undergoing with the surgery, how my lifestyle would have to change...that this was just a tool. We didn't really get into a whole lot of detail about my emotional issues or anything. She agreed I would be a good candidate and said she would have her report to the doctor's office by the end of the week.
Nine days later I get the call from the doctor's office calling to say insurance approved my surgery! Of course, I wasn't there to answer the call and I didn't get anyone until the fourth time I called. My stomach was in knots bec/ I knew there was a "verdict", I just didn't know what it was. When I finally got through, I was told I had been approved and my physical and scheduling (for surgery!) appointment was set for 10 days later. I'm trying to be patient, but it's so hard...it's been a waiting game throughout this whole process, but I know it will be worth it in the end.
So far, it has been 8+ weeks since I've had a carbonated beverage, I'm sticking with Crystal Light and water. It has been 6+ weeks since I quit smoking (so I've put on a few pounds, since...), I'm hoping I don't get fussed at too much...Both of these were big steps for me, so I'm trying to encourage myself for conquering these two hurdles. Now to get started exercising. I have good intentions when I'm lying in the bed at night thinking about how I'm going to get started the next day...and of course, it hasn't happened yet. I'm determined to at least try by the end of this weekend. I hear exercising can help reduce the amount of loose skin throughout the weight loss process, but I know I will have a lot to contend with...
Yesterday was the first day I logged on to this site. It is a little slow, probably bec/ there is so much information, but it is all so good! The goals...I've only been through a few of them, but it's amazing to see so many people wanting the same things I do! "Being able to sit in an airplane seat comfortably!" "Not having to shop for plus sizes..." Just sooo many things...
I'm encouraged and inspired by the Before and After photos. I just can't fathom that one day that will be my before and after photo. The hardest thing for me now is looking at a photo of myself. It literally sends me into the throes of depression...but that's a story for another time.
I read one girl's blog about her experience and it was so inspiring how candid she was and I thought I'd try to start writing about my experience, hopefully to give someone "Hope" or just to remind myself down the road what was going through my mind throughout this process and to see how far I've come.
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31.3
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Surgery
09/19/2011
Surgery Date
Aug 08, 2011
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