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Come join me on my new blog page. I am just getting started so I am still learning. What a journey.

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I can't believe how fast it is going, in some ways and not in others. I don't feel nervous about the surgery, I am more nervous about the after part of it. Will I have any complications, will I recover quickly, will it work for me, will I be able to keep the weight off, am I going to exercise like I should? All these crazy questions that I have no answers for until the time comes. It will be one day at a time and a live time of commitment and change. But, I am so looking forward to it. I am ready to start living my life instead of sitting back and watching it go by. I have been in some very uncomfortable spots before and a few very embarrising ones as well. I don't want to every be there again.  And I won't, at least not due to my weight.   I can't wait to start my journey.

I have been approved for surgery and I am thinging of what date I want. I don't want to wait. Maybe March 3rd.  We'll see. Very anxious.

WooHoo!!!!!!!!!  It's a go. Now I just need to call Susan and get the ball rolling. I can't wait. I am so Excited~!  

Wow, the research and the emotional ride is exhausting.  I feel like I have become obsessed with having surgery and it can't happen soon enough. I am still working through things with my husband. I get so upset about how I believe he feels about it that I can't even have a conversation with him. I feel like I can't even bring it up because he's just going to sit there and really not hear me. I know it's not fair to him. I know that if I want to talk about it I need to bring it up and let him deal with it however is best for him. Not jump to my on conclusion of how he is going to respond.  I am so tired and I just want it to be over and move on with my new life. Even the part right after surgery. It has to be better than were I'm at.

I am so looking forward to loosing my weight. I want to have the vertical sleeve surgery. I have a lot of obstables to face before I am going to beable to have the surgery but I am not going to give up and I want it to happen soon.  I have dieted and yo yoed up and down for so long I am tired. I just want to be albe to start living my life and enjoy life.