JMackDo
Well I just had my 29th birthday close to a month ago and I refuse to be fat and 30. I have been battling my weight my whole life. I went on my first diet when I was 8 and never came off of it. My senior year of high school, I got down to 147 for about a minute and never saw it again. After that I went to college and discovered that I like beer. The Freshman 15 was more like the Freshman 50 for me. I kept between 175 and 185 for my 2nd and 3rd year of college. The my last semester of my Senior year was absolutely horrible. There was total and constant friction between myself and my roomates, my boyfrind dumped me the day before Valentine's Day, and my grandmother died two weeks later, whom I was extremely close to. All of this and I had 3 months left of school when I just wanted to go home. And I was totally depressed because of my grandmother and on top of that, I lived with two Psychology majors, who told me how I need to get up and do things and don't be depressed. Seriously, my grandmother had just died. That made me just close myself off. So I had hit the 200 mark at graduation and then gained an extra 20 that summer being secluded from everyone still at school and cleaning out my gradmother's house. So a year goes by and I try to maintain around 215 and meet a guy who became my future husband. He, like me, is a food lover too. Being that this has been a common interest of ours probably would mean bad things for my weight. I was up to 245 when we got engaged, brought it down to 220 for the wedding and almost 4 years later, I've gained 55 pounds. I am now 275.
I stupidly have been trying to have a baby since January. I went to vist family for my birthday and an aquantence of mine had a VSG done at the beginning of August. I kept thinking how that would be great after a baby. Well, everything dawned on me about a week and a half ago that I should get this done first. I can't bring a baby into a world where I would be a poor influence.
So here I am ending a bad start and starting fresh. I just hope I can go down to a managable weight and stay there. My ultimate goal is 135. But my first goal is clothing size. I want to be out of all twenties. Get out of the 26/24. 22/20. I'm ready for the size 18. That's a step in the right direction!
