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Well it's over.  Sunday I was a wreck.  Just going over and over in my head if it's the right thing to do etc.   I had NO sleep whatsoever, and by Monday morning, I was REALLY a wreck.  I was so nervous. I had lost 13 pounds since my 2 week preop diet.  Anyway, I ended up being kept in the hospital one additional day because I was running a fever, and I felt like absolute garbage.   But today, I felt much better.  emotionally and physically.  I'm home now and I'm tired, but I'm in better spirits.  Looking forward to a wonderful night of sleep in my very own bed.  And I still have a week off of work.  I'm taking every minute too. 

Again, thanks for all the support.  I really appreciate it all.

Just wanted to say a big thanks to all of you who have left messages for me in support.  It helps a lot! 

Things here are fine.  I was a little stressed last night, worrying about the whole surgery thing.  It's just so huge.  My dear husband was going to go to a halloween party tonight but my friend invited me to go with her.  She ended up having tickets to a Def Leppard/ Journey concert and knew if she told me I wouldn't go.... Anyway, my sweet hubby stayed home and let me go knowing I'm going to be out of commission for a bit.  How sweet he is.  I hardly slept last night just thinking about everything.  I'm going to take something tonight to help me sleep.  5 more protein shakes. 1 more day.  7am Monday morning is going to come quickly.  

OK, so last night was really a bad night.  I took bites of DH's supper and was wanting to eat everything in sight.  Then I got all depressed and worried about the upcoming surgery and basically the night just sucked.  Today when I woke up it was a whole new day.  My husband went and bought me 3 puzzles last night so I don't have to stand in the kitchen while he's making supper.  He's so great.  
Today I have a better outlook on life, surgery etc.  I KNOW I'm going to have bad days post op.  I just hope the good days outweigh the bad.  Three more days.

Well, times ticking and I'm almost there.  My nerves are a little on edge.  But I'm ready.  It's hard to imagine how I'm going to look in a matter of months.  More importantly how am I going to feel? I am excited that I am on the road to weight loss.  Not eating anything but raw vegetables and protein shakes for the last week and a half has really helped me see how things are going to be when I'm post op.  The plus is that I hopefully won't have a growling stomach constantly. 

Well, it's getting closer. So many things go through my mind on a daily basis.  Everything from OMG am I doing the right thing to I can't wait.  Still doing pretty well on the preop diet.  It's hard at mealtimes certainly but as long as I'm not stomach growling hungry, it works.  Weighed myself today (told myself I wouldn't until I went to the hospital) and I was down about 10 pounds.  But that's on my home scale, who knows if it's the same.  There's a pretty good scale at work, but I never seem to have the time when someone isn't standing right there.   My hubby and I bought a new van today. Well, new to us.  It's awesome and I'm sure we'll continue to love it.  The lady from pre-registration called me today to pre-register me for surg on Monday....I guess it's really happening. 

So, I am sure hoping there is some sort of way that the old blogs get transferred to the new blog.  

Anyway, I'm on day 7 of my 14 day pre op liquid/veggie diet.  Yesterday was the hardest.  Went to the mall with my hubby and girls and they all had yummy mall lunch and I had a plain salad from Mickey D's.   Then at supper my little one had a piece of bread with cheese melted on top of it.  I couldn't help myself.  I took two very small bites.  Like smaller than one of my  "old" big bites.  But I felt awful.  One more week of this diet.   So, I'm just going to keep taking it one more day at a time.