kat19136
Well, lets see....I have always been overweight at least as long as I can remember. Looking back thought I get angry because I really wasn't. I was always told I was chubby, but when I see a pic of myself now, I was just a normal kid!! 
I think it's sad, be cause I truly feel it's affected my whole life. Being constantly told I wasn't good enough or beautiful the was I was. Which has dominoed to where I am at today. I just wanted to acknowledge that here, but I will let it go, because I know holding on to anger and pain will only hold me back.
Through my 20's I was probably only about 30-40 lbs overweight, then I had a baby in 1989. Still I didn't gain much and lost most of it so from that point on I always hung around 175-180, then at some point in the ninetys the scale kept creeping up til I was over 200lbs. I guess I was around 210 or so when I did Herbalife and got down to 170 again, and boy did I feel like I was a hottie then!! LOL! I maintained that for about 1 1/2 yrs, then the scale began to climb and by 2000 I was well over 200lbs, maybe 230 or so. That is when I first went to consult about WLS, and was flat out denied by my insurance, because they told me my company didn't take the ryder for wls.
So the scales continue to climb, and I say that currently becuase I have gained about 15-20 just in the last few months. Now topping out at 302 at my first consultation at Dr. Bonnani's.
I am hoping for the DS Surgery and from what I see and read look forward to a bright future where I can finally get my weight under control. I know it won't be easy, nothing worthwhile ever is, but with the Lord's help I will make it!!
