Kathy_08
Ok, last summer, June 2007, I finally had enough of my weight. I swore if I ever reached 200lbs I would shot myself. Well I was way over and had no plans in shotting myself. I knew I was going down hill and it wasn't going to be a pretty one. I went to my PCP and ask for diet pills. I took Fen-Phen years ago and it did work the one month I took it. I knew you could not get Fen-Phen anymore, but you could get the Phen part. After taking it for 2 weeks and still didn't lose a pound. I tried everything but still was getting worst and even more depressed with myself. I decided on WLS. Lap Band to be specific. I look at Doctors who were close to my location which was Lubbock, which is still 2 hours away. I got my package from them and something didn't seem right so I freaked out and cancelled my appointment. I decided I don't need WLS and I can still lose weight on my own. I still thought (and somewhat think now) WLS is the easy way out. The biggest hang up I had was that I wanted to hear from a "real" person story about WLS. Finally I got a customer that said she had the surgery, her sister had the surgery and her mother had the surgery. It was the best thing they ever did. I took her excitment about the success of WLS and their surgeons name and decided to go for it. Their surgeon was in El Paso, which was 4 hours away, but due able. So I was on my way.......Finally got my approval on 1/12/08, only a 3 day wait and I was told on a Saturday...WOW.. Only requirement left was Educational Seminar and meet the Surgeron. The day I met with the Surgeon, I changed my mind on which surgery I wanted. I went from Lap Band to Gastric Bypass. I had my surgery date 2/4/08 then something happen at the doctors office which had to be delay till 2/11.08. I hope everything goes well. I am very nervous b/c I haven't had any major surgery or had to stay in a hospital overnight...
Surgery went fine. The hospital stay really suck. I didn't realize how much they don't leave you alone. I also had a hard time sleeping on my back. I don't slept on my back ever. I used the pain medications to sleep more than for pain. I went in the hospital on a Monday and was out on Thursday.
I am like everyone else, I went through major "WTF" did I do to myself. I also hated not eating. I still hated not eating.
I did my food stages, but tested my limits often. They back fired, but I still tried.
I have learned that this surgery is a good thing. It sucks but it is suppose to suck. I got everything I ever wanted from the surgery. I consider myself having surgerical induced anoxeria with a case of bulimia and slowly becoming a vegetarian. I always wanted not to have to eat, because my mind told me too and my stomach was loud about what my mind said (that is the anoxeria part). I never like to throw up from eating too much, but I can now (that is the bulimia part) and I always wanted to eat healthier and maybe less meat (that is the vegetarian part, b/c I don't tolerate meat very well). I know this sounds stupid to everyone else, but I am happy. I still hate not being able to eat alot, but I know I need to deal with the issue of being addicted to food.
I recently had a stall on losing weight. I was wondering if the scales was broken. Even though I wasn't losing, I was happy at least I wasn't gaining. When i dieted (life style change), I would lose and then gain it back plus a little. The scales started moving again. I am not going to hold my breathe on how much, but at least it is going down, slowly is better than nothing or gaining.
