Kim C.
Finding my way
Aug 04, 2008
152.2
I have saved this post several times trying to get rid of the weird spacing issue and have no idea how to do that, so I guess it will be a challenge to read...
It has been a really long time since I have posted anything on this profile. My life is very full and I think I do my best to really enjoy it. I was creeping up in my weight and my alcohol use and have cut down on the beer - which seems to have had a positive effect on my weight. Both feel good. I feel in control of my choices again. I just read my March post and realize that this has been an issue for some time.
I was drinking 2-3 beers every night and then even more on weekends. I had one pretty embarrassing day at my mom's where I got so drunk I had to sleep. In my own defense it was a pretty emotional day and I wasn't handling it well - obviously. We had to put our adored pet down because she was biting people and pets around us.
I feel more in control now. The new alcohol rule is Friday, Saturday, Sunday and vacation only. Choose how many before hand and stick to it. So far, so good and down 3 pounds in one week.
My husband and I have taken motorcycle driving lessons and bought a motorcycle. Honestly, the course was much easier than driving our own. I am too scared and have backed off for now. My husband is doing really well though so maybe soon he'll be able to ride me on the back!
I have saved this post several times trying to get rid of the weird spacing issue and have no idea how to do that, so I guess it will be a challenge to read...
It has been a really long time since I have posted anything on this profile. My life is very full and I think I do my best to really enjoy it. I was creeping up in my weight and my alcohol use and have cut down on the beer - which seems to have had a positive effect on my weight. Both feel good. I feel in control of my choices again. I just read my March post and realize that this has been an issue for some time.
I was drinking 2-3 beers every night and then even more on weekends. I had one pretty embarrassing day at my mom's where I got so drunk I had to sleep. In my own defense it was a pretty emotional day and I wasn't handling it well - obviously. We had to put our adored pet down because she was biting people and pets around us.
I feel more in control now. The new alcohol rule is Friday, Saturday, Sunday and vacation only. Choose how many before hand and stick to it. So far, so good and down 3 pounds in one week.
My husband and I have taken motorcycle driving lessons and bought a motorcycle. Honestly, the course was much easier than driving our own. I am too scared and have backed off for now. My husband is doing really well though so maybe soon he'll be able to ride me on the back!
Creeping
Mar 16, 2008
156.6
I weigh in on Tuesday. Last Tuesday I was 156.6, down from 157. I was fluctuating between 151 and 154.6 for about 3-4 months so when I started to creep up it wasn't obvious to me. It is now. I think that beer and unplanned eating are the culprits. I am currently not drinking during the week, only on weekends. I am also trying to record my food to see if that will get me back down. If that doesn't work, I will try positive reinforcement. Stickers and everything for days that I meet my goals (write everything down, protein 70 or more grams, exercise at least 20 minutes, calories under 1400, take all my supplements). Come to think of it I should just start doing this now. I guess I'll start today.
I weigh in on Tuesday. Last Tuesday I was 156.6, down from 157. I was fluctuating between 151 and 154.6 for about 3-4 months so when I started to creep up it wasn't obvious to me. It is now. I think that beer and unplanned eating are the culprits. I am currently not drinking during the week, only on weekends. I am also trying to record my food to see if that will get me back down. If that doesn't work, I will try positive reinforcement. Stickers and everything for days that I meet my goals (write everything down, protein 70 or more grams, exercise at least 20 minutes, calories under 1400, take all my supplements). Come to think of it I should just start doing this now. I guess I'll start today.
Happy new year
Jan 19, 2008
153.8
The truth is there really is not much to write about but I feel guilty for not writing. I currently weigh 153.8 and feel much bigger than when I was at 151. It is awkward to know that I am so much smaller but I feel big right now. My clothes are starting to feel snug and I need to lose, I just don't know how much. It is amazing how 3 pounds can make such a difference or is it a shift in how my weight is distributed? Who knows! I would like my clothes to be comfortable again. The ironic part is all of the gain has happened since I started working out again. It sort of makes me think about not working out even though I know that is not reasonable.
I need to get a handle on my eating. I have started grazing all day and need to stop that. I will start to record my food again and become more mindful. I do not want to start a return to the obese me. I love being a "normal" weight and wearing "normal" clothes with no W or X in the size.
I know what to do so now I will do it.
The truth is there really is not much to write about but I feel guilty for not writing. I currently weigh 153.8 and feel much bigger than when I was at 151. It is awkward to know that I am so much smaller but I feel big right now. My clothes are starting to feel snug and I need to lose, I just don't know how much. It is amazing how 3 pounds can make such a difference or is it a shift in how my weight is distributed? Who knows! I would like my clothes to be comfortable again. The ironic part is all of the gain has happened since I started working out again. It sort of makes me think about not working out even though I know that is not reasonable.
I need to get a handle on my eating. I have started grazing all day and need to stop that. I will start to record my food again and become more mindful. I do not want to start a return to the obese me. I love being a "normal" weight and wearing "normal" clothes with no W or X in the size.
I know what to do so now I will do it.
I am my own hero
Nov 07, 2007
I am my own hero. I was watching Oprah (an old one on my DVR) about the book Eat, Love, Pray when it occurred to me that I am very uncomfortable being quiet with myself. There is always noise - the radio, the tv, a book or magazine, the computer... I was going to take a bath and be quiet with myself, but my 15yo chose that time to have a toddler sized temper tantrum. Ahhh, the best laid plans of mice and men... anyhow, I am going to try to do it today. Maybe I'll leave the radio off on the way to school, or better yet the way home.
The other thing that struck me was in the author's search for something she discovered that she is her own hero. That is when I realized that through the past 7 years I have become my own hero. I spent my adolescence and early adulthood "trying on" personalities, without the confidence to just be. When my daughter was in third grade I quit my job as an alcohol counselor and went back to school to be a teacher. For the first time in my life I was putting myself first by persuing my own dreams without getting a consensus from everyone in my life. Then as my confidence started growing and I started REALLY liking my life, being proud of it, I met my husband. Things just kept getting better... and then I had my surgery. Now I'm even proud of how I look.
I am my own hero.
Now I need to stay my own hero. I don't think resting on my laurels is how I do that. I think I need to ride this wave into further personal growth. I'm not sure where that needs to take me but I'm willing to do the leg work and I need to start with being quiet with myself.
The other thing that struck me was in the author's search for something she discovered that she is her own hero. That is when I realized that through the past 7 years I have become my own hero. I spent my adolescence and early adulthood "trying on" personalities, without the confidence to just be. When my daughter was in third grade I quit my job as an alcohol counselor and went back to school to be a teacher. For the first time in my life I was putting myself first by persuing my own dreams without getting a consensus from everyone in my life. Then as my confidence started growing and I started REALLY liking my life, being proud of it, I met my husband. Things just kept getting better... and then I had my surgery. Now I'm even proud of how I look.
I am my own hero.
Now I need to stay my own hero. I don't think resting on my laurels is how I do that. I think I need to ride this wave into further personal growth. I'm not sure where that needs to take me but I'm willing to do the leg work and I need to start with being quiet with myself.
One year ago today
Oct 02, 2007
151
I wish I had taken today off of work. I would really like to take some time for reflection. I have about 5 minutes now so I will do my best.
This past year has been like nothing I could ever have imagined. It is a real life fairy tale. I feel like Cinderella. I am beautiful inside and out. I have never felt beautiful before. It is a real confidence booster. I love getting up in the morning and choosing what to wear. I love shopping. I still love cooking although I bake much less. I love gardening even more because it is so much easier. My house is cleaner because I can keep up with it so much easier. I move. I move so much more throughout a typical day. I still love food. I thought that would go away. It hasn't. It's a good thing. I am very picky about food - I don't eat much so what I eat better be great!!
I record my food every day on fitday.com and average 1400 calories a day and never go under 60 grams of protein. At my 1 year appointment my vitamin D was low, so I have doubled up on it and am taking 50,000mg once a week for 8 weeks. My weight has stabilized between 151 and 154. My goal is to stay under 155. I exercise but focus mostly on strength training. I aim for twice a week.
I have met and exceeded every goal I set for myself this year and feel a little empty without more weight loss goals. It is not nearly as exciting to maintain as it is to lose. I hope for everyone to feel as great as I do!!
I wish I had taken today off of work. I would really like to take some time for reflection. I have about 5 minutes now so I will do my best.
This past year has been like nothing I could ever have imagined. It is a real life fairy tale. I feel like Cinderella. I am beautiful inside and out. I have never felt beautiful before. It is a real confidence booster. I love getting up in the morning and choosing what to wear. I love shopping. I still love cooking although I bake much less. I love gardening even more because it is so much easier. My house is cleaner because I can keep up with it so much easier. I move. I move so much more throughout a typical day. I still love food. I thought that would go away. It hasn't. It's a good thing. I am very picky about food - I don't eat much so what I eat better be great!!
I record my food every day on fitday.com and average 1400 calories a day and never go under 60 grams of protein. At my 1 year appointment my vitamin D was low, so I have doubled up on it and am taking 50,000mg once a week for 8 weeks. My weight has stabilized between 151 and 154. My goal is to stay under 155. I exercise but focus mostly on strength training. I aim for twice a week.
I have met and exceeded every goal I set for myself this year and feel a little empty without more weight loss goals. It is not nearly as exciting to maintain as it is to lose. I hope for everyone to feel as great as I do!!
September
Sep 30, 2007
151
I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted anything. Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr. O'Malley for my 1 year follow up. I am looking forward to seeing the nurse practitioner. I'm anxious about my bloodwork and would like to know what nutritional guidelines there will be.
I just feel so proud and happy. I feel better about myself now than I ever have in my life. I love how I look, especially in clothes. I am so comfortable in my skin. I love my size 8 pants more than anything... I love clothes shopping and getting dressed every morning. I record my food every day and eat about 1400 calories a day on average. I do strength training at least 1 time a week and try to do 2 times a week. I am more active in general but do not do "cardio" on a regular basis. I can eat just about anything but avoid really starchy pasta dishes, heavy desserts, soft bread, baked goods in general. I do eat 1/2 bagel every week and rice and potatoes. I feel so lucky to have this second chance. I weigh myself every week and record it. I hope to write more on my anniversary.
I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted anything. Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr. O'Malley for my 1 year follow up. I am looking forward to seeing the nurse practitioner. I'm anxious about my bloodwork and would like to know what nutritional guidelines there will be.
I just feel so proud and happy. I feel better about myself now than I ever have in my life. I love how I look, especially in clothes. I am so comfortable in my skin. I love my size 8 pants more than anything... I love clothes shopping and getting dressed every morning. I record my food every day and eat about 1400 calories a day on average. I do strength training at least 1 time a week and try to do 2 times a week. I am more active in general but do not do "cardio" on a regular basis. I can eat just about anything but avoid really starchy pasta dishes, heavy desserts, soft bread, baked goods in general. I do eat 1/2 bagel every week and rice and potatoes. I feel so lucky to have this second chance. I weigh myself every week and record it. I hope to write more on my anniversary.
Road Trip
Aug 25, 2007
152
We had a wonderful time on our road trip across the country. When I got back, I went and bought a scale. I think I'll stick with the weekly weigh-ins for now, but in the morning, before breakfast, with no clothes. It certainly made a difference this morning - 152. I ate pretty well on vacation. A few more desserts, but could really only have a few bites ever. Once, I got a little cocky and had a waffle for breakfast. The explosive BM that followed set me straight. I brought protein with me and had a protein coffee every morning to start the day right. I'm sure my protein level was low on average but not horrible. I wrote all my food down on paper - no internet most of the time- and will input the info into fitday soon. I was able to do more on this trip than I have ever been able to do. I climbed mountains, hiked all day, tried on leather chaps at the Sturgis biker rally, wore a tank top in public, felt pretty almost every day. It was great. This surgery has given me a life I never even dreamed possible!
We had a wonderful time on our road trip across the country. When I got back, I went and bought a scale. I think I'll stick with the weekly weigh-ins for now, but in the morning, before breakfast, with no clothes. It certainly made a difference this morning - 152. I ate pretty well on vacation. A few more desserts, but could really only have a few bites ever. Once, I got a little cocky and had a waffle for breakfast. The explosive BM that followed set me straight. I brought protein with me and had a protein coffee every morning to start the day right. I'm sure my protein level was low on average but not horrible. I wrote all my food down on paper - no internet most of the time- and will input the info into fitday soon. I was able to do more on this trip than I have ever been able to do. I climbed mountains, hiked all day, tried on leather chaps at the Sturgis biker rally, wore a tank top in public, felt pretty almost every day. It was great. This surgery has given me a life I never even dreamed possible!
10 months
Aug 03, 2007
Unfreakinbelievable!! My life is soooooooooooooo great!! I am going on the trip of a lifetime on Monday and cannot wait. I love to shop. Clothes look SO cute on me. Yesterday I tried on a size 8 dress and it looked incredible.
GOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAL!!!!!!!
Jul 10, 2007
159
I did it. I can hardly believe it but I did it. I am officially "normal". Unbelievable. Yeah me!!!
I did it. I can hardly believe it but I did it. I am officially "normal". Unbelievable. Yeah me!!!
9 months
Jul 05, 2007
160
I can't believe I missed my 9 month anniversary. It has happened. My life has become so much more than my weight. I have settled into a more treat filled diet. I'm still losing but I need to be more careful of my choices. I have to limit my sweets some way. It is so much easier to eat junk, although I love my veggies and protein too.
I have been so sad lately because a horrific tragedy in my community. I have dealt with my sadness by eating junk and not exercising. Today I worked out again - yeah!! and have recorded food before I eat. I'm back on track and feel better already. I have to take my measurements and picture. Big fun!!
Oh - my mother. I'm not sure what this is all about but I need to vent a little. I went to her house yesterday for the the 4th. I told her that I wasn't exercising ( I had planned to get back to it on Monday and didn't). She then says, "Yeah, I could tell that you had gained some weight"
What? What?
Of course I totally obsessed about it all day and finally asked her where it looked like I had gained and she said my upper tummy and face. Well, I weighed myself in the afternoon and was 162 at her house. When I weighed in the morning today on my regular scale I had lost another pound to 160 so I am sure there was no gain there. Why would she say that?
I can't believe I missed my 9 month anniversary. It has happened. My life has become so much more than my weight. I have settled into a more treat filled diet. I'm still losing but I need to be more careful of my choices. I have to limit my sweets some way. It is so much easier to eat junk, although I love my veggies and protein too.
I have been so sad lately because a horrific tragedy in my community. I have dealt with my sadness by eating junk and not exercising. Today I worked out again - yeah!! and have recorded food before I eat. I'm back on track and feel better already. I have to take my measurements and picture. Big fun!!
Oh - my mother. I'm not sure what this is all about but I need to vent a little. I went to her house yesterday for the the 4th. I told her that I wasn't exercising ( I had planned to get back to it on Monday and didn't). She then says, "Yeah, I could tell that you had gained some weight"
What? What?
Of course I totally obsessed about it all day and finally asked her where it looked like I had gained and she said my upper tummy and face. Well, I weighed myself in the afternoon and was 162 at her house. When I weighed in the morning today on my regular scale I had lost another pound to 160 so I am sure there was no gain there. Why would she say that?
