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Somehow, I lost 5 pounds this week!!! My gym has been closed, but I've been taking long walks every evening. Yesterday I knew I couldn't walk in the evening, and I had 1/2 an hour to exercise in the morning, so I decided to run! Well, slowly jog is more like it. But I did it! I think I ran for a little over a mile. I've also been keeping up my lunch time walks. Running is something I loved when I was young. I ran track and cross country. When I think of myself back then, I see myself as strong and athletic. I think more running and swimming is in my future. Who knows? Perhaps a mini triathalon?

I only ate one dessert once this week, a small piece of chocolate. It has been nice to eat salads and lettuce. I have been able to give myself a bit more variety. Last night, I ate two fish tacos. They were delicious. I'm going to stop worrying about bits of carbs here and there like the two small corn tortillias last night. I need some variety now. I just need to make sure protein 1st, vegetables and fruit 2nd, and a bit of carbs if I have room. I only have about 21 lbs to go & I know I can do it!  I want to concentrate on the most nutritious and delicious food I can nourish myself with. I realized last night at dinner....I can make this a lifestyle forever....no regrets. It was a wonderful epifany for me. 

I had one glass of wine last night at our county fair. It is weird how alcohol affects me. I know I shouldn't drink very much of it. I've only drank alcohol three times now. But, I have noticed that it effects me much, much faster. I could have drank 3-4 wines before and not felt so buzzed. I guess I'd better re-think driving limits! I was o.k. last night because we didn't drive home for hours after the wine, but I think if I'd tried to immediatly drive home, I'd been impared. 

My clothes are getting really baggy now. I want to wait until September to purchase my new clothes so I can get some cool weather stuff. I can't wait. I'm hoping I may be in my end-size by the end of September as well. I hope I can make it. If not, I may have to take a trip to the thrift store to get some transitional stuff before I get my new wardrobe. I have made a promise to myself to get some quality clothes. I have worked very hard and I deserve a treat! It will be fun.

Current weight 191 Surgery day 273 -82 lbs 21 more to go!

I only lost 1 lb this week. I'm trying really hard to have a good attitude about it. I exercised my butt off this week, but I gotta admit, I ate a small dish of ice cream 3 times this week!!!! I really gotta get a grip. I think I may be eating desert more now than before my surgery! Perhaps it is my attitude of "no guilt." But, I think I'm slowing down my weight loss. Another problem I'm having is constipation. The flaxseed oil has been working well for awhile now, but this week I needed laxative three times. I hate constipation!

On a good note, I did loose more inches this week than last week with a tree lb loss. I lost 1/2 inch of my arm, 1/2 inch of my chest, 1 inch of my waist, and 1/2 inch of my calf. Weird. Last week, I lost three lbs and only lost 1/2 inch from my hips. My body is changing. I used to have a small waist for a morbidly obese woman. My hips and thighs were very large. I've now lost 10 inches off my hips and only 5 inches off my waist. I used to have a hard time finding pants that fit because by the time they fit on my big hips and thighs, they were too big on my waist. Now, I'm having the opposite problem. I'm going to have to find new styles and fits this September. I'm thinking I need "classic fit" pants instead of "straight leg". 

It is my 5 month surgiversary. I had a salad last night for the 1st time. It was yummy! I can't believe it has been 5 months already! Although I get down sometimes about how slow my weight loss is going right now, I am so thankful I had the opportunity to do this. This is the best thing that has happened to me in years! The setbacks are learning experiences that I need. My goal this week is to loose one pound. I need to reset my expectations. 

Current weight 196 surgery day 273 -77 lbs 26 more to go   

What a difference a couple of days makes! I am now 197 lbs. It is Sunday....on Wednesday I was upset because I was 201 lbs. I've lost a pound a day the past several days. I'd like to say it's because I kicked butt, but I think my body was simply ready to let go of it. I know it's silly after everything I've been through, but it was driving me CRAZY going back up over 200 lbs.  I've GOT to get some perspective! Before I started this journey, I was 283 lbs. The day of surgery I was 273 lbs. I've really come a very long way in the past five months. 200 is just a number. Of course, it is easy to have a good attitude when I'm losing, isn't it?

On August the 5th I have my five month anniversary and I'm allowed to start eating raw veggies like salads. I can't wait! I love eating salads in the summer. I keep lots of salad ingredients in the cupboard & hardly eat the same salad twice all summer. The Farmer's market should start getting in some home-grown tomatoes now. I'll just need to make sure to add in some grilled chicken, shrimp, or tuna in my salads. 

I've done preety good the past week with my exercise and eating goals ( except the birthday cake incident). This week I'm going to try aerobics class after work. I'm going to continue avoiding carbs. And I'm going to continue to drink a minimum of 80 oz. of water instead of 64 oz. 

I hope to loose 2 more lbs. because that will mean I weigh less than my husband. I'd really like to reach this goal. But, I'm not holding my breath, because he can really drop weight quickly when he's exercising. He's always working on his health. I really admire that about him. He is 6'1'' so 196 is relatively slim for him, but he's prefer to weigh a bit less. It is helping me knowing this about a slim person. They don't all have it easy. Many people work at it. This way, I know I'll probably always have to be careful as well. The surgery is not a "magic bullett".

Current weight 197 Surgery Day 273 -76 lbs 27 more to go     

I'm so mad. I gained back weight after the flu and am now at 201. I have only lost 4 lbs so far this month. I am on the platau from hell. 4 lbs in 25 days is not cutting it!!!! Worse, 3 of the 4 were in one week. 

OK, enough whining. What can I do to help myself out? I need to amp up my workout routine. I have not started that aerobics class yet...My son's b-day was Monday and my cousin's daughters was yesterday. Today is Wednesday & I just went to the chiropractor. I think I'll go to the gym and work out on the eliptical machine tonight. I need to do both my walk & another workout everyday this week. Next week I'll start aerobics!

I ate birthday cake the other day. I need to stop doing that! Just because I CAN dosn't mean I SHOULD. I really feel like I should loose as much weight as possible during my "honeymoon" period until 6 months. So...knock off the carbs, Karen!!! I also need to make sure to drink extra water right now. It is really hot, and I always drink the minimum.

So...I promise myself! More exercise, more water, and stop eating those carbs!!! I didn't go through all the pain and expense to stop now. I have 30 lbs. to go. 

I am 199.8 lbs! I cannot believe I am under 200!!! I am so happy. I really thought this day would never come. Sadly, I didn't make it by last weekend because I was camping-I didn't weigh but I don't think I made it because my monthly started. Then, on Monday I got a stomach virus and was sick for three days. Terrible way to get below 200, but I'll take it!

I'm going to have to get back on track now because I've not had enough protein for three days now or any vitamins, either. I just couldn't do it. Forget about walking!!! So-I need to refocus now that I'm feeling better and get right back on track before I derail myself. 

I want to start aerobics next week. Now that I'm lighter I think I can handle it. I know that I'll step up when I'm in the class-peer pressure works!


Current weight 199 surgery day 273 -74 lbs 29 more to go!   

I havn't posted in awhile. I was on vacation this past week. We had a wonderful time! We went to Santa Cruz/Monterey. We also seen an Oakland A's baseball game, which was fun. I've never seen a MLB game before! They got spanked though, I wish they won! I did one of my goals this week. Ordinarily, I avoid rides in case I'm too big to fit in them. I would be horrified! I started doing it a number of years ago when the ride operator had to push down on my stomach preety hard & I had to sit up real tall in order to fit in a rollar coaster. I was SOOOO embarrassed! We went to Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk & I went on several rides including the Big Dipper! I fit just fine. I was smiling before the ride even started. I am So stoked! 

We went to the Monterey Bay aquarium which was fascinating. I hear it is the finest aquarium in the US and I believe it! We were there all day. I was on my feet all day at the aquarium and shopping on Cannery Row and I was not in excruciating pain! That is a first if I've ever heard one. We spent a couple of afternoons just lounging on the beach & I didn't feel like I stuck out like a sore thumb. (Although I must say, I seen fewer morbidly obese people this week than ANY other place I've ever visited! I wonder why? And why do I notice these things?) Anyways I truley feel my life has been transformed since the surgery. I'm so glad I decided to do it!!! I don't know if I could have done 1/2 the things I did on my vacation 4 months ago. I'm truley blessed and I'm very thankful. I used to pray to be healed from my obesity. Last Sunday at Mass I realized....Surgery was the answer to my prayer!

Food-wise I did OK....I drank a protein drink every day, had turkey, sliced cheese, hummus, triscuits, and fresh fruit for lunch, and seafood for dinner. However, I did try a Cold Stone ice cream!!!! I wish I hadn't. I didn't get violently sick, but I didn't feel good afterwards. And it didn't even taste good to me. I ate 1/2 of a small - and it tasted so sugary I didn't even enjoy it much!!! I also snacked every day. I am paranoid about protein now....my hair is falling out like crazy. So, I'm drinking an extra protein drink or protein bar every afternoon. I hope it helps. I'm trying to not feel guilty about it....I want guilt about eating to be out of my life. But, my doctor does not want me snacking. He wants me to eat 3 meals a day, period. But he also wants me to eat 80 grams of protein a day and I just can't seem to get them in without the extra protein drink!

So- all-in-all - a terrific week. I didn't do any formal exercise, but I walked everywhere everyday and was exhausted each evening, so I think I did OK. My goal by next Saturday, July 14th is to weigh less than 200 lbs. I believe I'm around 205 right now, but I'm going to wait a couple of days to weigh. I don't want a downer right now. To do this, I'm going to go back to the soft protein stage. (two protein drinks and one serving soft protein like scrambled eggs) I want to do this so I can shake myself up after the vacation. In the past, a vacation like this could totally derail a "diet" and I'm not going to let it do it to me again. So-back to basics the next week and 1/2!!! I'm also planning on hitting the gym harder. When I reach under 200, I'm going to start an aerobics class. Those KICK MY BUTT!!!

Weight 205 Surgery Day 273 -68 lbs 35 more to go!    

I have lost 3 pounds this week. I am now under 30 BMI and am in the "overweight" catagory instead of the OBESE catagory. I am so stoked!!!
Now, I have two goals that I'll reach in the next month or two. 1st, I want to weigh less than 200 lbs. Then, I want to finally weigh less than my husband. 

I have been working a lot this past week and 1/2. I'm really tired. I managed to get a couple of extra workouts in beyond my lunch time walks. I'll try again this week. I just need to keep trying. 

My 15 year old son had his last Babe Ruth Game Thursday. I was really melencholy about it because we have been going to our sons baseball games for the past 14 years. My youngest dosn't want to play High School ball, so baseball has ended for us. I'm going to miss watching them, but I'm kind of a little excited about how I'm going to spend the extra time. I think I'm just going to work out more at the moment. I'm really enjoying it.....it feels like I'm spoiling myself. Maybe later I'll try some kind of community service. I do know I need to fill my life with non-food related interests. 

I drank my 1st cocktail tonight. My sister-in-law had a retirement party. I didn't have any problem with it at all. I only had one because I heard alcohol is hard on my new stomach (I don't like the word pouch for some reason) and it is easy to get drunk for RNY patients. I literally have no food sensitivities at all. I have not eaten anything that didn't agree with me. I'm a little scared about it. Thankfully, I have no hunger still. It is easy to keep on the program with no hunger. I hope and pray I will be strong enough to stay on the program when hunger returns!

Current weight 207 (29.7 BMI!) Surgery Day 273 -66 lbs 37 to go     

I'm really mad at myself. I'm not exercising like I promised myself. I'm only doing my noontime walk. No matter what, I'm at least going to do that. But, if I want real results I need more. I lost 3 lbs this week. I have not had any real screwups with my eating...but I need to get re-motivated with exercise. I've been struggling for weeks. I know I've been busy, but geeze! 

I want to think of myself as an athlete again. When I was young, it was how I thought of myself. I want that again. I will try to find motivation this week. I want to try bicycling, weight training, hiking, etc. It sounds so much better than the lifestyle I was leading as an obese person. I've been on the sidelines cheering my sons on for years. Now, it is my turn to participate in life!

My goal this week is to punch up my exercise and to keep eating right. I hope to loose a minimum of 2lbs. I believe that will put me in the "overweight" catagory instead of the "obese" catagory with my BMI. That will be a great day!!!! I'm really zeroing in on that weight. I feel my risk of obesity-related health problems will go down greatly if I at least hit the overweight catagory. But, my overall goal is to get in the "healthy" catagory-anywhere betweeen 135 and 174 lbs. My surgeon set a goal of 170 lbs which I feel will be perfect for me. Only 40 more lbs to go!

Current weight 210 Surgery Day 273 -63 lbs 40 to go 

Well, it is official. I don't dump. My son graduated High School yesterday. I ate well yesterday, but I screwed up today & had a piece of cake and ice cream for a "snack". The cake even was a side piece w/a lot of buttercream icing. I'm mad at myself for eating it, and a little worried that I don't get the "dumping syndrome". The cake & icecream wasn't even enjoyable to me. I was hoping I wouldn't be tempted to eat sweets. I guess this is going to be harder than I thought!

With all the hustle and bustle getting ready for graduation and my youngest son's baseball schedule, I've just been walking for 45 minutes a day. Now that the graduation is over, I'm going to try to add another 20-30 minute workout in the AM. I'm going to try to increase the workout to 60 minutes once baseball and our vacation is over, in three weeks. 

My birthday was great. I turned 40!!!! I think I decided to do the surgery in part because of this milestone birthday. I was sick & tired of being sick & tired. I have been obese off and on for 20 years now, and 20 years is ENOUGH!! I have a lot of optimism and hope now that I can beat this thing, even with the occasional slip-up. I'm just going to get right back on the horse! Thankfully, my family all gave me clothes for my birthday, so I have enough to last the summer. I cannot believe I'm already in a size 14! Only one pair of shorts is a bit snug, but I'm not returning them because in 2-3 lbs they'll fit perfectly! I guess the clothes will be hanging on me by the end of the summer, but that's ok! I'll buy some new ones this September for fall. I'm hoping to be in my end-size then. 

I lost 2 lbs this week. I'm hoping with the increase in exercise this week, I'll loose at least 2 more lbs this week. I've now lost 60 lbs since surgery day, 70 overall. I'm going to Sacramento on Thursday, but I'm going to try to stick to my program exactly every day this week. Hopefully, I'll see good results! Preety soon, I'll be out of the "obese" catagory and into the "overweight" catagory. Also-onederdand is coming up soon. I can't wait to hit these milestones. I havn't been under 200 for 15 years.

Current weight 213 Surgery day 273 -60 lbs 43 lbs more to go!  
 

Today is my 3 month anniversary! Time flies! I'm really happy about my progress so far. It is hard to believe how far I've come in such a short amount of time. Today I weighed in at 214 lbs. I've now lost 59 lbs since surgery and 69 overall. I feel sooooo much better, even with a little evening fatigue. I think I can loose the rest of the weight in the next four months. Hard to believe!

There has been a couple of negatives. I'm loosing my hair!!! Every morning I find dozens and dozens of hair in my sink and shower. I'm trying to up my protein by drinking a protein shake each day. Perhaps I'm not getting enough. For awhile, they tasted like pure sugar and I hated them, but I'm ok with it now. Constipation is still a problem. I'm taking faxseed oil supplements to help, but still need a laxative now and again.  

On the positive front, I'm in size 14's!!! I wonder what size I'll end up in? I still have 44 lbs to loose. People are starting to not recognize me at 1st glance. It's starting to freak me out. I am really happy I decided to go through with the surgery. The lifestyle is not as difficult to follow as I thought it would be and I'm actually enjoying my food and cooking. I thought my enjoyment of food and cooking were going to be over, so I'm pleasantly surprised. I'm just satisfied with a lot less...or even just preparing the food and not eating it. I have lost a lot of my taste for carby food like pizza. It dosn't even sound good to me...but I'm not missing it.