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Hello ya'll!

It's terrible of me not to get in here and update more often but life happens and that's what is happening in my life as of late. I am down 144 lbs. now and am 12 lbs. away from my goal. I am wearing a size 10 and small and mediums...it's such a delight to be average. I had a lower original goal of 137 but truthfully I don't want to be that small so I will be happy at 156. It's been a year a 2 months since surgery and I am looking forward to having a tummy tuck within the next month. Dr. McCurry will be my surgeon.

My health has greatly improved though I'm still not 100%. I just recently had lithotripsy for the 5th time to get rid of kidney stones and I still suffer a great deal from my gout. It looks like gouty arthritis is going to be my lifelong friend whether I want it or not. I recently went to the doctor and was shocked to discover I have lost an inche and a half of height since surgery, this worries me because it doesn't seem possible. I'm thinking I probably need to have a bone density test and see if I am having problems with my bones. I know that I don't take my calcuim near enough so maybe that has hindered me.

Surgery changes everything and as a result I witnessed the end of my marriage of 6 yrs. but life does move on and I am happy. I am dating a real nice guy and the future looks hopeful. I miss all my friends on here but I just don't have as much time on the computer as I would like too but I do hope and pray you all are doing fine. My daughter, Sierra has recovered nicely from her spine surgery and has very little pain, she enjoys doing just about everything now with no problems...God is good!

It's funny that I am just now beginning to see the real me, not the former fat me. I still do some things that I did when I was fat like turn sideways to go down a narrow pathway because I think I am too big...etc...it's funny how are mind plays these tricks on us. I still grab hold of the door when we turn in the car because I think I am going to fall over as a result of my weight. Of course then I realize that without all the weight I don't move as far...lol I still go in the big stall in public restrooms or look at the smaller ones and worry I won't fit. I still look down my naked body and think I am big but when I look in the mirror I finally see that I am not. There are so many things I still do differently thinking I have to compensate for my bigness but I know in time that too will stop, it's just all very new to me. I also thought that losing weight would give me my self esteem back but I still struggle with those big demons and realize now that I will have to have some counseling to see that I truly do have self worth.

Well gotta go. Take care!

It's been awhile since I wrote last I hate to admit but some things we just cannot help. My 13 yr. old daughter had spine surgery on April 28th and then again on May 5th. She was in the hospital for 2 weeks and it was a terrible time for both of us! She has been home for almost 2 wks now and is doing well and things are slowly getting back to normal.

I went into a long stall I guess because I wasn't caring for myself while I was at the hospital....I stayed with her the whole time and only left the hospital 3 times total. Eating was impossible but snacking was a big problem...the hospital food made me sick and to be honest the only thing that stayed down was stuff I did not need to have. I am finally as of yesterday seeing the scales move again...I am at 98lbs. lost and cannot wait to break the 100lb. mark! Yippee! I actually got into my first size large...a real live normal size large, I'm normal...wow. I am weighing 214 lbs. and my next goal is 199lbs. I want to lose to at least 140 but would be happy just to be where I am at now because at least I can do things now but I intend to keep losing. I am wearing size 16/18 jeans, another milestone for me since I have not worn real zip up jeans in probably 20 yrs.! I am also wearing the same size I wore when I married my children's dad in 1982 so its amazing.

This has been an adventure that has led to a business as well for me, though it is a small mail order business at this time I do hope it will grow. I have been selling bariatric products to people like me who want high protein foods that actually taste good...I am happy with the products and so are my customers. Please email me if you are interested. I also just recently started selling products for a new company which I am really excited about, it is called Isagenix and today I used a product that actually gave me real honest to goodness energy something that has been terribly lacking from my life since Sierra's surgery. If you are interested in their products please check out the website:  http://www.bakersbazaar.isagenix.com/us/en/home.dhtml or email me for more info. The product that I used is called "Want More Energy" it is full of electrolites and stuff that our bodies are missing because of our significant body change, it is a great product for anyone even those who aren't baraitric patients.  Along with that website I do have some products I am selling right now at a huge savings for anyone who is interested, you can visit my website: http://losingtolive.blogspot.com/2008/05/products-for-sale.html to learn more about them and find out how to save some big dough!!

Until next time...take care! kellie 

 

 

I've been busy for awhile but I wanted to take a moment and bring this here. I recently started my own business and it involves ALOT of work and I have so much to do but.....anyway, I wanted to do some contests so that people could win and try out the products I sell. My products are geared for those who have had weightloss surgery like me or who are on a diet or diabetic, actually anyone wanting to change their lifestyle. I distribute for over 180 companies selling protein drinks, snacks, healthfood, vitamins, fitness stuff...etc.... if you eat or drink it I can probably get it and if I can't then maybe I will be able to see that you get it cheaper. My goal is to save you money, saving me money is what got me into it since I already had a business license...etc... So I am asking before you buy check with me and see if I can get the product cheaper for you because mostlikely I can:)

Now about that contest the rules are on the video and its really starting to be fun so I can't wait to see you over there with a video. Some example of prizes are Kay's Natural Foods, Protein drinks from various distributors, an awesome tasting chocolate candy bar packed full of protein, artificial sweeteners...etc.... Ya never know what you will get if you win:) You can't win if you don't play! So here's the video:

If it doesn't come up just got to youtube and search for bakersbazaar.

Take care and have fun!

Kellie

Hello again...I'm actually updating in the same month isn't that amazing?;) As far as my weight goes I have lost a total of 72lbs. now, I got on the scale Monday and I was down 6 lbs. after not losing for 3 wks! Today and yesterday have been a bad day, I ran out of my pepcid ac and just forgot to go get some and start taking it again and boy was that a mistake. My stomach has been killing me and I threw up everything I ate yesterday and even threw up the only thing I had today, which was water and a blood pressure pill. I just ate alittle something so I am hoping it will finally stay down, my stomach is not hurting and burning like it was. This was a different type of hurling, this was more like the sour stomach or sick with a fever type of hurl not like it was stuck or I had a stricture.....isn't it wierd that we can tell the difference by the way we throw up? Or I can anyway.

I found out that my daughter is going to have to have 2 surgeries to correct her spine instead of one. Because her spine is so twisted to the left they will have to go in from the front and relieve some pressure and then move it towards the middle...this will happen on April 28th. Then on May 5th they will go into her back and put the rod in...she will probably be in the hospital for 2 wks because they cannot get the OR any earlier than the 5th. If you pray please pray for her, this is such a huge surgery that many complications can come from. She is a tropper though and is very strong...so far she has remained real positive even though she is scared. She has been having physical therapy 3 times a week and spending alot of time at doctors appointments so we have been extremely busy and will continue to be up until surgery. She's now lost a total of 13lbs. since she decided she wanted to watch what she eats like mom. The pt is giving her a good figure too.

I dunno if I mentioned in this blog about going into my own business but I have been doing alot of research and have decided that its the best thing. I am starting with so far selling products with Xylitol which is a wonderful, natural occuring sugar subsitute, it is used in things like Trident, and other gums. I use the sweetener and it looks and tastes just like sugar. I will include the video I did so you can watch it and you can go to the website and check it out as well.

http://bakersbazaar.ecrater.com/category.php?cid=445642

This is part 1:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04qSVYQ7768

 This is part 2:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhsQW3xfEWw

If the videos don't come up just go to the website here on my profile and you can see them there.

If you do decide that you want to make a purchase mention "obesityhelp" and get 25% off your first purchase. I've also added some new pics to my photos.

Have a great day!

I just thought I'd take a moment and say hello. I feel so horrible because I haven't been here keeping up and supporting so many of you wonderful people. Life is hectic right now to say the least.

In April my daughter will be having spine surgery and they will have to do it in 2 seperate surgeries 3 to 5 days apart. I wasn't expecting her to have 2 surgeries just one so I am overwhelmed by this but I do have faith that God will see us through this. I was hoping they would do it in the first part of April but the hospital doesn't have a timeslot then so it will be closer to the end of April. I pray this is the last surgery she ever has to have after 3 open heart surgeries I believe she has had more than her fair share.

Life at home is sometimes a struggle I feel like my husband doesn't really support me, maybe he does I dunno but life is difficult right now. I am so thankful for all the support I get online and especially from Dr. Kehdy. He is a wonderful doctor and supporter...he always offers me the best advice and makes me feel like this surgery has been a success and life will get easier for me as I lose. He understands that sometimes I still faulter along the way but still supports me knowing I will not let this surgery be anything but a victory.

We will be moving not too long after my daughter has her surgery, matter of fact she wants us to be moved by then so that she can be in our *new* (80+ yrs. old actually) home. There is alot of stress surrounding this because part of the family doesn't want her to move....I am a bit stressed right now.

I want to say that if you are considering this surgery keep in mind that if you hav no insurance or only medicare it isn't cheap and it puts a strain on everything. After being in the hospital three times in late '07 and already twice this year the medical bills are piling up which causes a whole other set of stresses on life and marriage....I dunno it what directions things will be going eventually. Just make sure you know ahead of time what to expect and how you plan ot handle things. though I am not advocating against having this surgery because it saved my life and alittle stress ain't going to change the happiness I feel over this and the way my body feels I just want others to be prepared.

Well, I will be adding pictures today and tomorrow and I have video at youtube if you would like to check it out...55 in total...... http://www.youtube.com/user/bakersbazaar

Have a great day!

Kellie

When last I updated I still had a stricture and to be honest I still think I have alittle one. I go to see my doctor Monday and I hope he will scope me so we can find out whats going on.

I feel like such a slacker because I have not been updating this profile as I should, nor have I been offering the support to others that once was offered to me. I apologize for that and will try to do better in the future. It is so hard to keep up with all the boards I am on I guess but that is not an excuse. I do update my youtube channel pretty often so please if you are not a youtuber I encourage you to come on over and meet all the wonderful folks over there who are documenting their journey through the video forum like me. You can click on the link to the left to go see my videos...I have about 48 up so far and still many more videos to make and put on.

I had to come on this morning to write about my happy moment or my wow moment. I was doing laundry since I don't sleep much these days and my lovely sister in law had recently sent me a bunch of clothes that she had grown to small to fit in any longer. Well, I never was one to like folding laundry or even one to like to try on clothes but I tell ya I was ecstatic just now trying on jeans. I have not worn real zip up jeans in probably 10 yrs. mainly because every time I have tired them on I had to get such a large size that I just hated the thought and preferred the look at me being so thin in spandex jeans because I could get a smaller size cuz its spandex ya know. Well she sent me real jeans and I tried them on and I was astonished to actually get on a size 20 jeans!!! Wow, I was tickled, just plain tickled I cannot tell you how happy this made me. I will have to go send her something special just for making my day!

So on the weight loss front I have lost a total of 64 lbs. but that was my last weigh in and I will weigh in again Monday and hope that I have lost more. I have done terrible on my eating and seem to gravitate towards the foods that I know will stay down like crackers and I have recently discovered protein snacks which though high in protein may be too high in carbs too. All this thought I have put into foods has made me come to the decision that it is high time I start my own business providing a much needed service of good food products to my community and maybe I will do some mail order too. I have found a few products that I really want to market because they are just so darn good but I am still doing alot of research and contacting companies. I will fill you in as I learn more about this venture.

Well I guess thats about all for now. Ya'll take care!

Peace out.

Kellie

I am so happy I had wls I really am, each day I feel less chained to my pre-op illnesses and I find that I can walk, breathe, and stand better than I have in a long time.

The one thing that brings me down is the obvious stricture... the reason I say obvious is because after having it dailated it give me only a couple good days before I went back to full blown throwing up again. At this point my body has got to be in defense mode trying to prevent me from destroying what nutrients I do have, I wish I could tell my body that its not my fault so don't fault me with a stall....lol

My doctor ask me to do a food diary and I am doing one on my blog please if you are someone who thinks you might have one by all means read my blog, if you have any advice drop me a line. Here's the link: http://losingtolive.blogspot.com/2008/02/keeping-food-diary-having-stricture-and.html

I apologize to everyone who I should be lending support too and all you wonderful people who make my day so much better because I share it with you through email...I feel like I have let so many people down by not being there for them, this is not how I am!!

Take care! Kellie

I realized after reading and email last night(Thanks Lisa!) that I had not updated my blog here lately so I thought I better get right to it.

It has been a tough month, though not one that I have regrets about my decision to have this surgery just more of an adjustment period. I have been getting really dehydrated do to the fact that I have been throwing up 2 of my 3 meals aday, I also have been suffering with bad kidney pain. So having had a bad night throwing up I decided it was time to go to the hospital. There they pumped me full of fluids and told me I had blood in my urine and I needed to make an appointment with my Urologist. Now that isn't anything that I would worry about because I already know I have a kidney stone. So anyway the next day I went to see Dr. Kehdy and he told me he felt like I should be scoped to see if I had a stricture. A stricture is when the opening to the pouch begins to close and they must dailated it to open it back up, it's not a big deal nor is it painful to have it dailated.

So off to have a scope 2 days later and sure enough I have a stricture so the scope has a balloon on the end that can be inflated to dailate the opening. I was able to eat and drink better the next day. I did really well until this past weekend when I tried to eat rice not once but twice and both times I puked horribly so no more rice for me. Having to puke really takes time you don't just feel it stuck and then go and puke it up sometimes it takes hours and there have been nights when I finally threw up 4-6 hrs. after I ate. So I threw up on Sunday night and my pouch was uncomfortable the whole day monday. Finally I ate last night about 7, Sierra is in therapy to prepare her for her spine surgery so nights run long sometimes....last night I had chicken and it didn't stick with me at all. Today I had a tempramental pouch and am now sick again on very little fish and less than 8 ozs. of water all day. I'm so frustrated!  On the bright side though I have lost 54 lbs. and tomorrow I will be 44 and thank God that is just my age and no longer my bra size...hehehe

Today I had to go see my urologist and he said that my stone has gotten in a bad place and they have to zap it so on February 29th they will be doing a lithotripsy on me. Being this close out from gb surgery I won't have to pay another fee per medicare so thats a good thing. Now I know I sound like I am complaining about all of this but ya know I really am not just letting ya know how it is...I am so happy to be losing weight and getting healthier and ya know I knew that my health issues wouldn't just disappear overnight but that God would continue His plan to get me healthy again so I am thankful for the good doctors I have that take such good care of me.

I do try to do updates on youtube so if you would like to watch my videos please click on the link on the left in my profile area. Also, I have started a new blog called: On The Bench and it is located at: http://www.losingtolive.blogspot.com I plan to do a bimonthly section on people who have had wls recently and who are grads and I would love to spotlight everybody here and their story and their websites, blogs...etc... so please I hope you will take a look at it and give me your comments.

Take care! Kellie

Oh yeah, I did this terrible singing video for a contest and it turned out hilarious so if you need a good laugh you have to check this out.

Well as I work towards making my body and life new and healthier I am happy to report that I became a first time grandma yesterday! My son's fiancee gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Her name is Lucille Marie and we will call her Lucy!

I kept saying I wasn't ready to be a grandma but when I held that little, tiny, baby in my arms yesterday I almost cried with joy....it's amazing. I have a couple of pictures up on my blog if you would care to look but be forewarned because your are about to embrace on some serious cuteness! My blog is: http://www.kellieblogs.blogspot.com

If ya happen to go look please leave me a comment to let me know you were there:) Have a great night!

Kellie

Well I am officially a month out from surgery and down 40 lbs. My loss has already slowed down to what seemed to be less than 5 lbs. a week but it's probably due to the fact that I am throwing up all the time.

I went back to see my doctor on the 18th and he felt that I had just started on regular foods too soon and that my pouch had not healed. I do believe that I am eating more than I should which causes me to upchuck. I have put myself back on soft, mushy foods in hopes this will ease my stomach and stop the puking. Yesterday I made the mistake of eating some nuts so I could get some protein in. I puked forever, I don't know if I will ever want to eat them again. You have not puked until you've puked on nuts, the little tiny pieces get stuck in every nook and cranny along the way up your throat and then what doesn't make it in the toilet hangs around in your mouth making you choke that much more. Yeah that is graphic but hey I hope someone will learn from my mistake!

This morning I made me a very soft sunny side up egg and told myself I would not throw up so I went and sit down in the chair and fell asleep for a couple of hours. When I woke up I immediately had to throw up and have done so up until this point which is 2:30pm.  Eggs are not my friend and this was my 3rd try at eating them and they have come up every time so this is something I will have to mark off my list. Of course being sick like this I am unable to keep water down and naturally I can't even take my meds now so I am just waiting around for it to pass.

Can I admit that I am so daggone tired of refried beans? I have had them so much that even my family is tired of seeing me eat them....lol Oh well such is life I guess!