kimberbatista
Lord have mercy I used to be 125lbs prior to 5 natural birthed children, they are not my excuse however, life is...Life just kept going on and all of the heartaches and all of the stress that one endures through it all is my belief as to why I ballooned to 235lbs. I went on so my diets, so many pills, so many gimmicks, so many days exercising in the gym with NO results..I was embarrassed for my husband who is military...I was embarrassed so much that I would never go to his work or be involved in his functions because I didn't want to embarrass him..I was embarrassed so I stayed home. I baked, I do that well, I made cookies and cupcakes and decorated cakes...and ate them...not all of them, but I surely had my (more than) fair share. I ate empty calories, I didn't care about what I put into this body of mine..it doesn't work for me anyways so lots of time I stopped even trying...while the rest of the time I deprived myself of anything that might taste really good because someone might see me eat it. My husband might see me eat it and have a comment about how I don't really need it. I didn't try clothes on anymore, no sense in that they don't fit anyways. I just got the biggest stuff...plus with a huge chest like mine I already tried to hide anyways, because I didn't want to be noticed. Men love huge breasts and I definately didn't want to attract any attention because of all the excess that hung below them around my waist! I know some or most of you have had these feelings also...don't you agree that stress in our lives to be thin and beautiful made us what we've become. I'm not blaming this on anyone other than myself, I'm the one who opened my mouth and put the food in there...no one stood there with a gun and made me do it. So anyways it's may of 2008 and I've gone through all the hoops one must jump to get the surgery done and what happens....my husband gets orders and we must be transferred from Tennessee to Virginia. The surgical clinic says No Problem...just get a surgeon when you get to virginia and you'll be on track!!! Yeah right! I had to start from point A all over again...finally July 21, 2009 I had my RNY. Thank goodness its over, it was all so sureal, I can't believe it's done. The weight had continual dropped off from me daily and I got to wee 3 and a half and it stopped. Just stopped. I actually gained 2 lbs back...OMG whats happening to me. Im working out at the YMCA daily and trying to get 2 miles walked in under 30 minutes...It's hard for me to do...I think I'm gaining muscle instead. Thats better though because the muscle will burn the fat...It's what I hear...lets see where this takes me....... :) K
