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I never thought the day would come but I am finally under 220.  Achieving this goal feels better then anything chocolate covered would taste that's for sure!    8 more pounds to my next goal... I take things in baby steps this way I don't feel like there is a huge mountain before me.

I have found myself with multiple catastrophes happening to me all at once in my personal life.  The depression and feeling that I have no control over anything brought me back to old tendencies.  On Monday, while in tears I ran to what I used to think comforted me....food.  I ate a yogurt in attempts to maintain something healthy, but as I got sadder and sadder I  then heated up a slice of pizza.  Later I had about three handfuls of M&M's.  Instead of comfort, I found myself hating my weakness, hating myself.  I have come too far to slip back into old patterns or to gain the weight that I lost.  After that day / night of tears and food I realized that I had to get back on my feet although it is hard to do.  I cleared my house of anything bad or unhealthy (much to the chagrin of my husband and kids) and filled with with fruit, veggies and all things good for me.  When I felt the tears coming again last night I avoided the kitchen all together and began to ride my stationary bike.  The hills and valleys of life are unavoidable and I must fight hard to make sure I focus on my health and happiness.

I had reached a point where I was not losing weight anymore.  It was getting so discouraging and I found myself giving up.  Then along came a co-worker, a friend, who spent time with me, talked to me, and got my motivation back up.  Within several days of talking to her I lost another 2 pounds.  I hope we can be inspirations for each other as well as continued motivators.