Kelly H.

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Well Easter was kind of a disaster.  I have had such a hard time getting back on track.  The problem is I have one of those personalities that is "all or nothing."  When I am eating healthy, I eat very healthy and when I am eating bad, it is really bad.  I haven't lost any weight, in fact, I gained 5 pounds over Easter and I am finally back down to where I was.  The chocolate just kept calling my name.  

So now I am back on track and ready to lose the 10 pounds that I need to before my next visit with my surgeon on May 3rd.  I am not feeling really any restriction, so I am just going to have to go on sheer willpower. 

So I went to my surgeon's this morning and I got my first fill.  He put 4 ml in my band (I have the large one).  I am very nauseated right now.  So I am on liquids today and can work on soft foods tomorrow.  I really hope nothing gets stuck!  That is my biggest fear.  I haven't thrown up and I don't want to!  I really hate throwing up.  As far as the actual fill goes, it was a breeze.  I hardly felt a thing.  He found my port right away and the needle went in nice and smooth.  

I've lost 69 pounds so far and I am super proud of myself.  The weight loss has really slowed the last couple of weeks and I am hoping with the fill that it will pick up again.  I booked a trip for Disney in November and I hope that I will be under 300 pounds by then.  I am just going to keep on eating healthy and get my exercise in.  I haven't been really good about getting my exercise in lately so I am going to have to be more diligent about getting to the gym. 

Well I still haven't had my band filled yet and the weight loss has definitely slowed down.  Of course there is nothing to be ashamed of to have lost over 60 pounds in 2 1/2 months.  I think the biggest reason is the addition to carbs back into my diet.  Granted I am not eating a ton of carbs, but I think the little bit here and there is affecting my weight loss.  I am still watching my calories like a hawk and I am getting anywhere from 800-1200 calories per day on average.  Yesterday was not the best day since I felt like a bottomless pit and it seemed that I couldn't eat enough.  I ate 1900 calores yesterday which was the most I've eaten in a long time.  Today I pulled it back and only ate about 1100.  I am trying to listen to my body and eat when I am hungry.  I really have been slacking and not going to the gym.  I really need to go more often.  I am sure that was helping get this weight off faster.  

Tomorrow I am going to call my surgeon's office and get an appointment for a fill.  I think that might help me get back on track.

My first fill appointment was yesterday.  I went to my surgeon's office for my appointment and when he took a look at my chart he said, "Holy CRAP!"  Of course I laughed when he said that.  I had lost 54.5 pounds since I started my pre-op diet on December 16th!  He talked to me for a while about what I was doing food-wise and then I told him that in addition to not being all that hungry I was working out 3-4 days a week and some days I even struggle to hit 1000 calories.  He said that I didn't need a fill yet and wants to see me again in 6 weeks.  Of course if I think I need a fill sooner I am sure I could make an appointment.  I was so proud of myself and I left that appointment feeling so good.  I am dedicated to make this work for me and I am never going to give up!

On Sunday, my husband's cousin came over to borrow the crenoline from my wedding dress.  Last year I had tried on the dress and it was nowhere near fitting.  My husband couldn't even zip it up (we got married 7 1/2 years ago).  So just on a whim I tried it on and it zipped.  It was tight, but it was zipped!  I was so happy!  I burst into tears.  Although I know that I have lost quite a bit of weight, I just wasn't really seeing it until then.   

Okay so it's not 50 yet.  I finally got a chance to check my weight loss at work and I am down 49 pounds.  So only one more pound to go before I hit the 50 pound mark!  I know that I will be able to do it before my first fill next week on Monday. 

I got a workout routine from a friend who also has personal training experience and apparently I was not maximizing my workout.  He has given me a plan to follow so hopefully that will help.  Who knew I would be such a workout junkie!  I am planning on going to the gym tomorrow afternoon when I wake up.  I need to hit the treadmill and maybe I will try out the elliptical machine.  I have never been a big fan of the elliptical, but apparently it is supposed to be better for my knees and feet than the treadmill.

Well my scale is being nicer and nicer to me every day.  This morning I was 370.6!  This means that I am 0.6 pounds away from having lost 50 pounds!  I am so excited!  I am going to re-weigh myself at work tonight since that is the scale I am going by since my scale tends to be screwy.  I am hoping that the weight on my scale wasn't a fluke and that I am really that close to losing 50 pounds!  I have been working so hard changing my eating habits and working out at the gym.  I can finally see a difference! 

Getting banded was the best thing I could have done for myself!

Went to the gym today.  Although I am still a little under the weather I managed to do the treadmill for 20 minutes, the bike for 20 minutes and then I did some strength training.  I spent about 1.5 hours working out.  By the time I left I felt great!  I am so glad I went.  I went with my mother-in-law and she joined as well.  It was really nice to have her there.  She is such a great lady.  I am glad I have her in my life.  Although, she will never replace my mom she definitely makes me feel like a daughter. 

This whole weight loss journey makes me think of my mom.  In 1974 she had an intestinal bypass for weight loss.  She lost about 200 pounds in 10 months.  Of course WLS  has come a long way since then, but due to her severe malnutrition she developed kidney disease which ultimately took her life in December of 2007.  She was only 56 years old.  Up until she died she maintained that she would have done it again in a minute.  "The surgery gave me back my life," that's what she would always tell me.  She is the reason that I couldn't have RNY and that I opted for the band.  I love my band.  I know that I will have to work hard for it to work for me because my BMI is so high.  Not that RNY isn't a good choice, I am not saying that in the least, but it was not the right choice for me.  I guess I just really miss my mom and I know that she would be so proud of me.  I just wish she was here to tell me that.

Edited to add:
I realized after I finished typing, that today is one month post-op for me!  I have lost a total of 40.4 pounds and I am well on my way to a healthier me!

Well I am finally starting to feel better.  My throat is still sore and my head is stuffy, but I finally got some sleep last night after not sleeping for a couple days.  I was just exhausted. 

I am hoping to get to the gym tomorrow.  I really need it.  My weight loss has really slowed.  I haven't been to work since last Tuesday so I am just using my scale at home minus 6 pounds so as of this morning I am at 379.6.  I've lost over 40 pounds!  Of course I should be happy about that, but I am sad that I have only lost 3 pounds in the last 2 weeks.  I think the lack of working out is the problem.  I have noticed that my appetite is starting to return.  I am still counting calories, but I have started adding carbs back into my diet.  Maybe that's the problem.  Maybe I should go back to strict low-carbing. 

Urrrrrgh...I am feeling so crummy right now!  I feel like I have been run over by a truck.  I started having flu symptoms when I woke up on Tuesday afternoon.  It has been just downhill from there.  I don't feel like eating or drinking I just want to sleep sleep sleep!  I think I should just rest and let it run it's course.  I just want to feel better.  Now my oldest son is home too with the flu.  MY WHOLE HOUSE IS INFECTED, LOL!