lanuevad
I decided to have the surgery because I was sick and tired of being overweight. I was tired all the time, my knees and my back hurt. I had to do foot stretches every morning before getting out of bed because my feet also hurt. Mentally I had a lot of things going on. I felt uncomfortable socializing because I felt that I was the biggest one in the room. I felt like I was unworthy of love, like, I was never going to lose weight, basically I felt all the miserable and self abusing things that pretty much every fat girl feels. I felt at times in my life like I didn't want to live. My insecurities about being overweight were also affecting my marriage. I said the year 2006 I was going to do it one way or another. I tried Nutrisystem, Jenny Craig, Working out, etc. and I still didn't do it. It was not because those things don't work, it is because I didn't believe it would. I went through 6 months of hypnosis 2x's per week and I was never able topicture myself at a healthy weight. If you can't see it how can you be it. I was my worst enemy. Problems in my marriage made me depressed unmotivated, self hating and worst of all self defeating. Then on the verge of making some serious decisions and contemplating yet another very expensive weightloss program. I said, f-this! I'm not doing this to myself. EVERYTIME, I try to do it I fail, and I didn't want to continue to fail and potentially just get bigger and bigger and sadder and sadder till the point where I would be in serious danger for my physical as well as mental health. I decided that I was not going to live like this any more and that I was going to make a really change! So here I am making the change. I had gastric by-pass on Dec 11, 2006.
