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Down to 187 wow... umm what else still with Brady doing alot of hikes... www.myspace.com/laride01

Wow it has been a while since I posted. What is going on lets see... I am fluctuating between 191 and 195 granted I have caught myself eatting things that I should nto be eatting and drinking things that I shouldnt be drinking not working out as much as I should. I am in a solid 16 with some 14 and 12 still. 

I am dating this wonderful caring sweet hottie Brady who wow.... all I can say over and over is I am blessed so blessed.

I go to the meeting in Littleton every now and then not very often though. Other then that life is pretty good for the most part still have my up and down days but... I am me.

Wow... Its been a while I got on the scale today ... 198.8 finally have been able to keep below the 200 mark now for two weeks... Its sort of scary to be honest. I am in a 14 16 still I have lost 85 pounds since the surgery . I have started dating a man who I am so in love with so scared to tell him how I feel he knows about the surgery has asked me if I wanted a work out partner tells me that I am beautiful all the time gorgeous... he is just a wonderful man.

Things are hard. I dislike my stomach so bad... I went to the back doc and well needless to say my back was messed up from loosing all the weight... granted I would love to get down to about 170 not sure as to what i feel about loosing any more then that... not trying to be a super model but I would like to get into a size 10 just to say I was in it. I am so glad that I had the surgery however I do cheat... I do get sugar sometimes which I should not god knows I eat carbs... but its hard... it really is... Hope all is well.

Well... currently at 201-203 been floating between those numbers for a couple weeks... other then that not much new here... work sucks.. went on antidepressents... hopefully will feel a little better...

I have a rash on my belly button ... so ... more then likely going to have to have a tummy tuck..

Well its been two months since I updated this... I am officially at 215... in a size 12/14/16 depends on who makes it... an occasional 18 however... 14 /16 ... some of my clothes are Juniors which... rock however my thighs ... are not loosing as fast as my ass and waiste so ... they are loose whent he legs are tight.

I have been drinking vodka and cranberry ... can def tell that the weight is not coming off as quickly as I would like it... but then again ... I havent been exersizing as much as I should. 

Men ... wtf... I was dating a guy for about three months... things arent right... I have known for a while that things arent right... and yet i still continued to see him. Finally it came to a boil the other night. he was seeing other people behind my back lying about it... and such which is ok... I just feel used. He kept telling me to have a boob  reduction and have my mole on my nose removed... all these self conscience things that literally ate at my self esteem. 

Its funny I go to the bar... and men and women hit on me now... which is freaking amazing. I flirt alot more then what I used too which to me is not odd... the responses back are odd. I have went out with 4 or 5 diff guys since the surgery ... a couple of them are really nice... however... 1 or 2 are not my type. Turning into the social butterfly. 

had a good christmas, had an ok new year... the start first week so far has been pretty rough ... however... I am hoping that things are going to settle down soon and get going in the right direction.  So technically the doc wants me at 170 I am at 215... down from 285... so I am 70 pound down ... with 45 left to go ... I am more then half way ... what a freaking amazing journey its been.

Good gracious... spicy foods are not agreeing with me very much since the surgery. I miss hot wings... I tried a coupel and got sick off of them lol guess its not time for me to eat them yet. Was eatting a chicken sandwhich naked from wendy's yesterday felt like a brick was sitting in my stomach till about 1 oclock this morning... 

Granted work has been kicking my booty I will be so glad when these new changes get over with. So I can get back to doing my regular routine. 

Other then that the energy levels are coming back ... good god... i feel like I did before my thyroid went to hell. That was 4 years ago... singing dancing around the office people look at me like I am nuts.. 

However someone was joking with me about cleaning out my closets making room... How funny... I have to clean out my closets none of my clothes fit except the pants with the draw strings. hell even my shoes are getting big... WTF? 

I tried my corsette on the other night... when it is pulled in it well lets just say ... the boobs... are where they need to be.. Luckily or unluckily I havent lost anything on them however I have lost inches around so I have to go get smaller ones of those. DO you know how expensive bras are!!! I am sorry ... I spent a small countries budget on bras... shakes head. 

Christmas is coming I am so not ready for this christmas I dont know if I will drive home this year or not. I am thinking about it but with gas being so high ... I may just stay here in Denver. It will all depend on how things play out. 

Our company christmas party si on Dec 14th... I have to find a date for that... I have an idea as to who I might ask ... just depends on some things... I however still need to find a dress for it.
Wish me lukc on that one.

Nov 3rd. its chilly outside today ... it feels so good. I love the fall and this type of weather. I wish I could find a year round place that has this temp. anywhere between 50 and 80 with an occasional snow... oh ... I do have that I live in Denver. How much better can you get then this... 

I keep having the same dream over and over ... wont go into detail about it... but ... its ab otu someone I have never met. Its an odd dream however its almost like a soap opera in a ways ... each day it gives me more details.. I really have a strong idea that my gemini is just acting up. Those who are gemini can understand this... those who are not will not ... so be it. 

I really need to go shopping for some new clothes my favorite pair of jeans i can stick both hands down my pants without unbuttoning them and pull them away from me... they are about two sizes too big now..

I have to admit some days ... most days have been good.. every now and then the head huinger gets to me and it is more about stress levels then anything and of course... I grab the cheese ... I am such a cheese whore... Cheese and cheese it crackers. Luckily I drink enough of protien and have enough of protien that it helps with the fat levels of the cheese but I really should stop with the cheese. 

I think I love the chicken in a can the best no not a jessica simpson chicken of the sea ... Chicken in the can. Mix in some lowfat mayo and relish with a little mustard and I am a happy camper. 20 grams of protien and life is good for three meals. I also love the muscle milk granted its a little pricey ... but with the amount of protien its worth it. saves me from mixing in the protien powder... 

As you can tell I am avoiding the cleaning aspect of the house today ... I really should get busy ... Happy Saturday.

WTH!!! Where has this year gone by . I swear some days I feel like a kid and other days  I feel as if my life is passing away too quickly. Work is changing and I have been swamped and over loaded but I have just gotten to the point that what will be will be. There is nothing I can do to stop it. 

The kids are doing well however Andrew has till the 15th to get a job or ... his funding is going to be cut short. He turned 16 on the 4th of October. and I quite frankly am sick of paying for bike tube tires that he blows up by BMXing. 

Aaron is begging me for a cell phone granted I have it for him already just not quite sure he is ready for that responsibility yet. Janet had surgery yesterday so my thoughts have been with her for the past couple days. She was at the hospital with me when i had my surgery and what a blessing she was during that time.  Will probably try to call her on Saturday to see how she is doing. 

Something I forgot to mention was I met Kathy O and CO from the chatroom last week... What amazing people ... great gals. Kathy O was here after they went on a Texas whirlwind tour got to see pictures of most of the people I talk to in chat here in OH. It was a nice time. It is so funny CO only lives four blocks away from my house... What a riot. I am still trying to find the time to go walking with her before the snow melts. 

I have went out on a couple dates the past few weeks nothing to really write home about or brag about, quite honestly part of me really doesnt want to be bothered. So many times they dont want an emotional connection or hell conversation they just want a quickie. Good gracious... quickies... wtf... am I in high school again?  Granted if I were in my 20's I could see myself doing that but... good gracious... I dont want to have to go through that ....plus my idea of a good time is going to the bar getting drunk. Granted... one glass of wine messes me up now. I would be a lush by the third date.

I told the boys the other night... when I hit 42 I am retiring and buying a boat... the only question they asked is what kind of boat... lol 

Yesterday I got a phone call from the school saying that Andrew was up on the balcony at school while other kids were throwing apple juice off the balcony. The asst principle informed me that Drew was not doing it but they had to call him out of class since he was on the video camera... So ... when I picked him up I thanked him for not throwing apple juice. We actually got a good laugh out of that.
 
I have been talking to someone online. I wont go into detail about it quite yet... but... I feel as if I have known them my whole life... wow... I would venture to guess that they could finish my sentences... it just feels that way.

Well that is all for now... My lunch is over ... will post on Monday ...

Happy Hallows eve people. I am really not looking forward to this evening... the kids usually come home with bags full of candy adn this year I cant have any resse cups... but ... the good news is...

Went to the doc today ... I am at 233. 50 pounds lost... whooop whoop. I am 40% -45% at goal.... 33 pounds to go to 200 ... I am currently in a size 18 macy's 18 ... so i am figuring I could get into a Walmart 16.

Other then that life is good going well. Pretty stoked.

My best friend came in for the weekend with her 4and half month old son... Wow... he is a freaking cutie... and a talker also ... We had a pretty good weekend Its funny how the weekends go by so fast. Last week I had strep throat that was an interesting way to have a first cold after the surgery ..
The ER doc... knew I had WLS so instead of giving me an antiinflamatory for the swelling she gave me codiene for the pain ... shakes head geeesh ...

I went shopping at Macy's yes Macy's and was able to get into a Macy's size 18 ... whoop whoop... I dont know how much I have lost since I refuse to buy a scale and I refuse to weigh myself daily. My next doc appt is on October 31. so I will find out then...

I have however went from a size.. 24/26 to a size 18 which I am not complaining I also went out last week on a date with a new guy. Not quite sure what that is all about but ... we went out on Sat...  I have hardly no knee pain what so ever... which is freaking awesome the only time I have knee pain is when there is a drastic change in the weather... example today ... it snowed 3-4 inches... yesterday it was 75 go figure... Kids are doing ok... all is well...BTW had some new pics taken last week also ... they I think i did it right are on my profile.