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I finally got a tattoo..... My first one.... A promise  I my made that I would get one if everything came out ok.... plus If  I dropped more than a 100 lbs I would do it....so I did it~!

 I am about to say later days to 300's I am 32 pound away..... from 200 land!

Two weeks ago I had the the fucken scariest moment of my life!

I had a the RYN a couple of months ago which was the best thing I have ever done....
 
Well I jumped in the shower in the morning and I like to take hot showers and I started to shave when all of sudden, I felt lift headed....and everything in the shower started to spin really fast... next thing I know I wake up on the floor.....25 mns. later....I had a bloody nose and pain in every joint in my body......how do I know it was 25  mins.... when I jumped in the shower the news was on TV..... when I came to.... the fucken soap opera was on....

It really scared me alot... I went to see my primary doc and she ran all sorts of test and blood work.....everything was ok...but the best news of all I have no more sleep apnea...

But the best news of all I can see my pee-pee while I hold it in my hand....or is that too much info...??
who cares I can see my pee-pee... yeah...

For the first time in a long time I have seen 300 on the scale!  but like I said not for long.. the pounds are coming off... The other day... I spent a wonderful morning at the court house to pay for a bull-shit ticket (seat belt) and I wore an old pair of jeans with no belt... mind you these jeans were really super tight! So I am waiting in line to pay for the ticket and those mother-f'n jean almost fall off to my knees! I started to laugh my ass off... everyone thought I was crazy... but hell it's LA and everyone is crazy anyway...

Trying to un-pack the extra pounds on this liquid diet... helping but really hard...
Looking forward to a whole new world
The Count down has begun 6, 5, 4, 3, 2 , 1........

I have date...a new birthday Aug.13th....
One month from now I will be given the gift of a second chance...in life

To all the people who looked at me and laughed at me because I am fat...
I tell those people "go fuck yourself" 

To all the people who talked behind my back...I can still hear you
I tell those people "go fuck yourself" 

To all the people who pointed at me and laughed at me because I am fat...
I tell those people "go fuck yourself" 

To all the people who think all fat people are lazy...
I tell those people "go fuck yourself" 

I have been given gift to see a new sun rise when all is dark

Some people look to the sky...and wish for hope and salvation and wait

I also tell those people "go fuck yourself too" stop feeling sorry for yourself
Get off your ass and do something

I feel like a fat, chubby worm cocooning myself to become a butterfly to join my brothers and sisters 
in the WLS skies....
 

My doc's staff is the worst...sometime I wonder

Cardio went fine, now it's up to the scheduler at the doc office.... one step closer

I go my OK from my ins. group... also looking forward to my cardo clearance this week...small baby step but i can almost see the light... I am so tired of people judging me because I am big...the looks and the small talk is what really hurts, but I always confront them and give them a piece of my mind.....one time a mean old lady told me I was really fat and I shouldn't eat so much, I told that old bag of bones that she really shouldn't judge me because she was going to die soon, and after she was dead...I would be -fat-happy..and.alive...and dancing on her grave....never heard a peep from her again...hehehehe

Today I got my cardo clearance in the mail, next is the surgery referral authorization letter...