Linda B.

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Goal to lose 20 pounds. Back to Basics for me.

I am a food addict. Not someone that could not lose weight because of slow metabolism or it was just some poor choices. I have an addition, I feel like I fell of the wagon.... ...

I posted the above in the main forum and got some very nice replies. My realization is that I will get back to basics and some counseling for the addition to food.

Well the GAIN finally arrived. At  my lowest I was 145 now 170. I am working on loosing to be where I felt the most comfortable which is 160 so I have to lose 10 pounds. I'm a stress eater, the WLS fixed by tummy but not my brain.  I'm blogging this not to update for the public but to remind myself of my goal.. My goal is to stay at a healthy weight and respect and cherish the new life I was givin with WLS.

Things are going pretty well for me. I thank God that I am not 350 lbs anymore because I would not have survived the last 8 months in that unhealthy body. I have been pushed to my limit emotionally and physiclly this last few months but things are going well. I officially don't dump on sugars and rarely on fats anymore. boo hoo I wish I still did it would force me to make better choices, I still am eating small portions but sometimes my choices are really bad. Anyway. Still staying about 152 most days. Still waiting for the big weight gain but hasn't happened yet. I am in like a 8 /10 in pants and tops go from mediums to x larges. I really need restalayne or botox on my face but it is out of my budget also really need boobs maybe in a year or two I can finance those two plastics. I will be checking back another day for updated on my friends but for now I wish you all the best. New Pictures should be up in a couple days so check back soon..

I am 1 year and 1 month out. Everything is going well. My labs show that I am low in Vitamin D and B1 aka thiamine. I will be working on that the next few months. I will have labs in 3 months so I pray that these numbers improve. I have been eating a lot more lately. It is scaring me. I am not hungry just feeling head hunger and kind of allowed myself to get into some bad habits recently. I think I have built up a tolerance for sugar because I don't seem to dump anymore. That scares me, I don't know why I feel the need to push the limits and test myself constantly on the amount of sugar I can consume without even feeling a bit hot and sweaty.. I am really messed up in the head. Anyway, this week I am getting back on track. Weight went up a few pounds( never thought I would be happy to see the scale rise) but then now back down again to 147 this morning. I am more comfortable when I am above 150 I really like 160. TTFN, Linda

11 months out.
 I am really depressed!! lost my job, marriage problems, money problems you name it. I am praying that everything gets better soon, It all just hit me at once. I am 153 lbs today my lowest was 151. I want to be no less than 160 but I keep loosing. I have some heart burn like feeling in my pouch lately, Hope its not an ulcer, I take my previcid as described. So I don;'t know. Dr. Teng says your body will stop when its ready, my mind is ready but my body is not.
Let Go Let GOD!!!!
Linda

I officially hit my surgeons goal a few weeks ago. (that is the goal with my height of 5'8) this may change when I see him wednesday and tell him Iam measured NOW at 5'7. I shrank!
Anyway 10 months out WOW almost a year. I can't believe it. I actually bought a pair of pants at OLD NAVY size 10. They must run really big but it still is a shock to see that number on my tag.
No surgery problems to report just financial stress. I really don't want an ulcer so I am just trying to live in La La Land(lol)
Hair has stopped falling out.  It is so nice to be able to run my fingers through my hair with out looking like I'm turning into the Wolf Lady.

I haven't had time to visit OH too much the last month or so but I wish everyone the best and I think of all of you often!

Oops! I am 2 weeks late on my 9 month post. Life has been so busy.  My girls started Cheerleading weeknights from 6:30 to 8:30 and we went on a trip to California for 5 days so I am really behind on everything.  We had a GREAT time. My kids got to meet Jaden (Michael's son from a previous relationship) for the first time ever. It was wonderful. I hope Michael and the kids can start a  long lasting relationship. It was such a blessing after all these years that they got to meet. (LONG STORY)
I am down 158 lbs today I weigh 172! I am feeling good.  While in San Jose I went to OLD Navy and actully bought a size 12 pair of jeans! I still can't believe that. I am still waiting to gain back weight so I am not getting rid of any of my 14s. I know that sounds sick but this is so strange to me to be below a 14! I have not be this size since middle school... 
My job is hanging on by a thread and is really stressing me out so I will just pray that we can keep up with the bills. Michael is looking for a second job. I feel bad that he has to do that but we have no other choice.
I will try to get some new pix downloaded this weekend.
Thanks all my OH friends, I love you guys.  

This is my 8 months out post. I am down 140 lbs.
I went to the OH event yesterday. I had a great time a lot of good info. I enjoyed meeting the fellow Las Vegans and all the speakers. Dr. Teng was there for a little while and I got to talk to him and give him a BIG hug. I love that man!  He briefly talked to me about losing more weight. He says I should get down to about 170. That is 20 more pounds. I will try hard to make it to this even though I am happy at my current weight.
I had a plastic consult with Dr. Katzen, I will not be doing any plastics for at least 2 years. I need to give myself an incentive to keep off the weight. So if I can keep off the weight for 2  then I will spend the money on some plastics. To get everything done by Dr. Katzen, arm, legs, bodylift, neck, boobs it is like $48,000 needless to say I will not be doing all of that.

I have been working a little on my resistance training trying to get my arms and legs stronger as I am so weak! I just have to step that up and start the cardio again. To Blessed to be Stressed!

I don't know why I am letting this bother me this much. I am totally obsessing about it. I am not feeling constipated, bloated, or eating too much.. So why did I gain?? This is not the first time I have gained, months ago I gained and it was do to bloating and constipation and I didn't think twice about it. Now I am just plane freaking out. I met a woman at support group Monday that convinced me I needed to keep loosing because as I get further out I might again 20 to 30 pounds since that is the trend with post ops. So I was all excited the last few days that I will get down as low as I could and then try to maintain and wait for the gain. And now I have a gain! I am telling myself I am crazy to worry about 1 pound but I can't stop thinking about it. I am going to weigh tomorrow morning and pray I go back down to 192. THIS IS CRAZY!