Sherry S.
Positive day
Nov 12, 2007
Nov.12th
Today is a better day....less than 18hrs till surgery and I am set. I'm still scared, but it is my right to be scared. I would not be normal if I wasn't afraid. It's ok....it's a good thing, this way I am well aware of it all. I read a comment to one of my posts and he told me to just "surrender". Yes, that's what I have done. I did everything I was suppose to, I am prepared and ready....I can't go into this assuming only bad things will happen to me...I have to and will be positive. I will SURRENDER.
See you all on the losers side!!
Today is a better day....less than 18hrs till surgery and I am set. I'm still scared, but it is my right to be scared. I would not be normal if I wasn't afraid. It's ok....it's a good thing, this way I am well aware of it all. I read a comment to one of my posts and he told me to just "surrender". Yes, that's what I have done. I did everything I was suppose to, I am prepared and ready....I can't go into this assuming only bad things will happen to me...I have to and will be positive. I will SURRENDER.
See you all on the losers side!!
Hmmmm.....
Nov 10, 2007
Nov. 10th
Well, I had coffee and met some of the others and met my
Carol. Everyone was so nice! I'm glad I got to hear their stories...in person it was really real, and they all looked soooo good! I'm happy for all of them! This evening though I started to kind of "freak" out again. I would think this was normal....I think anyways. My daughter came and sat with me tonight...nothing unusual EXCEPT instead of sitting in the chair beside me, she cuddled up on the couch right next to me. I had all kind of mixed emotions....I'm just afraid of something going wrong and not being there for her. I almost feel greedy in doing this for myself, yet I know that if I'm healthier...I will be around longer. I think too, that it's easier to "second guess" yourself when it's a choice you yourself are making. I know this has been a tough few days...a lot of reflecting. I thought it was suppose to be emotional AFTER...yet the after thoughts are easy....I'm so prepared to use this tool and become healthy....I just wish I was past the surgery and worrying part. I need to relax and do more positive thinking....breath....relax....breath.
Well, I had coffee and met some of the others and met my
Carol. Everyone was so nice! I'm glad I got to hear their stories...in person it was really real, and they all looked soooo good! I'm happy for all of them! This evening though I started to kind of "freak" out again. I would think this was normal....I think anyways. My daughter came and sat with me tonight...nothing unusual EXCEPT instead of sitting in the chair beside me, she cuddled up on the couch right next to me. I had all kind of mixed emotions....I'm just afraid of something going wrong and not being there for her. I almost feel greedy in doing this for myself, yet I know that if I'm healthier...I will be around longer. I think too, that it's easier to "second guess" yourself when it's a choice you yourself are making. I know this has been a tough few days...a lot of reflecting. I thought it was suppose to be emotional AFTER...yet the after thoughts are easy....I'm so prepared to use this tool and become healthy....I just wish I was past the surgery and worrying part. I need to relax and do more positive thinking....breath....relax....breath.
Oooops break down
Nov 07, 2007
Nov. 7th
Ok...yesterday was a mess! The day started off so-so...I had my PCP pre-op appt. for my EKG and check up, happy to report that was all great!! 
But all day I was not feeling so hot...I was sloshing around like a big ol' water balloon...I was so liquid bloated!! I was actually getting nauseaus! I had a head-ache and was just crabby. Well, I ended up cheating! I had a small lettuce salad with 1 spoon on ff dressing. I was so disappointed in myself after. 
All I did was worry about what I did so close to my surgery. I acted like it was no biggy before doing it...justification, as usual.
Well today I'm feeling better...I got online and I got some great support! I even had a wonderful suprise!! I had someone ask to be my "Angel"! Hooray...really made me feel good inside. THANK YOU CAROL!!!! 
Things are going to be ok...better than ok...things are going to be GREAT!!!
Better today
Oct 31, 2007
Much better today...I spent alot of time reading up and going over this site, everyone has these scared mixed emotions prior to WLS. I'm normal!! If you choose this, you have to take the bad with the good, I guess. You pray for the best outcome, an easy recovery and the strength to get you mentally through it all. Nervous
Oct 30, 2007
Oct. 30th
Well, it's getting closer and closer and, of course, I'm nervous! I have been all over this site and read tons of information...I find myself second guessing just about everything! I mean, I'm ok with the life style change...actually looking forward to a new way of eating, I have all kinds of new recipes and I truly want to be healthy and off of all my BP meds and thin is a huge bonus!! So what am I second guessing?? I think what it really is...is that I'm scared. I know there are risks...and after being all over this site you know they are REAL! You know there are also VERY positive results! I just have to keep faith that I am in good hands and under Gods watchful eye. After all this is a choice......maybe that's where my second guessing is coming from...I've not always made the "right" choices in my life time (not that all of us have) but since this is a choice, and it's my choice...I feel the need to analyze it more. One minute I know I'll be ok, the next minute I worry.........
Well, it's getting closer and closer and, of course, I'm nervous! I have been all over this site and read tons of information...I find myself second guessing just about everything! I mean, I'm ok with the life style change...actually looking forward to a new way of eating, I have all kinds of new recipes and I truly want to be healthy and off of all my BP meds and thin is a huge bonus!! So what am I second guessing?? I think what it really is...is that I'm scared. I know there are risks...and after being all over this site you know they are REAL! You know there are also VERY positive results! I just have to keep faith that I am in good hands and under Gods watchful eye. After all this is a choice......maybe that's where my second guessing is coming from...I've not always made the "right" choices in my life time (not that all of us have) but since this is a choice, and it's my choice...I feel the need to analyze it more. One minute I know I'll be ok, the next minute I worry.........
My first words-
Oct 26, 2007
Oct. 26th
I was approved about a month ago but had to get with my boss and figure out a good date for me to be out for a bit. I have a good "work" family. They all support me and it's a big help.
My date is Nov. 13th! I have about 5 more days that I can eat solid foods then I go on a 2 wk liquid diet. Yeay...I can't wait! I just hope it sounds worse then it will actually be.
It's funny, we're celebrating Thanksgiving Day tomorrow so I can spend time with my whole family and have a nice dinner with them since I'll be on liquids and soft foods thru the holidays.
I'm going through all sorts of emotions though. I'm excited, nervous down right scared...it's worse then any PMS I've ever had!
I just know I need to do this...I need to do it for me. My family deserves to have me around for a lot longer. It's so my time to live without being tied to this weight issue...I'm so ready for change!
I was approved about a month ago but had to get with my boss and figure out a good date for me to be out for a bit. I have a good "work" family. They all support me and it's a big help.
My date is Nov. 13th! I have about 5 more days that I can eat solid foods then I go on a 2 wk liquid diet. Yeay...I can't wait! I just hope it sounds worse then it will actually be.
It's funny, we're celebrating Thanksgiving Day tomorrow so I can spend time with my whole family and have a nice dinner with them since I'll be on liquids and soft foods thru the holidays.
I'm going through all sorts of emotions though. I'm excited, nervous down right scared...it's worse then any PMS I've ever had!
I just know I need to do this...I need to do it for me. My family deserves to have me around for a lot longer. It's so my time to live without being tied to this weight issue...I'm so ready for change!
About Me
Sartell, MN
Location
20.9
BMI
Surgery
11/13/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 19, 2007
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