lovelygirl01
Hey Everyone!!! My name is Raphaella. I weigh 220-231...depending on which day and time :)
I'm going to write my story backwards (time for a little change!)---
2 years ago, I was out of college, met my husband and had a baby 6 months ago. I gained about 31 lbs in my pregnancy, lost it all within 2 weeks, then gained most of it. I am now at my heaviest! I find myself hiding from cameras, being mortified every time someone posts pictures from an event online... I am not shallow. I just want to feel beautiful...
I have the most supportive husband who makes me feel hella sexy- but -I know in his mind this is not who I was before.
Which brings me to my childhood. I've been overweight ever since I can remember. My mom's brought me to nutritionists, dieticians, thought I had a health problem, been on diets and back...As the years go by, I just gain more and more weight.
There were times in the last 5 years, which I've felt sexy... now I am married and want to look amazing for my husband. I've always been the fashionista and had great style, but lets face it, the trendiest clothes don't look great on a size 14-15. Not on me at least. I am 5ft3in... very short and curvy.
I decided to have RNY and re-start my relationship with food. I've decided I want to take control of my life and not live to eat. I want to be free from being ashamed and embarrassed of myself. I don't want to be scared when I look in the mirror....
I'm hoping to be on the path to finding my skinny self next summer :)
