Lukeaug9
To me, one of the hardest things about losing weight isn’t the exercise, or changing my eating habits. It’s the fact that I had previously lost nearly 60 pounds and couldn’t see a difference except in my face. My clothes fit a little better sure, but I was wearing the same sizes still. I felt like I had worked so hard for so long and just didn’t see the results. My friends claimed to see the results, and maybe they really could, but I couldn’t. It’s defeating when you work hard for something and you don’t see results.
What was even more frustrating is that I was paying money to do Weight Watchers, and go to LA Fitness but celebrities like the Kardashian sisters were making millions promoting Quick Trim and other celebrities are on the covers of Us Weekly and People talking about how they lost 12lbs in four weeks. A whole 12 pounds?! Really? Get off the covers of my magazines! (Did I just admit to reading Us Weekly??) I mean, I lost 14 my first week of Weight Watchers and as accomplished as I felt, you didn’t see me calling up magazines trying to get on the cover!
I had thought about blogging about my weight loss attempts but blogging about it meant I would have to admit to it. Admit that I had a problem. Admit that I wasn’t as happy on the inside as I always appeared on the outside. And worst of all, I would have to admit that I was not just fat, I was obese. I had to stop telling myself that I was just big boned, or that I carry it well.
So after losing weight and gaining it all back and then some, I decided that I’m going do something drastic. I decided to get Bariatric Surgery. More specifically, I am getting the Gastric Bypass or Roux-en-Y.
I chose Gastric Bypass because I don’t feel that I can lose the weight on my own. I’ve talked to doctors, read blogs and attended seminars. I know that contrary to what some might think, this isn’t an easy way out. But I am not looking for an easy way out. I’m looking for something that is going to force me to put the fork down or not eat that sugary dessert. I know this is not going to be something that begins and ends in the operating room. But instead will continue for the rest of my life.
I have started the process or the “journey” now and I’m not even sure when I am going to have the surgery. Even after the surgery I have to go to support groups and meetings for five years.
There will be a lot of changes I will have to adapt to. I won’t be able to have carbonate beverages, no drinking from straws, no drinking 30 min before or after eating, hair loss, will have to take vitamin supplements for the rest of my life…
But it will be worth it. For many reasons. Health aspects aside, I will be able to run around with my niece, fit comfortably in my chair at work, not worry that I won’t fit on a ride at Disneyland, not get asked by an airline attendant if I need a seatbelt extender, no requesting to sit at a different table because I can’t fit in the booth, shopping anywhere I want!
About Me
Before & After
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