Stefanie M.

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I haven't been on this site since surgery it seems. I had my RNY surgery November 26th 2012, and i am in love with it. I've had my little bumps along the way but I am absolutely in love with my new life.

I've reached my first goal of 160 about a month ago and not stay plateaued at 158-157. I'm not concerned really just my body letting me know its resting a bit. :)

I've taken on running. I run 5K every morning and i feel fabulous because of it!

I just wanted to write something since it's been soooooo long since i have been on.

 

take care all!

So I went to the mailbox on Tuesday and standing there flipping through the mail, i found a letter from Windsor! Yep I squweeled like a little girl, ran back into my car and opened it!

NOVEMBER 24th!!!!

EEEEKKKK....so excited to start all this. I cried and called my better half and were both sooo excited to start this journey.

Soo that's it for now....

Ciao

So I got an e mail from the registry today saying they received my referral and have already send it to Windsor. That makes me so happy cause I have this fear that it was gonna be lost somewhere in oblivion...lol
So now I'm only waiting to hear from Windsor.

Cheers everyone and Happy Thanksgiving!

So it's been only a week since my referral went out...I'm not freaking out anymore. Being stupid and having anxiety issues. I can't control how fast this is going to go, so why stress.

I had a long talk with my parents about the surgery over dinner lastnight. They are 100% in! So happy about that. I was worried about my dad, but he actually did some research on his own and he let me know, if this is what I need then he's gonna be there for me. SO happy.

So I read the Weight Loss Surgery for Dummies book already. Or what I could read for now. I liked it, so now I need more reading material. Ive got a few books written down so maybe i'll pop by the bookstore after work today and see what I can find. Or maybe i'll look to see if I can download it online...:)

So it's Monday and raining, again! Oh well.....off to work for the day then off tomorrow togo to the Simcoe Fair with my bestfriend. Should be fun....no rides, but maybe next year if I am lucky!

i've been craving rollercoasters this past week......lmao.......one day I will conquer them all and not have to worry if I will fit!!!!!!!

Ciao for now!

Soooo.......

I called my GP yesterday and they sent out my referral. Which is awesome cause they took their damn time with it...lol.

Now I have to wait to hear back from whatever centre the registry is going to send it to. Which could take months. I was totally excited to hear that...haha....little miss impatient I am.  But whatever, I bought some books to read which are really helping out and I bought a food journal to start tracking my food intake and where I can improve on that.
I think i may even have my GP book a sleep test now to get ahead of the game. Cause I know I am going to need one anyways.

My friends even though are VERY supportive, keep emphasizing the wait I am going to have to endure to go through this procedure and making it worse, but I keep telling myself, waiting a year to be healthy is WAY worth it, because they way I am going now, is not a good road. :)

I'm not generally a complainer, but waiting sucks.....and I'm sure that won't be the last time I say that....LOL

......ciao for now OH, just needed to vent....i feel much better......breakfast time now!

I'm not afraid to put myself out there to my family/friends/whoever else wants to read this.....

 

The people who really know me know that I've struggled with my weight and self image pretty much my whole life. Growing up in a small town and being "chubby" isn't a easy thing to do. You quickly learn that kids are mean, only because they don't know any better, but mean still. I remember grade 3...this is when i started getting chubby. I remember a boy that I totally had a little girl crush on called me Brontosaurus Butt...yes! In grade 3! How big was my butt in grade 3! But kids were kids...he must have really liked dinosaurs. Anyways...this kind of teasing went on and on throughout my childhood. I built up a resistance to it quite quickly and most of the time it didn't faze me at all. I was an active girl, played sports all the time..but always stayed on the bigger side. I was fit, just bigger. 

It started to really bother me in highschool. You see the girls that could wear anything they wanted...had all the guys attention...i thought, "wow their lives are perfect"....I know now that was just crap...but i always felt awkward. I wore my dads clothes because i felt huge in anything else. I made my own dresses for school dances because the shops in my town never carried my sizes. It was difficult.

Despite being active, i always has a hard time trying to get the access weight off. I was an emotional eater and that got the best of me. My home life was stressful, which in return turned me to something comforting...food. I look back and wished it was something else that i focused my emotions on, but I can't change the past. That's what I used to help me and where i am right now is the consequence.

So i've done some calculating in my head the past couple days and i've figured from the time i was 16 to right now at 27 I've gained roughly 120lbs. WHOLLY CRAP!  It's embarrassing to admit that, but in order for me to change I have to lay everything on the table....right in front of everyone. 

If you asked me 5 years ago if I would have this surgery I would have been like HELLS NO! I can do it myself! and with 5 years of trying over and over and over....having some luck at first then gaining twice the amount back....I've come to the realization, I need something more permanent.

So the past couple weeks i've dove deep onto the internet and researched Gastric Bypass surgery...I've read everything possible! There are cons to this surgery....and it will be a struggle for the first little while after...but the pros outweight the cons tremendously, and in the end I will be a healthy individual and that is what matters to me.

I've always said, if I was healthy i don't think my weight and my body image would matter so much to me...i like my curves, but in the long run, my BMI is 47 when it should be between 18-24....My hips and legs ache constantly.....my heart races when i climb 7 stairs...I am having fertility issued with PCOS because of my weight....and so on.....I'm gonna kill myself by the time i'm 35.....if i keep this up, and I want kids and I want to live a long healthy life with them and Glen....not dead because I didn't do anything about it now.

 

So what has happened so far is that I've gone to my family doctor and he's written up a referral for me for Guelph Bariatric Center and now I just have to wait on a call that says "Hey come on down for orientation" ...after that I am on my way. It won't be a quick process...probably about a year before surgery...but they will give me a chance to learn everything i need to know before. :)

 

So i'm going to keep this as like a blog/diary....I'll write in it every so often to update and vent. Please feel free to comment...or just read along..I need lots of support and encouragement.

 

Ciao for now...