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Well, it was 3 months ago, yesterday, that I had my life changed.  In looking back, my life style has truely changed.  For the first time in my life, I'm watching what I eat and SUCEEDING at weight loss!  It hasn't been quite what I expected, I was told that I would be down 60 - 65lbs by 3 months, and I'm only down 37, but I really should be happy with that.  I am suceeding, and I'm going to continue to suceed at this.  Besides, I'd never have lost this much on any diet out there.  It has been a rollercoaster ride, but a good one.  I am down 37lbs, and in a size 20w.  I'm walking 3miles in 1hr, at a 2.5% incline 3 - 4 days per week.  I'm looking forward to what the next 3 months will bring. 

I'm approaching my 3 months postop, and my weight loss has been at a turtles pace.  I guess I'm partially disappointed because my surgeons office said I would be down 60 - 65lbs by 3 months. I'm only down 35.  I saw my family physician today. He's very happy with my weight loss progress.  According to his calculations I should be losing 13lbs / month.  He is checking my thyroid function, though.  I guess I need to realize I'm an individual, and not to compare myself with other people, and their success.  I am putting a call into my surgeons office to see what they say. 


My nurse Laurel called me back.  She states at the time of surgery I was 135lbs overweight, so by the 3rd of March I should be down 40lbs to be on track.  So I'll just have to wait and see......  I did get some homeopathic medicine to assist in thyroid function.  Lets see if it helps. 

Everyone was right.  I must have been in starvation mode. Since I've started eating 1000 cals/day, with 80gms protein, and 80 oz of water,  I've started losing the weight again.  It did take 2 -3 weeks of doing the increased cals, water, and protein before the weight loss started happening again.  I did have an 8lb loss from last week.  And today I'm in my size 20 jeans!   
They may be a little to tight yet, but I'm in them!    

I gained 2lbs back.  I don't know how, unless its just muscle mass.  I am walking on the treadmill 3miles, in 1 hr, at a 2.5% incline.  I'm eating 1000 - 1200 cals /day.   I'm eating/ meeting all my requirements.   I must be losing inches, though.  My coat feels bigger.  I can button my size 20 jeans (and zip!), whereas I couldn't 3 weeks ago, when I stopped losing weight.  I keep saying I've plateaued, but not sure since a true plateau  means your not even losing inches.    I don't know.   I guess I just will keep on doing what I'm doing, and see what happens.   I went back to work today.  That surprisingly felt good.  I'm thinking about taking a day position.   I'll still have to take on call but maybe not as much?  Hard to tell with everyone leaving.   I'll talk to Joe about it tonight, but I sure would like to be able to do things in the evening with my family, like everyone else.    

Well, I'm thoroughly disgusted!  I must have plateaued because my weight has been between 242 - 240 all week and all last week!  I never thought I would plateau this soon after surgery!   Last week we just put the lack of weight loss down to my period, but evidently thats not it.   I went and bought a treadmill on saturday.  I love it.  I had been walking sporadically, as the weather permitted.  Now I'm walking 3 miles in 1hr, at 2.5% incline.  I feel great when I get done exercising.  That is helping me not focus so much on the lack of weight loss.   I'm faithfully following my diet, and now getting in all my daily requirements without too much difficulty.  I find I still hate eating.  I would be so happy if I never had to eat again.   I just need to learn to live with the fact I'm not going to lose any more weight, but at least I'm healthier. 

PS  Later today the dietician called me back.  He feels my body went into starvation mode because I wasn't eating 1000 cals/day.  He states I should have been getting in that many cals by week 2.  I don't see how that is possible that soon but perhaps......   It did help reading on my post that others stalled at around the same time.  That makes me feel better.  In the meantime, I going to keep on walking (and perhaps have Joe hide the scale. lol)

I went to my 3 week post op doctor's visit.  It went well.  I'm down 19lbs according to their scale (17lbs according to mine).  I feel really good.  I did pull a muscle in my side the other day, but that will go away.  I walked 2 miles today and if I hadn't had to get going to the doctors, probably would have tried a 3rd mile.  It feels so good to get out and walk.  I have been trying some solid foods because I just don't think I can tolerate the pureed any longer!  It went down fine, without any pain, or discomfort.   Looking forward to New Years Eve when I'm allowed the transitional diet!

Well, last night was a rough one.  We went to our caving meeting, and as always, we went to the bar with everyone afterwards.  I did have 2 tiny sips of Joe's margarita, which tasted great. Then Joe ordered a quesedia.  Oh it looked and smelled so delicious!  I wanted to snatch a peice of it  so badly. I actually got mad, and was mad for the rest of the night.  I kept thinking in my mind, 'why am I so mad?  Joe didn't have the surgery.  He has the right to eat. '  Then I felt mad at myself for having the surgery, and changing everything I loved so much, and for being so fat in the first place that I needed the surgery.   Then I would tell myself how nice I'll look, and how much better I'm going to feel when I lose this weight.  I still went to bed mad, but got up this morning and weighed myself.  I've lost 2 lbs since yesterday, so that made me feel so much better about not eating there.  I get  to start the pureed foods today. YEAH!  The all liquids were wearing on me.

Feeling better today.  Actually, I've been feeling good since 12/9.  I'm up walking, and doing things like normal, except no lifting.  I find that the twisting motion brings on pain, and I can't sit upright in the computer chair for long as it makes my back ache.  I've only taken 2 doses of pain meds since 12/9.  I drove on Monday, 12/11, and that was overdoing it, but have to drive Jenna to the doctors in the AM.  I think she may have strep throat, and I really don't need to get that right now.  I'm feeling better about food.  Last Friday, 12/7, and Saturday, 12/8, I was very nauseated.  Just the thought of eating made me nausious. I really think it was because of consuming to few calories (200 - 300) per day. Those two days, I kept thinking "I don't want to eat. Why do I have to eat? I hate eating!"  I'm finding I have a bigger psychological tie to food than I thought. Today, I'm really missing all the fast food joints, and I find myself thinking "oh what I wouldn't do for some normalcy."  I have to remind myself that eating 900+ calories in one sitting isn't normal, and I'm developing a new normalcy.  I did start eating/including Breyers Double Churned No added sugar icecream to my diet.  It's made the liquid diet much more 'normal' for me (helping me psycologically not hate having to eat-- I actually find myself thinking that a lot).  It has also given me much needed calories, and protein.