Barb S.

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My unofficial weight is now 176 meaning I have lost a whopping 66 lbs.  This has really been an incredible ride for me.  Everything is seeming to work out great.  I still have issues with food.  I still find things that I can't eat or that are "challenging" for me to eat, but I work it out somehow.  

I really wish I had done measurements before surgery.  I know i have lost a lot of inches too.  

I feel great and everyone is remarking about how good I look.  
Gotta love that!

I just can't believe it.  I feel good, I look pretty good.  I bought a new bathing suit in an XL 18/20 and it LOOKS GOOD on me.  (Something I have NEVER said before).  

We are heading to California for 2 weeks for a family vacation.  I am dreading it because of the whole food issue.  I am taking some of my fresh energy bakery protein bars, and hopefully will find some good sources of protein while I am there.  

I go to the dr on Wednesday next week for my next appt.  That will be my "official" total I guess.

Ta ta for now

Starting weight 242
Current Weight 187
Total lost              55 lbs!!!

Starting BMI   42.9
Current BMI    33.1
woo hoo!

The weight is slowly and surely coming off.  I am not doing as well as I could be but I hope to improve that very soon.  Mainly exercise is a stumbling block for me.  I am getting the energy I need to do it, I just need to actually do it now.  

Things are all good.  I am constantly trying new things to see what I can eat or what I can't eat.  Some things work, some don't.  I can eat steak but not deli meat.  I can eat most vegetables.  I can even eat salsa and chips...but any fast food is a no go (thank goodness)...I can eat chili and soups but no breads.  I am sure most wls people go through this.  Everything is all about trial and error.  Relearning what I can tolerate to eat and what I can't.  

I am trying hard to watch my calories and carbs.  Getting my protein in and drinking water.  I highly recommend fresh energy  bakery  bars  check them out at www.freshenergybakery.com their protein extreme bars are a fantastic way to get your protein in.  
c-ya next month

9.9 in October 06
7.4 in Jan 07
woo hoo....that is so awesome.

242 starting
201 current
135 goal

What a truly life changing event this surgery has been.  The first month was complete and utter hell for me, but it gets better all the time.  I still struggle with eating, but now my struggle is what can I eat?  Trying to get the protein in is tough too.  Hoping that if I actually start exercising, that the weight loss will pick up again.  I am amazed that some of the foods I thought I would be missing I am not really missing at all.  

Went to my endocrinologist this morning and they were amazed.  35 lb weightloss since I was in there in September.  Blood sugar levels are amazing.  Haven't taken any diabetes medication since the day I left the hospital.  Waiting on the results of my A 1 -C test.  

Was excited to get into a 16/18 stretch jeans, but haven't had any luck finding other pants to fit me.  The depressing part was when I tried on pants last night and they fit but boy did they show my ugly belly overhang.  I don't know how I am ever gonna get rid of that thing, even with exercising.  If It doesn't shrink some, I will never be in smaller pants.  

This is truly a path of committment and dedication.  I am still working on it but hopefully it will all fall into place for me.  

Happy New year to all...

start weight 242
current weight  210

is 9.5 lbs since surgery 6 days ago!  Feeling pretty good, still a bit tired, need to get up and get moving now.  

Next appt is 12/20/06

all In all I feel pretty good.  I am not overly hungry.  actually not hungry at all....which makes it hard to remember to drink my meals that I am supposed to.  I am trying to sip protein all day and alternate it with diet popsicles, and water.  I go tomorrow to have my staples removed and the drain hopefully.  I think I may start feeling like a normal person again.  The pain is very very tolerable.  The bruising and surgery sites are quite hideous looking.  Hopefully in time they won't look so ugly, but an ugly belly is better that an enormous one.  

Gonna call my dr today because I am not sure if I should be using my insulin or not.  The blood sugars seem to hover around 140.  Still a tad bit high but since I am not eating much, I am concerned that if I give myself a shot...I will tank out.  

Oh well, that is a dr call for sure. 

Anyway...I am on the losing side.  Will update my first weight loss as soon as I get back tomorrow.  

Today I am sitting at my computer crying.  I think I feel like no one really cares.  Maybe it is just the fear of the unknown playing tricks on my mind.  I just want to be on the other side of surgery.  I am ready for my "new" life to begin.  

Gonna do measurements and a before picture tonight. 

I am one week away from the biggest event in my life after my wedding and the birth of my daughters. This has been a very difficult decision for me. I have struggled with my weight forever. I have a mind picture of myself that just doesn't match the mirror image I see. After surgery and the weight loss, I hope to see the same woman in the mirror that my mind sees everyday. It is very depressing to "realize" just how big I truly am, because most of the time I don't "feel" this large. Then I see a photo of myself, or I try to fit in an airplane seat and the struggle is so mind blowing. I am also looking forward to not having to take diabetes medication any more. My father was a diabetic from his early 30's until he died at age 45. He also had heart problems (which I have not inherited so far). As I turn 45 myself in two weeks, this surgery couldn't have come at a better time in my life. Hopefully this new beginning will push away the fears of turning 45 are having for me. Praying for peace and a great turnout to this surgery next week!