Marilyn1965
It is very strange telling my story when I know so many others have gone through similar experiences. When a person is obese, as I am, you think the depression and inability to stop eating is only happening to you.
I have been overweight my entire life and no one has ever understood my issues involved in being overweight. I have felt and continue to feel incredible shame at not being able to stop putting food into my mouth just because I know I should. Friends telling me, "Marilyn you would be so pretty, if only you would lose weight". The pitying looks given to me by others at a pool or at the beach. My husband acting as the "Food Police" and reminders to "Eat Healthy".
I was a size 16 during high school. Not terribly overweight but when you're surrounded by size 4's and 6's you feel like a whale. I continued to gain weight after high school and then college. Yo-yo dieting, one marriage ended, my father died, and I found myself barely treading water emotionally. Eureka! I should diet and exercise to help find my way again. I lost about 38 pounds. A new relationship was born, an unexpected pregnancy, gall bladder surgery, high blood pressure, depression, and 50 more pounds!
Here I am. Emotionally spent and hoping a surgical procedure will help me choose a better way of life.