Still Plugging Along

Apr 17, 2011

So here it is April 17, 2011 and still working at the final goal.  I am down to 216 lbs.  I have lost 4 lbs in almost a year however, it is from being a bit more relaxed then i probably should be.  I stopped really going to the gym when i got promoted in July 2010 since this is such a great job but exhausting.  I also have been not prioritizing my life.  I am still single and is much as i would love a man to appreciate me at this weight,  I AM IN THE REAL WORLD.  I just got back from a great vacation with a girlfriend and we were sititing on the sand looking at the Ocean at 9pm and we talked about my desire to find the true love of my life.  We then talked about how my entire life i have found a reason to think i ws not good enough. Even though i have maintained this weightloss for 6 1/2 years and still losing little by little, i have been thinking i was not good enough for my Plastic Surgery since i failed and did not real my goal weight of 190 lbs (pre-plastics)..She reminded me how truely far i have come and that life is a journey.  She also reminded me that i am only 80% done with my initial goal and it is up to me to finish it.   I have made a decision that I need my #1 focus to be losing the last 26 lbs so that i can get the surgery that i DESERVE.  I am here to say to the Universe that I am going to make my health and my children  my only #1  priorities. I will get back in the gym no less than 3 days a week and be less relaxed on the items i put in my mouth.  I also will commit to by the end of the summer interviewing 3 Plastic Surgeons to discuss my options.  My goal is to have the Plastic Surgery between Thanksgiving and Christmas..  
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Wow life Changes sometimes

Jun 02, 2010

6/2/2010--Hello all!  Lots has changed since i had the Surgery on October 14, 2004.  Today i am at a weight of 220 lbs.  I have successful kept off the weight that i had lost initially and the baby weight that i gained from having Noah in September 2006.  I am still 40 lbs over my goal weight, however, i am tired of beating myself up over it.  i have kept off 122 lbs and had a baby too for almost 6 years.  In the meantime I since gotten divorced from my husband that had the surgery almost a year after i did. Gastric Bypass can change people for the good or the bad.  Gastric Bypass can help you see that you may have settled for people,jobs,and painful relationships because you thought you didn't deserve any better than what you had.  We were just happy that we had someone or a paying job even if we were not fulfilled and miserable. my ex-husband did me a favor by cheating. he has released me from a marriage that was not what I needed.  i deserve a devoted father for my kids, and hard worker and a man that adores me.  i am not dating anyone now, but hey, thats ok,  I won;t make the same mistake twice. he has his own lessons to learn.  I also landed a great job with a very large bank in January 2008 and my career is skyrocketing. There is life after Gastic bypass, and sometimes it is great and sometimes it is a little rocky, BUT I WOULD NEVER CHANGE A A THING! 
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baby after gastric bypass

Feb 12, 2007

2/12/07
Well a lot has happen since i last posted.  I am now a happy new mommy again.  Noah Matthew was born on September 21, 2006.  He was a very very healthy baby, born at 39 weeks via c-section.  He was 6 lbs 13 ounces.  He and i have had no ill affects from having gastric bypass .  I am currently 232 lbs.  I had gained a total of 36 lbs while i was pregnant.  I am now about 8 lbs heavier than i was before i got pregnant.  I can say that losing the rest of the weight has not been easy.  I was told by the doctor that if i got pregant before i finished losing all the weight that it would be harder to lose.  I still have 53 lbs to lose to be at goal.  I have just started working out with a trainer and i feel that it can be done.  I am not sorry for getting pregnant and that it was the right choice.  I feel great and i know that the rest of the weight will come off with time, watching what i eat and exercising.


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Feb 12, 2007


4/20/04 I thought i would share some information to this life changing diary. I am 35 and currently 340lbs, 5' 7 1/2 " tall and i just had my first child 9 months ago. I had gestational diabetes while pregnant and had gained 41lbs over the 9 months. I unfortunately can not seem to get the weight off and that was the final straw for me. I have been morbidly obese my whole life, i was even called "the baby whale" when i was a baby. I am a strong women, and i am a go-getter, the weight had progressively made my life more difficult and sad. I need to feel good about my appearance as i feel about my professional ability. I know this surgery will help me on my journey to get fit and healthy in the body and the mind. In my many years of trying every possible diet i realize that we have to change our thinking about food. This problem is not just physical it is definetly mental and emotional.

I made the decision to seek out help. Last week i went to Northpointe Medical to help do the necessary testing to get clearance to meet dr. krause. I had my psych evaluation already and had my first physical with Dr. Rafai. I had a Pulmonary Function test today and I will be having a sleep apnea test as well. I am sooo excited to move forward i am getting all of my test done that Dr. Rafai asked within the first 30 days so that there are no delays and i can get on the waiting list to meet Dr. Krause faster. My immediate goal is to have the surgery by Sept/October
4/24/04 Good news i got a call from Dr. Rafai they have approved my Psych test and initial evaluation, he has given me the green light to call Dr. Krause to set up a surgical evaluation. yeah!
5/05/04 Spoke to Dr. Krause's office and i have a scheduled date to meet with Dr. Krause July 12th . yeah!
5/16/04 Just feeling a little anxious and having trouble waiting to see dr.krause. I feel that i look in the mirror now more then ever and i am just so appalled at what i see. I feel like hiding in my house. I can't wait til July. I am going to the Pre-Op meetings so that does help the time pass. I am highly thinking about starting therapy again or getting in a group setting again to talk about my feelings about my current weight and how i am going to need to find a healthier coping mechanism to deal with the issues that come up in my life and cause stress. I feel so helpless right now, i so want to have the surgery NOW!!!!!!!
5/19/04 i went to the Dr. today and i was happy to see that the scale went to the left today by 4.5 lbs. Any loss in weight i will take. I am not trying to loose a ton of weight before the surgery but if i can lose 30lbs i will be happy. I am glad that i am NOT required to lose weight for the surgery at this point, but it definetly can help
7/12/04 I went to meet the surgeon Dr. Krause today. What a wonderful guy. I was a little upset when i got there because i called my Human Resource Person at my job and even though I have United Health Care covers RNY, our insurance contract does not cover WLS. I was sooooo sad. I spoke to my husband who is an insurance agent and we are going to switch to Blue Cross of MI and i hope to have coverage by then end of August. As for the surgery, i qualified as is for the LAP surgery and i real excited. I have no other test that need to be done. I should get my date next week and i hope to have the surgery by early November..
7/20/04 i called Dr. Krause's office today and i have a date , i am soooo excited my date is October 14. can't wait....
8/8/04
I am just writing because i am sooo anxious. I feel my eating has been real bad for the last 2-3 weeks, due to the fact i some insurance issues and had to change insurance companies mid stream. I am glad to say i got approved with Blue Cross Blue Sheild, yesterday and i will be on their insurance plan before the end of this month. It was really upsetting to think i waited so long and then i would not be able to have the surgery. I hope to focus on something else soon so that i can pass the time... :(
9/3/04
I am writing cause i have been thinking a lot about the surgery and i am still very anxious. I am soo very conscience of everything i am putting in my mouth , yet, still struggling with the food choices I make from time to time. I have been beating myself up. I am not sure why. I decided to join a Therapy group and i am glad that i am going to help with the mental part. Still have trouble with food after 6pm. so i need to do something for after the surgery. Need to get that issue resolved, or learn how to better deal with it. 41 days to go.
9/16/04
Hi i am writing today cause i am reflecting on this Jewish New Year. My life is going to be re-born, it is as if my surgery date is my new "new year". I am excited and i look forward to not sweating like crazy and my back not hurting. My life will change and i can't wait. 29 days to go!
9/27/04
Hi I am a little down today, Food has been a real issue of lately. I am not sure what the hell is going on. The surgery can not get here fast enough. I am sooooooooooo anxious to stop this horrible cycle that i am on. I know it is only a matter of days , but , really, really been beating myself up lately. 17 days to go.
9/30/04
i thought it might be healthy to talk about the behaviors that I have had in the past that have made me depressed, and sad for the majority of my life . I know this surgery will take away that craziness everyday of my life having to scope out: armless chairs at tables in restaurants instead of booths, Calling ahead to a restaurant to make sure that they have tables. Forgoing movies or shows for fear of not fitting in the seats, Not traveling by airplane to ensure that i will not be embarrassed. Not being able to go to Plays, Football Games, Sporting events cause i can't fit in the damn seats. Oh how i used to love going to concerts. My husband going to places alone so he could enjoy those things. I cant believe the things that i have missed.... Mostly doing whatever i could to not be noticed, to become part of the room, If i had to sit close to someone else i would hold my thighs together so that i would not touch them and not embarras myself, go home and have terrible pains in my legs cause i was squeezing them so long. The terrible bruises i would get on my hips when i did decide on going to a Event and having to squeeze myself in the seat. It is truely horrible. Its all become a regular way of life. But not the way normal people live. Though the side benefit will be looking better, what I am most interested in is feeling better and releasing the chain that binds me. How free i will feel, Free at last!
10/1/04
Hi, Feeling a little better today, I have decided not to beat myself up anymore and to be excited for my new me. I had a great visit witht the dietician yesterday and I went to the class that Michelle Hy teaches and it was extremely informative, she is wonderful and i am so glad that i went, she is open and honest and shows us that we are not alone in our disease of obesity. It was a tiny bit scary about the tubes and stuff to me, but there is not a better place in Michigan to get hospital care. I am confidant that they will take the best care of me that is necessary. 13 days to go. I am ready!!!!.
10/5/04 Hi, feeling good, little nervous not about the surgery but my son is getting a cold and if i catch it, they may not operate. So i am watching everything, and washing my hands constantly. I am taking some decongestant just in case. 8 days to go!!!
10/12/04
Hi, well soo close. I have been freaking out the last 4-5 days not because of the surgery, rather than i have had a sore throat for that long. My son got a cold last week and i was so devestated. I have no cold symptoms except for this horrible sore throat. i was sooo upset i went to my regular dr. to see if there was anything wrong. He gave the Z-PAC just to be safe, and i have been drinking tea and taking Sudafed. I feel ok, just pissed that my throat is sore. :) 2 days to go.
10/20/04
Hi, Well I am 6 days Post Op and i feel ok today. I had the surgery Thursday morning at 6am. the surgery itself took 1 hour 56 minutes. My surgeon who is sooooo Great! said i did well. I can say the next 24 hours were tough. I was a little frightened cause the had left the tube in my throat when i originally woke up, however they gave me some medication so i would forget and they took the tube out while i was in Post Op. I woke up and had a lot of oxygen in nose and they kept telling me to breath deep. It was a scary at first and then the nurse told me that i would be ok, not to worry, it was all just precautionary. By 1:30pm or so I was well enough to go to my room and see my family. That really made me feel better to see them. They still had me on a ton of Oxygen and my mouth was super dry. at first they would let me suck on a wet towel cause my mouth was sooooooooooo dry, a few hours later they did give me "some" ice chips, however they were measured amounts of ice chips. I have a ruptered disc in my lower back, so i wanted to get out of bed. I did get out of bed around 6pm or so on thursday. The first night was not bad, I was looking forward to the morning to get the catheder out and brush my teeth. The next day was ok, my right side was sore and that was what i was told. I did some walking in the hallways and had some vistors and complained about the shitty bed to my family, cause my back was hurting. On Saturday Afternoon the Doctor came to see me and said i was well enough to go home. Yeah! I came home and slept on the couch for first 3 nights at home. Tonight i hope will be the first night i can sleep in the bed. Eating has been interesting. I have taken to eating chicken broth around the clock and enjoying it. Today is the first day that i made a smoothie and it tastes great. I drink it real slow. I made one earlier in the day and had some trouble, cause i had put some milk and yougart in it for thickness and it made my stomach hurt. I am i guess a little lactose intolerant right now. Anyways today is the first day i feel like i am a real person again.
10/28/2004
hi, just a quick note i am 2 weeks post op, feeling about 80-85% better. I got weighed yesterday and i lost 19 lbs. very excited. I am a little concern that i am eating too much , i look forward to the meeting with the nutritionalist. I am eating everything that is allowed, i just thought that if i had 2-3 bites i would be stuffed. I am never hungry til about 2pm , and then i feel a little hungry. I still try to get a protein shake in in the morning . I look forward to seeing if everything i am doing is ok.
11/10/04
Hi i am about 3 1/2 weeks Post op. I am down 32 lbs. very excited about that, I am still Lactose Intolerant, so food choices are tough. I sometimes eat a food on one day and the next day i am sick to my stomach.
11/15/04
Hi, well i am a month out and i went for my check up today and i am doing real well Dr. Rafai had said. I have lost total of 35 lbs my first month. real excited about that. I am able to eat a little bit of milk product soooo, i think my tummy is getting a little more tolerable of milk products.
11/30/04
Hi. well i am about 6 weeks out and i feel preety good. I feel my initial weight loss pace has tappered off a bit, but hey if i can lose 20lbs a month, that will be just fine with me. Milk is getting a little bit easier, still can't eat yougart or cottage cheese, will try again at a later date. Need to start swimming, Dr. Rafai gave me the ok two weeks ago, now i just got to go and get started, once i get started i know that i will love it again. the hardest part is the first time. Well that is all, official weigh in tomorrow, my scale says i am down total 48 lbs. we shall see tomorrow at the Dr.'s office.
12/9/04
Hi, here i am , sorry it has been so long. Been trying different foods and have some luck and some real issues. I can honestly say that i have to force myself to eat. I am never really hungry. My husband constantly is mad at me cause he feels that i dont eat enough. I do try! It is amazing. Before i could never stop eating, NOW, i never even think about it. I went to see Dr. Kraukauer instead of Rafai, because he is the bone specialist. He decided to pull my old records in reference to my Goiter, and for the first time in 26 years they(doctors's) decided not to say i am fat and forget about trying Synthroid to reduce my Goiter, he actually put me on the medication to see if it will reduce my goiter. The good thing is that that medication will not hinder my weight loss, if anything it will help. The doctors also put me on Ortho Evra birth control patch, which my husband is happy about! hee hee!. cause, that door was closed for a bit. LOL!!! anyways, My unofficial weight loss as of today is 57 lbs in 7 weeks. yeah!!!
12/25/04
Happy Holidays to all. Well, i have official lost 57 lbs, however according to my scale i have lost 61 lbs in 9 weeks. I seem to be hitting a slight plateau. I am not freaking out, however if it continues i will re-evaluate a few things. I spoke to the surgeon and he said that everything was going very well and i am losing above average weight. I am assuming he means around 20 lbs per month. So as long as i am losing 20- lbs a month , i will not freak out. I hope to start swimming this week coming up that will also jump start my system. I have not been eating alot at all, Dr. Krause was ok with that but that my UA (urine) test was not so great. I need to try to drink the 64 oz of water. I had some crystals in in UA so that could be Kidney issues later, so I need to step up. Been eating a few more carbs then i think i should, so i am going to watch that as well. It is amazing that when you have this surgery that you really do care what happens, and that it really does cure the need to eat. That has been the most amazing thing to me. My ketones were a little high which again, will be high if you are not eating, and will NOT help you lose weight. If you go into starvation mode, your body will hang on to every calorie you eat, so that also could be why i have been stagnating a little. anyways, i am not complaining just curious. Well i will write again after the new year, i hope to be down in weight some more.
1/1/05 HAPPY NEW YEAR. It sure will be a better year for me in 2005. I can say it has ben a rough year emotionally, physically, and financially. I am greatful for 2004 becuase I found the courage to have a life changing surgery that is changing my life every day. So thank g-d for that. I know my life will continue to get better and better, and it is true , you mut have faith. Peace and Love. down 67.5 pounds in 10 weeks. simiply mind blowing to me!
1/27/05 Hey everyone... well it has been an interesting month. I have found that i was eating more carbs than i should have and i had to check myself on that. I am still not eating that much food, however, the funny thing is i can for whatever reason can eat about 2-3 cups of popcorn, but can not eat 2 oz of chicken. not sure why. I hit a plateau and was upset for awhile, i did also hear that it is common about 12-14 weeks out. I did honor my commitment to myself and started swimming 3 days a week at the local high school pool. I LOVE IT! I am swimming laps and getting stronger. My clothes are falling off and my Ass is getting smaller, thank you G-d! Down 74 lbs in 14 weeks, not to shabby!
2/27/05 Just got back from a well needed vacation in florida, too bad my son got an ear infection and was cutting 3 teeth while we were there... hee! oy vey did i enjoy nap time! I finally broke down and bought some clothes . feels great down to size 22. Down 91 pounds in 17 weeks.
3/23/05 Hi all , sad day had to go to family court with my brother... His soon to be ex-wife is giving him a hard time about parenting time for his 4 month old baby. Anyways. I am excited, i joined Lifetime Fitness in Commerce, MI and it is sooo beautiful. My shape is changing more than my weight loss this month. I found a new food addiction . I am addicted to avacado. yummy! Still can not eat any what i call hard proteins , like turkey , chicken, fish, steak... I can eat hamburger and pork, go figure... I eat tons of cheese, eggs and yougart. I also drink a protein shake every morning for my 20 grms of protein in one shot. I am eating on average of about 60 grams of protein a day. I have lost a total of 95.5 lbs in 20 weeks (five months), so the weight loss is slowing so i have to step up the exercise.
4/21/05 Hi all, well i have made it to the century club. I actuall made it on my 6 month anniversary. Still working out, weight loss is slowing down, but hey i am not complaining.
i lost a total of 103lbs in 25 weeks. yeah!!!!! :)
7/16/05 Hey all, it has been awhile. Just had my 4th wedding anniversary a few days ago. Life is wonderful. I feel good, i look good, and most of all i feel like a "normal" person again. i have lost a total of 117 lbs in 9 months... :)

7/30/2006: Wow it has been a year since i posted. Well I had lost of total of 122 lbs. I decided at the end of 2005 that i wanted to have one more baby. I was 37 at the time and thought this it. I am happy to say that i am 8 months Pregnant. I have gained a total of 23 lbs. I am comfortable with the weight gain. I feel it is weight that i can lose after i deliver. I am also ok that if I dont that i did the right thing by having my last baby. I am now about 78 lbs from goal which includes the baby weight i gained. I was about 43 pounds from goal when i got prego. I am happy to say that my Husband just had RNY with Dr. Krause 3 weeks ago and is down 23 lbs already. We are on the move to being a healthy family..

About Me
West Bloomfield, MI
Location
31.9
BMI
RNY
Surgery
10/14/2004
Surgery Date
Mar 23, 2004
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