Melissa C.
Since about the age of 16 I have gone back and forth on feeling ok about my size and appearance and disliking my size/appearance. For many years i tried various diets, while trying to make the best of my situation. I did large size modeling and tried to outwardly be very positive and confident. Inside i struggled with how i felt about who i was. As do many women, as i had kids and got older, my weight continued to climb. With that in the last few years have come all the "minor annoyances" that weight brings. These include high blood pressure, joint pain and sleep apnea (i love and hate that bi-pap machine all at the same time!!) And... then the not fitting well into chairs, restaurant booths and dreading being stuck in a middle seat on an airplane! I love to be outside gardening, enjoy swimming (not so hot on being seen in a bathing suit though.. Also, my kids are both athletes.. my son plays football, basketball and track and skate boards like crazy in his free time, my daughter plays high school volleyball and is really active otherwise. I want to keep up- and not feel ackward with all the other parents. I am also recently single in this last year after many years of marriage but much of that time spent with just my kids and i at home and him not there at all. Weirdly enough.. dating seems to be going better than i thought it would and for the most part i love my life, my family and friends- i have awesome supports and great job, etc.. but the weight is taking it's toll. After more than 12 coworkers have gone thru the surgeries i decided that it was the only thing left i haven't tried. So.. here i am... preparing for the journey ahead.....
