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Just thought I might update everyone on my progress.  It has been a little bit of a roller coaster these past few months, but I finally feel that the ride is smoothing out, at least for now.  I have seen my Dr, several times in the past few months due to problems that I feel I am having with my band.  Dr. Blaney is fairly confident that there is nothing majorly wrong but want to be on the safe side so I have to go for a Upper GI series next week to rule out a band slip.  I have also been having trouble with my port area.  I am 6 months out, and it is still bugging me, to the point that I cant sit in certain positions, and have to either lay flat on my back or only on my left side.  This makes it near impossible for me to sleep.  There is talk that I will have to have my port moved, but nothing is definite yet.  My doctor wants to wait till I lose a little more weight, just because it seems the more I lose, the more my port moves out of place. (Any one else experience this?)  My port is currently actually sitting on my lower ribs, and continues to "ride" up the more I lose.

On a little lighter note (no pun intended...lol) I have lost 15 lbs in the past month!  I am now more than half way to goal, with right around 40 more lbs to lose!!  It feels great considering I went most of april and much of may having not lost but actually gained 3 lbs.  And the 15 lbs does not included the 3 lbs gain!  Go me!

On the wedding front, everything is slowly starting to fall into place.  I am not really trying to rush it because I still have about 10-11months.  But I have been told that the time passes really quick planning for a wedding.  We now know the place, who is in the wedding, colors, we have put my aunt's garden club in charge of decorations (they have decorated for many weddings and are absolutely fabulous...plus it is free, minus the costs of the decorations)  I have booked a photographer which, just so happens to be a really good friend from high school.  We lost touch once we graduated, and little did I know that she was now a fairly well known wedding photographer in our area.  When she found out the it was my wedding she was like ok, but you have to let me do it for free, minus the costs of developing.  She also said she was going to give me full rights to all the film used and basically just take the pictures.  So, so far we have spent near nothing and have almost everything planned out!  I can only pray that it stays this way!

So there is a small bit of what is going on in my life!  Enjoy!


Start weight: 274
Current Weight: 209
Goal:165
Total Lost: 65

The date is finally set for our wedding!  I am so excited!  It seems like every other date that we have thought of before has been wrong for some reason but this one seems right.  The date is.....

May 16, 2009

I can not wait.  I think we are going to have a beach wedding but nothing is definite yet we are still waiting to tell certain people because some people do not exactly like the idea of us even trying to plan a wedding until we both graduate from college.  Zach is now a little over a year from graduating and should be done a few weeks before the wedding.  I on the other hand still have another 2 yrs minimum.  Either way I am so excited.  I have already picked out my colors and we already know who is going to be bridesmaids and grooms men, for now the only other thing we are going to do is get our guest lists together and try and narrow it down some to help cover expenses.  My family (just siblings and spouses/children) is 36 and we were going to try for under 50 people because we do not want a big wedding but I guess when you have a big family you kind of have no other choice.  Anyway I am so excited now i just have to lose my 88 lbs so I can buy a skinny wedding dress!  Yay for me!

The BEST:
So this week I hit a major mark of the scale.  At 242lbs I no longer qualify for weight loss surgery.  I am so happy!  I feel so much smaller now.  I went to see my doctor on tuesday and he is really happy with the amount of weight I have lost.

The WORST:
I lost my job this past week.  I am so stressed and sad!  I knew that it was coming because I was told when they hired me that there was a chance that in a year I would no longer have a job, BUT IT STILL SUCKS!  I now have been looking for a job for nearly two weeks now.  Guess what?  I have found absolutely nothing.  I have tried nearly 20 places.  Most places wont even let me fill out applications because they are 100% sure they arent hiring.  I have no idea what I am going to do.  I have bills to pay and no money to pay them.  I will hopefully find something soon.  Until then however I am a very stressed PERSON!

So I am proud and a little surprised to report a weight lose of 4 lbs over this weekend.   I had a long time friend, come visit from out of town with her husband.  We had a blast!!!  We did a little partying and I ate WAY too much.  It seemed that every few hours someone was hungry!  I was so sick of looking at food, seriously.  Yesterday, someone had the bright idea to go to a sub place for lunch...not even thinking I ordered a regular sub and let me tell you...I slimed and PB'ed for nearly an hour.  Thank God I had told my friend about the surgery because she more or less understood what was going on.   She also commented on the fact the I havent been this thin since she met me 6 yrs ago!!!  Anyway My main point of this post is that I ate constantly this weekend, just not large quantities and still lost 4lbs!  I am so thrilled.  I had to do a double take in the store earlier when I tried on a smaller pair of jeans because I could hardly recognize how small I have gotten.  I am so proud of my self!  I feel really happy about my decision and I am glad I am starting to feel healthy again. 

My current weight as of today is 246! 
Total lost is 28!

As of today I am down 23lbs in 39 days!!  I am so excited.  My old clothes are starting to fit again and I could not be happier.  Everyone seems to be noticing now and well I just FEEL GOOD!  I can not wait to say I am half way to goal or even that I am 50 pounds down.  But for now every pound feels great!  I have had one fill so far and I do not have great restriction but more than I did!  I am finally starting to feel comfortable in my own body again!  I think the day before surgery and the week following you could have asked me if I would do it again and I would have said HELL NO!!  But now a little over a month out I would do it again in a heart beat and I also find myself recommending it to people!  Something I never thought I would even bring up is now such an amazing part of me that I just seem to ramble on about it!


Start weight= 274 lbs
Current weight=251 lbs
Goal weight= 150 lbs and healthy!!

Well everyone...I CAME OUT IN ONE PIECE! 
Everything with my surgery went as expected.  I had a little trouble with pain and breathing after wards but so far so good.  I ended up stay an extra night in the hospital just to make sure everything was going to be okay.  Now that I am home I feel like I want to do everything but my body wont let me.  I have already lost like 5 lbs...im not sure if this is water weight but either way seeing the scale down a little is reassuring.  My family is keeping a constant watch on me so that I do not over do anything!  On Tuesday when I came out of surgery they looked at me and asked..."WAS IT REALLY WORTH THE PAIN?"  I was so frustrated with them that they would say that right as I came out of the operating room.  Yeah it is worth it!  I can already tell this is going to be BIG!!   I have no regrets and if I have to deal with a little more pain for a few more days it is nothing compared to the emotional pain I have suffered with for years.

So finally I got me surgery date...   December 4th!!!!  I am so excited I can hardly sit still.  I got approval from my insurance company on the 12th and was scheduled 3 days later.  I am absolutely shocked that insurance covered me.  It kinda make me realized just how fat I am.  Sad...but true.  However I am confident that I am going to do well after the surgery.  I have not started a "true" diet yet however I am trying a m,ore restrictive diet.  The way I see it is that I am suddenly not going to be able to eat like I used to and to me I am afriad it is going to severely depress me.  So for now I have started eating slower(alot alot slower) making myself smaller portions and cutting out my snacks.  My mother already says that it seems that I am starting to prepared for the surgery. 
I am so excited though.  It seems that Dec. 4th cant come quickly enough.  I am ready to get everything going right now.  I am so ready for this.  I dont think I have ever wanted anything more than this in my life.  Except for getting married.  Which by the way reminds me....I am now engaged to the best guy...Our wedding date is November 22nd...of next year!!!!

Yay for Surgery Yay for my ENGAGEMENT!!!