Melanie J.
it's been a long time
Jan 04, 2009
I am back to the place..where I started...the place I found the most support.
I have regained 40lbs and feel awful and ashamed. I am making a new commitment to get back on track. I am even considering a new procedure call the ROSE surgical procedure - Non- invasive .
It is unbelievable to me - that I am struggling with the same issues, AGAIN. It has been a difficult period for me -I have divorced my husband, endured the death of my younger sister and relocated to NYC. These are not excuses - but my life has clearly become too stressful.
So, I am once again - making a commitment to get healthy. I would love to hear from WLS friends- who have any advice for me..perhaps you are experiencing similar challenges. I found a great deal of support from WLS friends in Florida...and wish them the best - as they continue their journey...
xoxo,Melanie
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I have regained 40lbs and feel awful and ashamed. I am making a new commitment to get back on track. I am even considering a new procedure call the ROSE surgical procedure - Non- invasive .
It is unbelievable to me - that I am struggling with the same issues, AGAIN. It has been a difficult period for me -I have divorced my husband, endured the death of my younger sister and relocated to NYC. These are not excuses - but my life has clearly become too stressful.
So, I am once again - making a commitment to get healthy. I would love to hear from WLS friends- who have any advice for me..perhaps you are experiencing similar challenges. I found a great deal of support from WLS friends in Florida...and wish them the best - as they continue their journey...
xoxo,Melanie
and still i rise
Jan 14, 2007
And still I rise !"....maya angelou
*** New Update *** - My Angel-Krista and I starting a new WLS
Support Group. Pre-ops and Post ops of all surgeons are welcome to attend - The 3rd Thursday of each Month - beginning on
November 21st at Halifax Medical Center Auditorium in Daytona Beach. Entrance in the back of hospital ( in the same day surgical wing) . Time 7pm - 8;30 pm
Share info-clothing exchange- great info for
those who are considering WLS. Please join us !
9/13 - update my surgery was cancelled by my surgeon this morning- due to personal reasons...I was devestated..but you have to have faith..and I am learning more about faith everyday..
surgeon called back this afternoon and has decided he will do my surgery as planned on Tuesday....Will post more..now I have to take a nap
this has been some day...I hate Friday the 13th
It's about faith...and sometimes you have to be "still" and ask for what you need. I have been working on having this surgery for over a year...And I have coped with setback after setback.
But despite it all ..I still have faith ..that everything will be alright...I am now waiting for my insurance company for approval...and yes- it is an exercise in patience...But all this proves..that this surgery is worth it. I can finally get control of my life & health. I know that surgery is still a "tool"..the hard work is still ahead...But this surgery will save my life. I am excited ...and I have BIG
!!!!
My struggle with my weight has been a life long one...I was the pudgy baby who became the fat teen...the fat adult...There is not
a diet..I have not tried...When I was 12...a doctor gave me
diet pills ( can you imagine giving a child..diet pills)
the results were Horrible. I figure that I have contributed
well over $500,000 to the billion dollar diet industry- and what did I get for my $ - fatter. It ends NOW!
Looking for information regarding surgery options and
surgeons in my area..or in the Central Florida area
7/11
I have decided today...to have the surgery. I called a physician
today...Dr.Michael Butler in Altamonte Springs...I spoke to his
assistant, Pat. She was wonderful...answered everyone of my questions..( It took quite awhile..I have lots of questions)
She was able to schedule me for a psych evaluation..tomorrow
( they had a last minute cancellation)
Tomorrow- I will receive a date for my consultation with Dr.Butler. I am also going to attend the next support group meeting on August 7th.
I still have questions...But I am thrilled to have made the decision and looking forward to possibilites.
It is a huge leap of faith....for me. But one, I am ready to try!
7/12
I went to Dr.Butler's office, for my psych consult. I was impressed with everything. Dr.Butler's nurse Pat was wonderful,
She answered many of my questions...My husband & I watched
a video, that explained everything ! I think it helped to
assure my husband that this is a good decision.
When I went in for my psych consult...Pat took the time, and
answered my husband's questions. In fact, my husband is planning how he can help prepare meals for me after the surgery.
What a blessing ! This experience has made us closer than ever.
and although , he is still concern about the risks. He is beginning to see how this a chance for a healthy beginning for me.
I am going to see Dr.Butler in 3 days...and now it begins.
I am so happy that I have a plan..to change my life...and excited about the possiibilities. I am tired of "the weight"
being an issue in my life. I have always had a weight problem-
and now it is time for me to take control of life...It's scary
but exciting at the same time>
7/13
Well, today, disappointing news. Dr. Butler is no longer
in my health insurance network. So I have to find a new surgeon.
I have to find another surgeon in my network...I called 2 ..and they are not accepting new patients ! In addition, I have to find a new PCP, the one I have now, is not being helpful with the
referral...thinks I should go on diet pills ( I've been there,done that) not interested.....
I am more determined than ever...to have this surgery...
So my challenge this week, is to find a new PCP and Find
a surgeon who will do the surgery.Thank God for this site.
I am happy to have found this website....I am getting lots of support !
7/16
Great news I switched PCP- I got rid of the Diet Pill Pushing
PCP...and found a wonderful PCP- Dr.Bruce Rankin -. I was
referred to Dr.Rankin- by Linda Younk- who I met online
via this website.. The support I received via this site is overwhelming ! My appointment is on Aug.7th. And after that I will make an apppoinment to see a surgeon....Things are starting to click !!!!!!
7/26
good news..I passed my psych exam..I am approved for surgery!
based on the psych...It is only the first step..but atleast I am
moving forward... Looking forward to my appoinment with new PCP.
I have also looked into DS procedure...I think it may be a better surgery for me..still learning about the procedure...
Problem...can't find a surgeon in Florida..may have to go out of state....I can just imagine what my insurance company..will have to say about that ( i am sure that is when the real fight will
begin! Also..after my move from Boston to Florida...I don't think I can afford the expense of going out of state...I have alot to sort out....
8/7
i found a great new PCP..dr.Bruce rankin...he was great..agreed to give me a referral for surgery !!!! yeah I am on my way !!
5/28
Well after one year..found a great PCP, found a great surgeon,
dr.thoburn...went for psych evaul( no problem) approved for
surgery within one week....received a surgery date 6/24/02
and then something awful....my employer is switching insurance...
and Dr.thoburn does not take my new insurance (Aetna)...
I CAN"T BELIEVE IT !!!!! I have to start all over again....
find a new surgeon....wait for insurance approval....
I am beside myself...very upset...but I am more determined
than ever
5/29
I am going to try to get Aetna to approve dr.thoburn as my surgeon...and let me proceed as planned. But have been told very unlikely....
I found a new surgeon - Dr.Overcash..and he is in-network for Aetna...I have appointment with him on June 25th...so we will
see !
6/24
I have appointment with Dr.Overcash tomorrow....I am very excited
and can't wait to move forward. If he could schedule me tomorrow..I would be ready to go !
Today ..was the day of my original surgery date...I am a little
sad that it did not happen. But I am ready to move on ..and hope that it works with Dr.Overcash...I hear wonderful things about him.
6/25
I met with Dr.Overcash..he is terrific ! answered all my questions...and spoke to my husband..and answered all his too !
He has a very busy office...but I did not have to wait long.
Now - have to submit for insurance ( again !) ...but hopefully will hear something soon !
7/3
Still waiting...waiting is the PITS! the first time - I attempted
to get this surgery..I was approved within 4 days. I was hoping that it would go quickly again...but it is not to be !
I want this surgery badly..and I am getting frustrated with all the delays. I told everyone at work that I was having surgery.
I did not give specifics..just said that I was having surgery...
and let them know how long I thought I would be recuperating.
My close friends at work...knew already..and they were/and have been supportive. Others wanted to know what kind surgery...I am not hiding it ...but I am protective of my personal business...
I need only positive folks around me now..while I wait for a date... I am not in the mood to deal with others perceptions of this surgery. People have varied opinions...I am tired of debating this with everyone....I am doing what it is best for me!
It is about time I put myself first
7/31
still waiting on Aetna....I hate the waiting... I asked my friends to write letters of support..so I could send to insurance.. Only few of my friends have responded to my plea...it has hurt my feelings...i thought I could count on more support..I will send the 3 letters I received (god bless - Robin,lois,lisa)....Hopefully it will do the trick
8/7
Still waiting on Aetna - today, their computers are down.
I faxed 5 letters of support to Aetna from my angels
(god bless - Lisa, Lois R,Lois E,Robin and Kira)
These lovely women - wrote beautiful letters of support and encouragement. Their sentiments were heartfelt and made me feel very loved !
It made me cry when reading them. It is wonderful to know that you have support from friends- especially when you send out an urgent SOS.
8/7
still waiting....did I mention I hate waiting LOL.
If Dr.O called me today...and told me to hop on that operating table..I would be ready in a minute. The anticipation of what can be ...is sometimes hard to cope with.
My darling hubby ( today is his birthday !) has been terrific about everything...I think he is ready for this to happen. I keep
asking him..is he nervous about it..and he says No. because I want this so badly....He wants it too ! We have been married for 10 years...but in many ways...We will be starting out anew....I have never not-been heavy..so there will be adjustments for us both. Someday - he will have a thin wife...I wonder what that would be like for him. He was attracted and pursued me when I was heavy.In many ways-he is getting a new wife. But it is going to fun-making the adjustment.
( i can't wait to go shopping together at Victoria's Secret :).
We want children badly -so the surgery makes that
a real possible. My regrets are that I am nervous about my support...I wish my mom was here with me during this...but I know she is watching me in heaven...She has been gone for almost 3 years...and I miss her more and more everyday. I have not
had a major life event...that she has not been their cheering me on! It is going to be real hard to go thru this without her.
Bob(hubby) tries to fill the void...and he does - in many ways.
But it is not the same....No one can take the place of your mom.
I am sorry that this is sounding so sad- but I feel displaced-not knowing about insurance, not knowing about my surgery date,
trying to get things organized at work - so I can be away on medical leave.......I will allow myself one day- to feel sorry for myself...and then I will move on !
" and still I rise !"
8/8
My friend Kira- is having her surgery this Monday. I am so excited for her. I am so grateful that GOD sent her to me.
I prayed for someone to help me through this journey..someone who would understand..someone who would be a friend and the very
next week...Kira emailed me that she found my name on this site...and wouldn't it be great if we could talk about .
I Could not believe it !...and I am go grateful to have her support. It reaffirms my belief - that if you need good things to happen in your life- you should just be"still"..pray for what you need..thank god for the experience..then ..wait..he will provide.
So-I ask God to watch over my new friend -Kira. Guide her through
her journey- Keep her healthy,happy and with spirit in tact !
i can't wait to celebrate our 1 Year post ops- Kira & I are going to be HOT TICKETS ! Our hubbys better be on their toes !
Just keeping up with US ! :)
Love is patient,
Love is kind,
Love is not envious.
Love does not brag, it is not puffed up.
Love is not rude,
Love is not self-serving,
Love is not easily angered, or resentful.
Love is not glad about injustice,
but Love rejoices in the truth.
Love bears all things,
Love believes all things,
Love hopes all things,
Love endures all things.
Love never ends.
(1.Cor. 13;4-8)
8/9
" A song Flung towards Heaven"..maya angelou/paul laurence dunbar
First let start with what is good about today( I trying to stay positive :)! I watched Oprah today...Dr.Maya Angelou was on today...She was talking about her new book- A song flung towards
heaven ( great title)...I really needed to hear her today- she talked about the importance of focusing on love,faith and hope in our lives...especially when we are going thru bad times. Just hearing this gracious woman speak...made feel better ! I love her...and her message always brings me PEACE>
Now - for today's life challenge....after waiting for over one month ( with this surgeon)...And watching name, after name added to his surgery list...many who had appointments after mine-
many who have the exact insurance ...I flipped out- Aetna has lost my file...for the 3rd time..God bless patrice in Dr.O's
office ..she is really working on making this happen for me..she
faxed the file today ...2 times..each time she called back...and each time Aetna could not find it. So Patrice - found the Unit Manager..who said she would locate my file today..and put an
URGENT on it...Dr.O's office called me twice today..to reassure me that
they are working on it...So I know - I wait again. I place my trust in faith. And in the words of Maya & Paul Laurence Dunbar-
A song flung towards heaven....I ask GOD to handle this for me...I trust in his love....And I know it will turn out alright.
8/22
Did anyone see the movie John Q--I know can say I can relate to
Denzel ( although considering Denzel-that 's not diffcult)
anyway....My insurance company called they have lost my file for the 5th time....I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS !!!! I am SO UPSET ...I
CAN"T even talk .....I am taking to my bed.will post more later !
8/26
Well today - I got the call - I have been waiting for for 385 days . I AM APPROVED !!!! I AM SO EXCITED....Surgery will take place on September 17th......
My angels have been working overtime - Never Give up on FAITH !!!!!!
9/3
14 days to the BIG DAY ! I am still excited...Trying to get things organized...buying stuff to take with me..cleaning my house ( I am not sure why-) My friend lisa- is coming to visit this week from Boston. I am happy to have her here with me..while I get ready......
Started seeing therapist--thought it would be a good idea- to help with transition into being a thin person...Therapist is great- She gets me !
Trying to have fun in next 2 weeks - went to a concert Friday in West Palm Beach ( goo goo dolls) - had a great time !
I dedicate this to all my WLS Sisters , especially Krista and
I also dedicate it to me- as I head towards my Big Day !
The poem is called Phenomenal Woman by my favorite poet
Maya Angelou
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
9/10
It's a week away....I am more excited than nervous...I am so ready for this to happen. Just trying to get all my post-op
stuff(liquids)...so i will not have to worry about it later....
In just 7 days...my life will change forever...and I am ready for it !!!!!!!
9/15
It's 4 am...I wonder why I can't sleep ( he he )
It's has been an amazzing 48 hours...Friday- received called from Dr.O's office that my surgery was cancelled. I was completely devestated...the worst part was that - his office told me that I would have to start all over again - and find
another surgeon. They claimed he may not return to his practice... I just kept thinking this could not be happening to me again...now that I am so close to having the surgery- I want so desperately....
I was at work when they called....so I went home...I was so upset
I could not face being in the office.
Immediately I called my friends Lisa and Krista-they could not
believe it...
I started to make calls to other surgeons...and began to get very upset- that I had to go thru this again.
But-then something wonderful happened...Dr.O's office called..saying that He WOULD do my surgery afterall...That the whole thing had been a HUGE misunderstanding- he was not closing his practice, despite what I was told.
I truly believe the ANGELS were looking down on me!
So now - I am trying to mentally and physically prepare for my big day..Just want to remain positive and focused..despite the
events of the last 48 hours...
My angel-krista and I had a terrific day - we went to a "paint it yourself-ceramics shop called - Clay Pigeons in DeLand.
Had a great time, what a great stress relief that was.
We both painted beautiful bowls- Pretty impressive- considering
I have no artistic talents - my mom was the artist in the family.
LOL.
It was great to spend today with Krista..she has been wonderful
during this whole experience...when she found out my surgery was cancelled..she jumped on the phone..and immediately started to
research other surgeons for me... She is the perfect angel for me....She visits,she calls and she makes sure that I have everything I need for big day...She is truly an Angel.
Also - she has lost over 30lbs since her surgery and she looks terrific. She is an inspiration.
My friend in New England - Lisa has also been a lifesaver,if not sanity saver. Last week - she came to Daytona to see me before my big day...It was wonderful to see her...and we just laughed and talked,watched many episodes of Behind the Music - we both
think -Richie Sambora and John Rzeznik are hot ! I think we watched them on Vh-1 1,000 that weekend. hehe
She also helped
me with my "farewell to food" tour. We went to Carrabba's and
had the most wonderful garlic mashed potatoes and polla anna maria...and we also went to Chili's- so I could have my
Mushroom Chicken Fajita ( my favorite)...Oh yeah- We even found the time to visit Krispy Kreme...LOL.
After all that food - I was ready to begin fasting .
So now - I am on a clear liquid fast- I Hate it ..not because I am starving..but the worst part is that - it is SO Boring..
Chicken broth,crystal lite and tea....oh yeah-sugar free popsicles.
Despite it all - I know that it is worth- I am so excited about tuesday....( which may explain why I am up typing at 4am)
I know in my soul that this is the absolute right decision
for me. Some friends and family questioned - whether I saw the cancellation as a sign from God- Not to have the surgery ...and maybe I should focus on Dieting....
Absolutely NOT - if anything -the on again/off again/on again drama has strengthen
my resolve - that this is path that is right for me.
I know in my soul dieting does not work for me...and I did not
start this journey wanting to have surgery,infact I was against it for many reasons..but through extensive research( thank god for my skills as a former TV producer)....I found out that the
only way for me to lose this weight and keep it off ..is to have
this surgery...I want so much to be healthy person.. who has
been able to conquer this life-long stuggle. I am so tired of being Overwweight..Now it is time for a new Adventure..
Well-maybe I should get some sleep-will post more later
before I head to the hospital . LOL
9/15
Spoke to my friend Kathy in CT....She sent methe most beautiful
angel-keepsake book..filled with beautiful prose about friendship. I am taking it to the hospital with me.
We talked for hours...and I am so happy to have her as my friend..although I feel we are sisters in every real sense of the word....She promises to get those"angels" working overtime on my behalf... Kathy began the year with a terrible illness- and we thought we may lose her...she is all better now....And I am so thankful- she truly is an inspiration for me...and I am so happy to have her in my life.... I LOVE YOU-kathy !
9/16
I am ready for my BIG day...and I am thrilled it is finally happening. Said my prayers...prayers for my family...prayers for Dr.O and his family...and I prayed God gives me the strength
and grace to get through the next several weeks....with spirit intact.
C-ya soon ! melanie
9/23
I can't believe than a week ago today- I was at the Holiday Inn
express in Ocala getting ready for my surgery.
I am so happy that - I am on the "otherside" and very thankful for all the support from family,friends,angels and new friends.
The day of my surgery- I was so calm..I expected that the nervousness would come..it never did.
All I remember was Dr.O reassuring me before the surgery..the anesthologist come to see ( they were cute guys) and being wheeled into surgery.... Next thing- I was in recovery- the pain was bad- but they soon gave something for the pain- and it went away...
The worst was the NG tube..it made me cough alot..and coughing hurt my incision...
My DH was wonderful- once I awoke in my room- his was the first
face I saw..he was so worried...but he had such a loving smile on his face..when I began to wake up...it really filled my heart to see him.
My incision is so small - I was surprised. Dr.O said he was happy that my liver was not enlarged..the pre-op fast helped...and made it easier for him to move around in there ..LOL.
If I did not do the liquid fast pre-op.Dr.O says my incision would have been twice its' size.
Now that I home- I do not need any painkillers- walking atleast
3x a day..trying to increase my distance everyday.
I do not have any appettite for anything..and get full after
3-4 tablespoons of what ever I am eating-drinking. It is so
amazing. I am working on getting more water in each day..and haave felt better since I increased my water in-take.
Not sure of how much weight I have lost..will find out when I see Dr.O on OCT 3RD...bUT I am excited to know !
10/3
I am so excited...saw Dr.O today...I have lost 43lbs...in 2 weeks.
I can't believe it...I am so happy that I had this surgery...it makes everything that it took to get here...worthwile...
Dr.O added pre-natal vitamins..to help with my fatigue...and he is moving me to solid foods in 3 weeks-THank GOD ! - I am sick of
sugar free jello - but I will stick it out if I have to...I see
Dr.O again on November 7th...I can't wait to get on the scale again !!!!!!!Never thought I would say that !
10/11
went back to work this week....it was okay...but needed to take a nap when I got home every nite..
Coping with nausea..increased my water in take...seemed to help.
11/7
went to see Dr.O today....I am down another 25lbs..that is 68lbs
in 6 weeks. I am thrilled....It makes all the drama surrounding
having this surgery...so worth it....by this rate- I will be
100lbs plus down by Christmas. What a great present that will be.
2/4/03
I am sorry that I have not been better about updating my profile. Tomorrow I go to see Dr.Overcash for my 4 month check-up.
I am feeling great...more energy...I am eating better ( more diversity) ..not throwing up anymore ( thank god!) The first
3 months...I was tired all the time...but that has now changed..my energy has really bounced back.
My angel-Kira and I started a support group...and those women inspire me. It is an amazing group of people..who seem eager to help and lend support.
We also have a clothing exchange..which is a good thing because my clothes are falling off...and it is getting embarrasing !
I will post again this weekend ..after I get back from Dr.O.
2/6
I saw Dr. O today..99lbs gone forever !!!!!!!!! I am so excited...I actually had a nightmare 2 weeks ago that I had gained weight..and it really freaked me out.....
Will post more later......
2/7
I am feeling 100 percent better than I fel 3 months ago....my energy has come back, I am tolerating foods better....and the best news is that I am 99.5lbs lighter than I was 41/2 months ago. It really is an amazing thing.
My clothes are becoming a problem ..they are falling off of me. and it is getting expensive trying to look professional .
Last week - I was at an important meeting and I went to stand up and my pants fell down...Thank goodness- I had on a long coat.
I am also losing my weight in my feet...another surprise, good thing I love to go shoe shopping.
I bought a pedometer...and wear it all day...It helps to measure how many steps I take per day. My goal is 10,000 steps on any given day...That is alot of walking....but I am ambitious !
Thanks to all my weight loss buddies who encourage me every step of the way. This surgery is the best decision of my life...
5/27
Sorry , it has been a long time since my last post. I am down
130 lbs since surgery. It amazes me every day...and I do feel blessed. I see dr.o in 2 weeks.
I will update more after my appointment...cya!
6/8
Today was a great day...saw Dr.O. as of today - I am down 151 lbs in 8 months - since my re-birthday. For the first time in over 20 years - I am under 300lbs... I can not believe all the changes in my body and my spirit. DR. O is the man - and said he was very proud of me ! I spent all of 5 minutes - in his office- but it was the best 5 minutes- I have had in a longtime.
He wants me to add B12 and calcium to the assortment of vitamins-I am taking.My friend - Kira is very happy that I am now adding
those additional vitamins - she has been bugging :) me about them. God bless - Kira.
I have increased my exercise- walking in the morning (6am)and
doing the Gazelle machine ( my new fun toy) - it is nice to have a piece of gym equipment - that does not end up being my clothes
closet:)
My WLS - support group is plannng a picnic with the Orlando support group at Gemini Springs - July 12th. Open to anyone interested in WLS- interested drop me an email.
Well gotta go work out ( never thought I would hear my self say that)...melanie
6/14
Well- people are starting to notice. and it is really encouraging. A woman stopped me in a store- and mentioned she had seen me before - and could not believe the change...a real nice moment.
I am really starting to see the difference too....still working on that body image thing. For a long time - I could only see it in pictures...but the body change is really noticeable for me...FINALLY! Once again - i realize how blessed I am for having this surgery - it has saved my life and spirit..in so many ways .THANK YOU - GOD !
9/16
Tomorrow represents my ONE Year anniversary since my Gastric Bypass surgery. What an amazing year and what an amazing experience this has been ! As of today - I have lost a staggering 178lbs. It's is an life changing process. Special thank you to my no-nonsense surgeon- Dr.Overcash of Ocala. He truly saved my life on September 17th, 2001. I will always feel blessed because of Dr.O.
Thank you to my angel- Krista. She has guided and mentored me- every step of the way. Krista, an inspiration with her own WLS story....was truly an angel sent from heaven for me!
Thank you to all the WLS friends - I met online - I appreciate your wisdom, guidance and friendship.
To all those who just starting the journey - Have faith - and know- you are doing the absolute best thing for your health and spirit.
To all those who share - the REBIRTHDAY of Sept.17th- Congrats to you...and find time to celebrate ! You deserve it ! GOD Bless and Namaste- Melanie
6/15/04
Well...it has been awhile..since my last posting. There have been lots of wonderful changes in my life...all made possible by my weightloss & surgery. I have relocated to Massachusetts..and have found a great new job, with a great new salary. During the last 5 years..my job searching has always proven to be frustrating. Prospective employers focused on the 465lbs-plus woman who sat before them.
Now - since my miracle weight loss of 220-plus-pounds, when I went job searching - the focus was on me - not my size- but on my skills,resume and what I could bring to a job. I was not seen as a liability. I love my life in New England- and have more energy and stamina than ever before. Sunday- to celebrate my 12th wedding anniversary- my husband and I walked all over the city of Boston( probably walked over 20 miles)...I could not have walked 3 blocks prior to surgery.
My weight loss is slow and steady..but that is okay. I know- I am healthy and happy.
I miss my all WLS Surgery friends in FLorida and want to thank them for their support!
I will try to be better about checking in!
Melanie
3/23/05
I am back after a long time of no posting. I have both good & Bad news to share. Let's start with the challenges - My weight has started to creep back on. I have regained about 20lbs. The thought of regaining terrifies me. I have been coping with alot of guilt and shame about regaining weight. I feel like -I worked so hard and now I have allowed this to happen again.
So- I am trying to get motivated again. Cutting down on carbs. I joined a gym and now have a personal trainer. No more drinking with meals. Back to Basics! I would appreciate hearing from other who are coping with weight regaining. My email is candlemel@aol.com. Perhaps, we can help support each other.
My new life in Massachusetts is great.( except for all the snow). Although, I miss all my FLorida friends. Especially my friend -Krista S ( my sister in the weight loss surgery journey) I appreciate all the support I received since my surgery 2 years ago...and a loss of 220lbs. Don't let anyone tell you that weight loss surgery is easy- it is a lifelong process..a process that you have to work at everyday ! There are no easy fixes here but a patient commitment to stay healthy. I wish everyone well on their journey...and have fun ! Melanie
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*** New Update *** - My Angel-Krista and I starting a new WLS
Support Group. Pre-ops and Post ops of all surgeons are welcome to attend - The 3rd Thursday of each Month - beginning on
November 21st at Halifax Medical Center Auditorium in Daytona Beach. Entrance in the back of hospital ( in the same day surgical wing) . Time 7pm - 8;30 pm
Share info-clothing exchange- great info for
those who are considering WLS. Please join us !
9/13 - update my surgery was cancelled by my surgeon this morning- due to personal reasons...I was devestated..but you have to have faith..and I am learning more about faith everyday..
surgeon called back this afternoon and has decided he will do my surgery as planned on Tuesday....Will post more..now I have to take a nap
this has been some day...I hate Friday the 13th
It's about faith...and sometimes you have to be "still" and ask for what you need. I have been working on having this surgery for over a year...And I have coped with setback after setback.
But despite it all ..I still have faith ..that everything will be alright...I am now waiting for my insurance company for approval...and yes- it is an exercise in patience...But all this proves..that this surgery is worth it. I can finally get control of my life & health. I know that surgery is still a "tool"..the hard work is still ahead...But this surgery will save my life. I am excited ...and I have BIG
!!!!
My struggle with my weight has been a life long one...I was the pudgy baby who became the fat teen...the fat adult...There is not
a diet..I have not tried...When I was 12...a doctor gave me
diet pills ( can you imagine giving a child..diet pills)
the results were Horrible. I figure that I have contributed
well over $500,000 to the billion dollar diet industry- and what did I get for my $ - fatter. It ends NOW!
Looking for information regarding surgery options and
surgeons in my area..or in the Central Florida area
7/11
I have decided today...to have the surgery. I called a physician
today...Dr.Michael Butler in Altamonte Springs...I spoke to his
assistant, Pat. She was wonderful...answered everyone of my questions..( It took quite awhile..I have lots of questions)
She was able to schedule me for a psych evaluation..tomorrow
( they had a last minute cancellation)
Tomorrow- I will receive a date for my consultation with Dr.Butler. I am also going to attend the next support group meeting on August 7th.
I still have questions...But I am thrilled to have made the decision and looking forward to possibilites.
It is a huge leap of faith....for me. But one, I am ready to try!
7/12
I went to Dr.Butler's office, for my psych consult. I was impressed with everything. Dr.Butler's nurse Pat was wonderful,
She answered many of my questions...My husband & I watched
a video, that explained everything ! I think it helped to
assure my husband that this is a good decision.
When I went in for my psych consult...Pat took the time, and
answered my husband's questions. In fact, my husband is planning how he can help prepare meals for me after the surgery.
What a blessing ! This experience has made us closer than ever.
and although , he is still concern about the risks. He is beginning to see how this a chance for a healthy beginning for me.
I am going to see Dr.Butler in 3 days...and now it begins.
I am so happy that I have a plan..to change my life...and excited about the possiibilities. I am tired of "the weight"
being an issue in my life. I have always had a weight problem-
and now it is time for me to take control of life...It's scary
but exciting at the same time>
7/13
Well, today, disappointing news. Dr. Butler is no longer
in my health insurance network. So I have to find a new surgeon.
I have to find another surgeon in my network...I called 2 ..and they are not accepting new patients ! In addition, I have to find a new PCP, the one I have now, is not being helpful with the
referral...thinks I should go on diet pills ( I've been there,done that) not interested.....
I am more determined than ever...to have this surgery...
So my challenge this week, is to find a new PCP and Find
a surgeon who will do the surgery.Thank God for this site.
I am happy to have found this website....I am getting lots of support !
7/16
Great news I switched PCP- I got rid of the Diet Pill Pushing
PCP...and found a wonderful PCP- Dr.Bruce Rankin -. I was
referred to Dr.Rankin- by Linda Younk- who I met online
via this website.. The support I received via this site is overwhelming ! My appointment is on Aug.7th. And after that I will make an apppoinment to see a surgeon....Things are starting to click !!!!!!
7/26
good news..I passed my psych exam..I am approved for surgery!
based on the psych...It is only the first step..but atleast I am
moving forward... Looking forward to my appoinment with new PCP.
I have also looked into DS procedure...I think it may be a better surgery for me..still learning about the procedure...
Problem...can't find a surgeon in Florida..may have to go out of state....I can just imagine what my insurance company..will have to say about that ( i am sure that is when the real fight will
begin! Also..after my move from Boston to Florida...I don't think I can afford the expense of going out of state...I have alot to sort out....
8/7
i found a great new PCP..dr.Bruce rankin...he was great..agreed to give me a referral for surgery !!!! yeah I am on my way !!
5/28
Well after one year..found a great PCP, found a great surgeon,
dr.thoburn...went for psych evaul( no problem) approved for
surgery within one week....received a surgery date 6/24/02
and then something awful....my employer is switching insurance...
and Dr.thoburn does not take my new insurance (Aetna)...
I CAN"T BELIEVE IT !!!!! I have to start all over again....
find a new surgeon....wait for insurance approval....
I am beside myself...very upset...but I am more determined
than ever
5/29
I am going to try to get Aetna to approve dr.thoburn as my surgeon...and let me proceed as planned. But have been told very unlikely....
I found a new surgeon - Dr.Overcash..and he is in-network for Aetna...I have appointment with him on June 25th...so we will
see !
6/24
I have appointment with Dr.Overcash tomorrow....I am very excited
and can't wait to move forward. If he could schedule me tomorrow..I would be ready to go !
Today ..was the day of my original surgery date...I am a little
sad that it did not happen. But I am ready to move on ..and hope that it works with Dr.Overcash...I hear wonderful things about him.
6/25
I met with Dr.Overcash..he is terrific ! answered all my questions...and spoke to my husband..and answered all his too !
He has a very busy office...but I did not have to wait long.
Now - have to submit for insurance ( again !) ...but hopefully will hear something soon !
7/3
Still waiting...waiting is the PITS! the first time - I attempted
to get this surgery..I was approved within 4 days. I was hoping that it would go quickly again...but it is not to be !
I want this surgery badly..and I am getting frustrated with all the delays. I told everyone at work that I was having surgery.
I did not give specifics..just said that I was having surgery...
and let them know how long I thought I would be recuperating.
My close friends at work...knew already..and they were/and have been supportive. Others wanted to know what kind surgery...I am not hiding it ...but I am protective of my personal business...
I need only positive folks around me now..while I wait for a date... I am not in the mood to deal with others perceptions of this surgery. People have varied opinions...I am tired of debating this with everyone....I am doing what it is best for me!
It is about time I put myself first
7/31
still waiting on Aetna....I hate the waiting... I asked my friends to write letters of support..so I could send to insurance.. Only few of my friends have responded to my plea...it has hurt my feelings...i thought I could count on more support..I will send the 3 letters I received (god bless - Robin,lois,lisa)....Hopefully it will do the trick
8/7
Still waiting on Aetna - today, their computers are down.
I faxed 5 letters of support to Aetna from my angels
(god bless - Lisa, Lois R,Lois E,Robin and Kira)
These lovely women - wrote beautiful letters of support and encouragement. Their sentiments were heartfelt and made me feel very loved !
It made me cry when reading them. It is wonderful to know that you have support from friends- especially when you send out an urgent SOS.
8/7
still waiting....did I mention I hate waiting LOL.
If Dr.O called me today...and told me to hop on that operating table..I would be ready in a minute. The anticipation of what can be ...is sometimes hard to cope with.
My darling hubby ( today is his birthday !) has been terrific about everything...I think he is ready for this to happen. I keep
asking him..is he nervous about it..and he says No. because I want this so badly....He wants it too ! We have been married for 10 years...but in many ways...We will be starting out anew....I have never not-been heavy..so there will be adjustments for us both. Someday - he will have a thin wife...I wonder what that would be like for him. He was attracted and pursued me when I was heavy.In many ways-he is getting a new wife. But it is going to fun-making the adjustment.
( i can't wait to go shopping together at Victoria's Secret :).
We want children badly -so the surgery makes that
a real possible. My regrets are that I am nervous about my support...I wish my mom was here with me during this...but I know she is watching me in heaven...She has been gone for almost 3 years...and I miss her more and more everyday. I have not
had a major life event...that she has not been their cheering me on! It is going to be real hard to go thru this without her.
Bob(hubby) tries to fill the void...and he does - in many ways.
But it is not the same....No one can take the place of your mom.
I am sorry that this is sounding so sad- but I feel displaced-not knowing about insurance, not knowing about my surgery date,
trying to get things organized at work - so I can be away on medical leave.......I will allow myself one day- to feel sorry for myself...and then I will move on !
" and still I rise !"
8/8
My friend Kira- is having her surgery this Monday. I am so excited for her. I am so grateful that GOD sent her to me.
I prayed for someone to help me through this journey..someone who would understand..someone who would be a friend and the very
next week...Kira emailed me that she found my name on this site...and wouldn't it be great if we could talk about .
I Could not believe it !...and I am go grateful to have her support. It reaffirms my belief - that if you need good things to happen in your life- you should just be"still"..pray for what you need..thank god for the experience..then ..wait..he will provide.
So-I ask God to watch over my new friend -Kira. Guide her through
her journey- Keep her healthy,happy and with spirit in tact !
i can't wait to celebrate our 1 Year post ops- Kira & I are going to be HOT TICKETS ! Our hubbys better be on their toes !
Just keeping up with US ! :)
Love is patient,
Love is kind,
Love is not envious.
Love does not brag, it is not puffed up.
Love is not rude,
Love is not self-serving,
Love is not easily angered, or resentful.
Love is not glad about injustice,
but Love rejoices in the truth.
Love bears all things,
Love believes all things,
Love hopes all things,
Love endures all things.
Love never ends.
(1.Cor. 13;4-8)
8/9
" A song Flung towards Heaven"..maya angelou/paul laurence dunbar
First let start with what is good about today( I trying to stay positive :)! I watched Oprah today...Dr.Maya Angelou was on today...She was talking about her new book- A song flung towards
heaven ( great title)...I really needed to hear her today- she talked about the importance of focusing on love,faith and hope in our lives...especially when we are going thru bad times. Just hearing this gracious woman speak...made feel better ! I love her...and her message always brings me PEACE>
Now - for today's life challenge....after waiting for over one month ( with this surgeon)...And watching name, after name added to his surgery list...many who had appointments after mine-
many who have the exact insurance ...I flipped out- Aetna has lost my file...for the 3rd time..God bless patrice in Dr.O's
office ..she is really working on making this happen for me..she
faxed the file today ...2 times..each time she called back...and each time Aetna could not find it. So Patrice - found the Unit Manager..who said she would locate my file today..and put an
URGENT on it...Dr.O's office called me twice today..to reassure me that
they are working on it...So I know - I wait again. I place my trust in faith. And in the words of Maya & Paul Laurence Dunbar-
A song flung towards heaven....I ask GOD to handle this for me...I trust in his love....And I know it will turn out alright.
8/22
Did anyone see the movie John Q--I know can say I can relate to
Denzel ( although considering Denzel-that 's not diffcult)
anyway....My insurance company called they have lost my file for the 5th time....I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS !!!! I am SO UPSET ...I
CAN"T even talk .....I am taking to my bed.will post more later !
8/26
Well today - I got the call - I have been waiting for for 385 days . I AM APPROVED !!!! I AM SO EXCITED....Surgery will take place on September 17th......
My angels have been working overtime - Never Give up on FAITH !!!!!!
9/3
14 days to the BIG DAY ! I am still excited...Trying to get things organized...buying stuff to take with me..cleaning my house ( I am not sure why-) My friend lisa- is coming to visit this week from Boston. I am happy to have her here with me..while I get ready......
Started seeing therapist--thought it would be a good idea- to help with transition into being a thin person...Therapist is great- She gets me !
Trying to have fun in next 2 weeks - went to a concert Friday in West Palm Beach ( goo goo dolls) - had a great time !
I dedicate this to all my WLS Sisters , especially Krista and
I also dedicate it to me- as I head towards my Big Day !
The poem is called Phenomenal Woman by my favorite poet
Maya Angelou
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
9/10
It's a week away....I am more excited than nervous...I am so ready for this to happen. Just trying to get all my post-op
stuff(liquids)...so i will not have to worry about it later....
In just 7 days...my life will change forever...and I am ready for it !!!!!!!
9/15
It's 4 am...I wonder why I can't sleep ( he he )
It's has been an amazzing 48 hours...Friday- received called from Dr.O's office that my surgery was cancelled. I was completely devestated...the worst part was that - his office told me that I would have to start all over again - and find
another surgeon. They claimed he may not return to his practice... I just kept thinking this could not be happening to me again...now that I am so close to having the surgery- I want so desperately....
I was at work when they called....so I went home...I was so upset
I could not face being in the office.
Immediately I called my friends Lisa and Krista-they could not
believe it...
I started to make calls to other surgeons...and began to get very upset- that I had to go thru this again.
But-then something wonderful happened...Dr.O's office called..saying that He WOULD do my surgery afterall...That the whole thing had been a HUGE misunderstanding- he was not closing his practice, despite what I was told.
I truly believe the ANGELS were looking down on me!
So now - I am trying to mentally and physically prepare for my big day..Just want to remain positive and focused..despite the
events of the last 48 hours...
My angel-krista and I had a terrific day - we went to a "paint it yourself-ceramics shop called - Clay Pigeons in DeLand.
Had a great time, what a great stress relief that was.
We both painted beautiful bowls- Pretty impressive- considering
I have no artistic talents - my mom was the artist in the family.
LOL.
It was great to spend today with Krista..she has been wonderful
during this whole experience...when she found out my surgery was cancelled..she jumped on the phone..and immediately started to
research other surgeons for me... She is the perfect angel for me....She visits,she calls and she makes sure that I have everything I need for big day...She is truly an Angel.
Also - she has lost over 30lbs since her surgery and she looks terrific. She is an inspiration.
My friend in New England - Lisa has also been a lifesaver,if not sanity saver. Last week - she came to Daytona to see me before my big day...It was wonderful to see her...and we just laughed and talked,watched many episodes of Behind the Music - we both
think -Richie Sambora and John Rzeznik are hot ! I think we watched them on Vh-1 1,000 that weekend. hehe
She also helped
me with my "farewell to food" tour. We went to Carrabba's and
had the most wonderful garlic mashed potatoes and polla anna maria...and we also went to Chili's- so I could have my
Mushroom Chicken Fajita ( my favorite)...Oh yeah- We even found the time to visit Krispy Kreme...LOL.
After all that food - I was ready to begin fasting .
So now - I am on a clear liquid fast- I Hate it ..not because I am starving..but the worst part is that - it is SO Boring..
Chicken broth,crystal lite and tea....oh yeah-sugar free popsicles.
Despite it all - I know that it is worth- I am so excited about tuesday....( which may explain why I am up typing at 4am)
I know in my soul that this is the absolute right decision
for me. Some friends and family questioned - whether I saw the cancellation as a sign from God- Not to have the surgery ...and maybe I should focus on Dieting....
Absolutely NOT - if anything -the on again/off again/on again drama has strengthen
my resolve - that this is path that is right for me.
I know in my soul dieting does not work for me...and I did not
start this journey wanting to have surgery,infact I was against it for many reasons..but through extensive research( thank god for my skills as a former TV producer)....I found out that the
only way for me to lose this weight and keep it off ..is to have
this surgery...I want so much to be healthy person.. who has
been able to conquer this life-long stuggle. I am so tired of being Overwweight..Now it is time for a new Adventure..
Well-maybe I should get some sleep-will post more later
before I head to the hospital . LOL
9/15
Spoke to my friend Kathy in CT....She sent methe most beautiful
angel-keepsake book..filled with beautiful prose about friendship. I am taking it to the hospital with me.
We talked for hours...and I am so happy to have her as my friend..although I feel we are sisters in every real sense of the word....She promises to get those"angels" working overtime on my behalf... Kathy began the year with a terrible illness- and we thought we may lose her...she is all better now....And I am so thankful- she truly is an inspiration for me...and I am so happy to have her in my life.... I LOVE YOU-kathy !
9/16
I am ready for my BIG day...and I am thrilled it is finally happening. Said my prayers...prayers for my family...prayers for Dr.O and his family...and I prayed God gives me the strength
and grace to get through the next several weeks....with spirit intact.
C-ya soon ! melanie
9/23
I can't believe than a week ago today- I was at the Holiday Inn
express in Ocala getting ready for my surgery.
I am so happy that - I am on the "otherside" and very thankful for all the support from family,friends,angels and new friends.
The day of my surgery- I was so calm..I expected that the nervousness would come..it never did.
All I remember was Dr.O reassuring me before the surgery..the anesthologist come to see ( they were cute guys) and being wheeled into surgery.... Next thing- I was in recovery- the pain was bad- but they soon gave something for the pain- and it went away...
The worst was the NG tube..it made me cough alot..and coughing hurt my incision...
My DH was wonderful- once I awoke in my room- his was the first
face I saw..he was so worried...but he had such a loving smile on his face..when I began to wake up...it really filled my heart to see him.
My incision is so small - I was surprised. Dr.O said he was happy that my liver was not enlarged..the pre-op fast helped...and made it easier for him to move around in there ..LOL.
If I did not do the liquid fast pre-op.Dr.O says my incision would have been twice its' size.
Now that I home- I do not need any painkillers- walking atleast
3x a day..trying to increase my distance everyday.
I do not have any appettite for anything..and get full after
3-4 tablespoons of what ever I am eating-drinking. It is so
amazing. I am working on getting more water in each day..and haave felt better since I increased my water in-take.
Not sure of how much weight I have lost..will find out when I see Dr.O on OCT 3RD...bUT I am excited to know !
10/3
I am so excited...saw Dr.O today...I have lost 43lbs...in 2 weeks.
I can't believe it...I am so happy that I had this surgery...it makes everything that it took to get here...worthwile...
Dr.O added pre-natal vitamins..to help with my fatigue...and he is moving me to solid foods in 3 weeks-THank GOD ! - I am sick of
sugar free jello - but I will stick it out if I have to...I see
Dr.O again on November 7th...I can't wait to get on the scale again !!!!!!!Never thought I would say that !
10/11
went back to work this week....it was okay...but needed to take a nap when I got home every nite..
Coping with nausea..increased my water in take...seemed to help.
11/7
went to see Dr.O today....I am down another 25lbs..that is 68lbs
in 6 weeks. I am thrilled....It makes all the drama surrounding
having this surgery...so worth it....by this rate- I will be
100lbs plus down by Christmas. What a great present that will be.
2/4/03
I am sorry that I have not been better about updating my profile. Tomorrow I go to see Dr.Overcash for my 4 month check-up.
I am feeling great...more energy...I am eating better ( more diversity) ..not throwing up anymore ( thank god!) The first
3 months...I was tired all the time...but that has now changed..my energy has really bounced back.
My angel-Kira and I started a support group...and those women inspire me. It is an amazing group of people..who seem eager to help and lend support.
We also have a clothing exchange..which is a good thing because my clothes are falling off...and it is getting embarrasing !
I will post again this weekend ..after I get back from Dr.O.
2/6
I saw Dr. O today..99lbs gone forever !!!!!!!!! I am so excited...I actually had a nightmare 2 weeks ago that I had gained weight..and it really freaked me out.....
Will post more later......
2/7
I am feeling 100 percent better than I fel 3 months ago....my energy has come back, I am tolerating foods better....and the best news is that I am 99.5lbs lighter than I was 41/2 months ago. It really is an amazing thing.
My clothes are becoming a problem ..they are falling off of me. and it is getting expensive trying to look professional .
Last week - I was at an important meeting and I went to stand up and my pants fell down...Thank goodness- I had on a long coat.
I am also losing my weight in my feet...another surprise, good thing I love to go shoe shopping.
I bought a pedometer...and wear it all day...It helps to measure how many steps I take per day. My goal is 10,000 steps on any given day...That is alot of walking....but I am ambitious !
Thanks to all my weight loss buddies who encourage me every step of the way. This surgery is the best decision of my life...
5/27
Sorry , it has been a long time since my last post. I am down
130 lbs since surgery. It amazes me every day...and I do feel blessed. I see dr.o in 2 weeks.
I will update more after my appointment...cya!
6/8
Today was a great day...saw Dr.O. as of today - I am down 151 lbs in 8 months - since my re-birthday. For the first time in over 20 years - I am under 300lbs... I can not believe all the changes in my body and my spirit. DR. O is the man - and said he was very proud of me ! I spent all of 5 minutes - in his office- but it was the best 5 minutes- I have had in a longtime.
He wants me to add B12 and calcium to the assortment of vitamins-I am taking.My friend - Kira is very happy that I am now adding
those additional vitamins - she has been bugging :) me about them. God bless - Kira.
I have increased my exercise- walking in the morning (6am)and
doing the Gazelle machine ( my new fun toy) - it is nice to have a piece of gym equipment - that does not end up being my clothes
closet:)
My WLS - support group is plannng a picnic with the Orlando support group at Gemini Springs - July 12th. Open to anyone interested in WLS- interested drop me an email.
Well gotta go work out ( never thought I would hear my self say that)...melanie
6/14
Well- people are starting to notice. and it is really encouraging. A woman stopped me in a store- and mentioned she had seen me before - and could not believe the change...a real nice moment.
I am really starting to see the difference too....still working on that body image thing. For a long time - I could only see it in pictures...but the body change is really noticeable for me...FINALLY! Once again - i realize how blessed I am for having this surgery - it has saved my life and spirit..in so many ways .THANK YOU - GOD !
9/16
Tomorrow represents my ONE Year anniversary since my Gastric Bypass surgery. What an amazing year and what an amazing experience this has been ! As of today - I have lost a staggering 178lbs. It's is an life changing process. Special thank you to my no-nonsense surgeon- Dr.Overcash of Ocala. He truly saved my life on September 17th, 2001. I will always feel blessed because of Dr.O.
Thank you to my angel- Krista. She has guided and mentored me- every step of the way. Krista, an inspiration with her own WLS story....was truly an angel sent from heaven for me!
Thank you to all the WLS friends - I met online - I appreciate your wisdom, guidance and friendship.
To all those who just starting the journey - Have faith - and know- you are doing the absolute best thing for your health and spirit.
To all those who share - the REBIRTHDAY of Sept.17th- Congrats to you...and find time to celebrate ! You deserve it ! GOD Bless and Namaste- Melanie
6/15/04
Well...it has been awhile..since my last posting. There have been lots of wonderful changes in my life...all made possible by my weightloss & surgery. I have relocated to Massachusetts..and have found a great new job, with a great new salary. During the last 5 years..my job searching has always proven to be frustrating. Prospective employers focused on the 465lbs-plus woman who sat before them.
Now - since my miracle weight loss of 220-plus-pounds, when I went job searching - the focus was on me - not my size- but on my skills,resume and what I could bring to a job. I was not seen as a liability. I love my life in New England- and have more energy and stamina than ever before. Sunday- to celebrate my 12th wedding anniversary- my husband and I walked all over the city of Boston( probably walked over 20 miles)...I could not have walked 3 blocks prior to surgery.
My weight loss is slow and steady..but that is okay. I know- I am healthy and happy.
I miss my all WLS Surgery friends in FLorida and want to thank them for their support!
I will try to be better about checking in!
Melanie
3/23/05
I am back after a long time of no posting. I have both good & Bad news to share. Let's start with the challenges - My weight has started to creep back on. I have regained about 20lbs. The thought of regaining terrifies me. I have been coping with alot of guilt and shame about regaining weight. I feel like -I worked so hard and now I have allowed this to happen again.
So- I am trying to get motivated again. Cutting down on carbs. I joined a gym and now have a personal trainer. No more drinking with meals. Back to Basics! I would appreciate hearing from other who are coping with weight regaining. My email is candlemel@aol.com. Perhaps, we can help support each other.
My new life in Massachusetts is great.( except for all the snow). Although, I miss all my FLorida friends. Especially my friend -Krista S ( my sister in the weight loss surgery journey) I appreciate all the support I received since my surgery 2 years ago...and a loss of 220lbs. Don't let anyone tell you that weight loss surgery is easy- it is a lifelong process..a process that you have to work at everyday ! There are no easy fixes here but a patient commitment to stay healthy. I wish everyone well on their journey...and have fun ! Melanie
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About Me
NY, NY
Location
40.7
BMI
Surgery
09/17/2002
Surgery Date
Jul 10, 2001
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