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NOVEMBER 25th 2006 

so as of this morning im 185..down 35 lbs..i cant believe it..still feel mad big though..got 50lb to go
i bought new jeans today cuz i threw out like 6 pairs that were too big and saggy in the butt
bought me 3 new pairs in size 15-16..to think i was about to start hitting a size 22 is crazy to think about..
but yeah lil thing to make me happy..

oh yeah im playing w makeup ;D

 

 

 

Nov. 19th, 2006 at 7:29 PM


I went out for the first time in a mnth last night..I had a ball..being sober isnt that bad..i had water when i wanted it...peopel were fuckin w me though..putting it under my nose and offering it to me..im like dudes u want me to die? LOL

I am looking at the pics from last night and i can really see it in my face! its exciting..im down to 190...started at 220lbs ..thats 30lbs and next sunday it will be one month since i had surgery! crazyness..

Pic spam time

 

 

 

Nov. 13th, 2006 at 9:21 AM


yesterday was the first time i felt a twinge of regret..i was regretting my decision and i literally cried because i cant eat what i want..and its not that im hungry its that my mind wants it.it frustrated me to no end..i wanted to have mac and cheese w hamburger last night but alas i was stuck w water n soup..ive been barfing everything ive tried thats new..im heading to work in a few..i look good ..i dyed my hair..did my nails..i look like ME..but i dunno im just scared..i wanna get thru this stage..i know it gets better but its just hard..last night i wanted everything..mac n cheese. pizza, pasta...i was craving it and it just pissed me off..plus its soo easy to barf its crazy..its a struggle..im feeling better today though..well see
  • Music:HOT 97

 

 

Nov. 6th, 2006 at 2:23 PM


I am doing great. I go back to work next monday..I am so happy being at home is not as much fun as one would think..I still can't see the 20lb weight loss but my friends do..i have opted not to become obsessed with the scale..I am getting in all my liquids and my protein..Candy is due back home today,,thanks to my sisters boss..she was able to have surgery and remove the huge masses she had in her breasts..as long as she is ok im happy..and ill be able to care for her this week..i have been cleared for excercise..so treadmills and the gym is in store..i cant wait..im actually excited cuz i know for once its going to work..i was rather lazy this weekend..but im back to being active and getting out of this house..um thast it..this punk still harrassed me for his 60 bucks up until this thursday..i wanted to shove it up his ass..seriously how petty is he..im done and at the same time..i kinda miss him..and i hate myself for it..but in no way will i speak to him or seek him ever again..i made that decision in the hospital..i dont have the mental capacity right now to deal with his bs..and he hasnt even asked me if im ok..if im well or anything so fuck him..he doesnt deserve the acknowledgement..

anyways thats all..peace..
  • Music:John Legend - P.D.A. (We Just Don't Care)

 

October 29th 2006  1:13 PM


I am home finally.excited to be back..everything went well..im recovering making sure i get in all my water n such...everyone has been fantastic..my mom did come and get me at the end..i was wheelchaired out hehe..experienced some shit i never want to experience again lol..but overall not bad..my back hurts like crazy and the arm where the iv was is sore as hell but im up and walking about which is very important...last thing i remember is being put on the table and the anesthesiologist saying are you ready? Im like yes and bam i was out...woke up mad naseous and groggy but they were surprised i was able to sit up so quickly...i was a bit nervous as i was being wheeled in but i calmed down..so yeah here i am..ive smelled and seen every commercial for food you can imagine and it makes my tummy hurt ugh..im on liquids till i see my doc again which is a week and im tellin you im strong my sis ordered my fav peruvian dish yesterday thank god i ignored it lol..its gonna be challenging but im ready..oh yeah i cant wait to put on makeup i feel like a beast lmaoo..im showering today too thank god lol
 
Oct. 25th, 2006 at 9:17 PM

its almost showtime..i havent eaten anything all day..i walked by every food and smell imagineable and still resisted and drank water..me and the toilet bowl have become best friends..not fun times im tellin you..but its all for a great outcome..im sad though..heart is hurt..i didnt think id really be dead to him..and i officially am..spoke to him on the phone not so much as a good luck or anything..his voice was dead flat..and it sucks that im crying as i type this because so many people reached out to me today including his best friend and here i am whining..i just wish he wouldve said good luck..but fuck it i have this look fwd to and im happy..even though i dont sound it im glad im taking this step..and im looking forward to a new life and hopefully a change of mentality..i have to be in at 5:45am to prep..see ya guys soon ill be back monday hopefully

 

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