Melissa, what you are feeling and experiencing is something we all go through. It's natural. Think positive because the pros outweigh the negs. It totally has to be your decision alone but just the journey of getting to the other side can play havoc with your mind. I went through it to. Right up to the door. That was 2 weeks and 2 days ago, and 20 lbs later. The first few days were rough, but you know, it does get better with each day passing. Best yet, I am no longer out of breath, and my ankles are no longer swollen over my shoes, in fact my shoes fall off as I walk just with 20 lbs later. I feel wonderful healthwise already even though I still have 130 lbs to go. I feel I have been given a new life and it feels wonderful. Whatever your decision, best of luck because you will make the right decision for you.