Mistydaz
my story starts when i was a child. i remember being taken to the nutritionist for an evaluation. i guess they gave me a diet to follow. i don't think i did. my mom was a healthy eater as the years passed and so as a teen i maintained 120-125. for a 5 foot nothin' girl, that was still a little fat. i had my daughter in 1980 and bounced right back to 125 or so for a while but i think it was after that point that i slowly started putting on more and more weight. oh... yes, that is when i also started the fad diets!! coincidence??? uggh!
There were times where I really cared how i looked and then after i met my husband to be in 1986 i think the years of being happy and settling down made me forget that i wasn't paying attention to my expanding butt. I was about 145 then.
So, here we are, 22 years and over 100 lbs later (off and on) and co-morbidities to boot that makes me come to the realization that i do not have the time nor the willpower to do this anymore.
in 2004, i acquired APL (accute leukemia) and was hospitalized for 35 days. I almost lost my life. I became a disabled 43 year old woman - in the process of induction chemo to kill the cancerous blood cells, my heart was damaged (CHF with an ejection fraction of 25) . i found this out a year later. A year after that, i found out that i was diabetic. (A1c of 7) - i attended all the classes and re-learned what I had to stay away from. I am doing a great job at that!! on top of complex carbs and sugar i can not have more than 1800 mg of sodium or 2 litres of liquid per day because of the Congestive Heart Failure!! I was 281 and joined curves in 2006 and after a year and 12 lbs lost, i switched to the YMCA as my insurance paid for membership - I was doing great at the Y - swimming and doing strength and cardio 3 days per wk! we had family come down in Dec for a while and i got the flu pretty bad (even though i get the shot) then i didn't go back to the gym for 1 month. i went back a few times and havent been back since March.
I have no motivation or something! I used to love going. I need a push. anyway, i went to a lap band meeting in October of last year and was given a list of things i needed to do which included a 6 mo. supervised diet. i started the southbeach and still do it "somewhat" staying away from white foods. i would be losing more weight but i am not moving!! sometimes because fluid is backed up in my lungs which makes it hard to breath and then I have to take lasix and pee for 4-6 hours.
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