Moire
WOW
Feb 28, 2008
Stepped on the scale this morning and just took a moment to register.... This is it! 100 pounds gone...I have shed a person. Tomorrow being 8 months out (today were it not for leap year) 100 pounds!
So I still cringe when looking in the mirror- that's ok. I am also revelling in the new shape that I am taking on and imaging what it would look like to have all that extra skin gone... Results are irrefutable- progress happens even when I think it's not.
So I still cringe when looking in the mirror- that's ok. I am also revelling in the new shape that I am taking on and imaging what it would look like to have all that extra skin gone... Results are irrefutable- progress happens even when I think it's not.
Shedding the BLAHs
Feb 23, 2008
Well, Brenbrit brought to my attention that I have not blogged in awhile so I figure it is time to get it in gear again.
The doctors warn frequently that surgery will only take care of symptoms not the causes underlying it all. I can say that this is very true...Depression, anxiety, trauma, all these undealt with factors come rushing in in the months following my surgery. And being so numb and vulnerable I hid from it all. Now I am realizing it is time to start dealing with some of it.
On the 14th I went to my first Homicide Survivors support group. It was very hard but I heard alot of things and received literature that made more sense than anything I have been told in the last 3 years since my son's murder.
I do not eat like I should- mainly because I have an intense fear of getting sick now since I can no longer vomit. So I am beginning to work on that as well. It is a long road to wellness and it has to start small.
The doctors warn frequently that surgery will only take care of symptoms not the causes underlying it all. I can say that this is very true...Depression, anxiety, trauma, all these undealt with factors come rushing in in the months following my surgery. And being so numb and vulnerable I hid from it all. Now I am realizing it is time to start dealing with some of it.
On the 14th I went to my first Homicide Survivors support group. It was very hard but I heard alot of things and received literature that made more sense than anything I have been told in the last 3 years since my son's murder.
I do not eat like I should- mainly because I have an intense fear of getting sick now since I can no longer vomit. So I am beginning to work on that as well. It is a long road to wellness and it has to start small.
Sometimes it sucks
Jan 31, 2008
After working out for two weeks and eating more protein- instead of seeing the scales drop- I've seen a gain! It is very discouraging... even though I know that rationally, the gain is muscle- regardless a gain is the opposite of what I am aiming for.
The gain has caused more anxiety and now I have stopped eating and working out again. I wonder if anyone else has struggled with this and how they got past it? My clothes are still big and loose- again I know it is muscle- I just want to see the scale get down again instead of up.
The gain has caused more anxiety and now I have stopped eating and working out again. I wonder if anyone else has struggled with this and how they got past it? My clothes are still big and loose- again I know it is muscle- I just want to see the scale get down again instead of up.
Getting it together
Jan 16, 2008
Feb. 1st will be 7 months out so its a couple of weeks away. Two days ago I had my 6 month followup- 80 lbs lost and 11 points off my BMI and under 200 for the first time in 12 years easy! Only about 40-50 more to go.
Due to the hair loss and not enough protein- I'm starting a food diary to help figure out where to fit more in and my husband and I worked out together this morningwhich helps me not be discouraged at my lack of strength. Time to tighten, tone, and take care of business. :P
Due to the hair loss and not enough protein- I'm starting a food diary to help figure out where to fit more in and my husband and I worked out together this morningwhich helps me not be discouraged at my lack of strength. Time to tighten, tone, and take care of business. :P
