mona8
About Me
Feb 24, 2013
so, I've been on this site for almost 3 years and have yet to write " my story " so here goes.......
I was a tiny newborn weighing only 6.3 lbs. Well within a year I quickly emerged into a chubby baby, I still jokinlyg blame my aunt who, when left to babysit me for the first time mashed up oreos in milk and fed me my fist meal. That did begin a love of oreos and other sweets. My the time I was 7 I weighed about 80 lbs, this was a crisis for my parents, who are still both healthy weight but they both came from overweight families, and thus began the trips to Dr.'s to have testing to find out what was wrong with me. Tests revealed i was overweight, thus began my fear and distrust of Dr's....DUH! So off to TOPS I went weekly and learned quickly the humiliation associated with a scale, thus crushing my self esteem at the ripe age of 7 Household junk food was hidden in the house and taken out for my parents and sister to enjoy b/c i " didn't need to eat this food. Thus began my education in how to hide from people when I eat ( to this day I only eat with people that I'm comfortable with ). My grandmother was one of those people, and she was a tremendous baker, who went to work baking up a storm whenever anything caused me upset....thus evolved my use of food to self soothe. I didn't need to pay a psychologist thousands to learn why I have food issues.
Anyhow fast forward to my adolecsents, I reached my top height of 5'4 by teh time I was 13 and went through those 7 years ranging in weight from 160 - 190 lbs. I was lucky, had a great group of friends, boyfriends, lived life to the fullest, but never felt as though I really fit in. My female friends were all thin and gorgeous, as were my male friends. Everyone liked me though, so things were ok for the most part. I did learn very quickly to blame everything bad on my weght, and then would feed that weight to soothe myself. Anyone see a cycle starting?
I met my husband at 19, we were living together 9 months later and married 3 years later, within those years, I grew from 190 - 250 lbs. Didn't matter, he loved me anyhow. 2 years later we had our first child ( he's almost 18 now!! ) and my weight ballooned to 270, and finally with the birth of son #2, 18 months later, my weight was at 293 lbs. About 4 years later I hit my all time high of 335 lbs. I had enough, every diet failed me. I decided to give South Beach a try. No carbs????? well, I did it, I managed to take off 72 lbs and maintained it until 2009 when I was hit in my car on a sunny December 15th afternoon by someone who decided to have a few afternoon cups of Christmas cheer and then drive home. I walked away but with herniations at L4,L5,S1 disks. Within the many months of physio, massage, and eventually epidural steroid injections I put on 20 lbs. After talking with a friend about her decision to have WLS I decided to ask the same of my GP, that was in August of 2011.
I was pleasantly surprised to be invited to OMWC for orientation in Novemeber of 2011. I then sat for 6 months hearing nothing. Then, one day in late May, I learned that I'd been transferred to the newly opened Kingston Bariatric Clinic. The process seems to move along once I got to Kingston. There have been a few bumps in the journey due to my diabetes that wasn't as managed as they wanted it. So, I agreed to a small dose on insulin and by January I was ready to move to meet the surgeon. I met Dr. Hagan on the 20th, will meet Dr. Glazier on the 18th, have PATTS on the 2nd of May, start Opti on May 7 and surgery is on the 21st of May.
I won't lie, it has been a long, and often frustrating and contradictory process which I feel requires must improvements, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the rest will be smooth sailing.
As they say.....the rest is still unwritten
