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Day 8 now... day 7 was not very good, i went crazy, not major crazy, but still crazy... all day, cook for this person cook for little one, tried not to look or smell at the food, nothing unhealthy but still manage to not think and eat half of a ham sandwich, its nuts....i feel guilty but its nuts, 2 weeks nothing to eat and im suppose to act normal...??? i dont know, i mean i know after surgery it will be a whole new world of eating, but i will eat, little, healthier, but wow...im sorry, it could have been something worse , but i think i feel little better since i did this, i was starting to just well im sure most of you felt like this, the shakes 4x dont fill me, im always hungry, i drink like 3l of liquids a day and if that doesnt work i try to change my mind by doing something else, and again its like the tell tale heart...keeps nagging at me....lol all day this doesnt bother me, its around 6pm that it starts to just lay it into me...AAAAAAAAAAAA i know blah blah blah, it has to come out!  ok back to my shake!

Well hey all!!! well day 6 of shakes, to tell you the truth i really cant wait for that first bite of pablum!!! lol  i really really starting to hate chocolat  but then again vanilla and strawberry were far from my wanting choice....how do i feel??? well really thought i would have been depress or sad or angry...but really im ok...im anxious for the surgery and this is coming soon, still waiting on his office to call me and let me know of the steps, what time to get there, when do i stop " eating "!!! oh well im sure all will go well!

talk to you all later

Guess what....3 days left till i kiss the cruel world of  food

Im a little worried about this since...well NO FOOD lol i know I know has to be done....its for the good and i'm reallly looking forward to this change, and imagine its like winning lottery...EVERYTHING i have been missing out i will enjoy, imagine that!!! food will no longer have a hold of me, my weight will not have a hold on me, I PROTEST i refuse to be a prisoner in my own body...

Now all i have to figure out is hold to get rid of this cold....AND the whole world will be in perfect harmany!


Gen

FREAKING OUT!!!  Ok somewhere inside of me is this little thing getting ready to run out... 19 days to wait till i can start the first day...of breathing right...walking...running...playing ect , its amazing the emotion that is drawn to this moment....