msarcia2u
January 25, 2007
Jan 25, 2007
December 13, 2006
Dec 13, 2006
well gotta go get some more water...see ya
December 10, 2006
Dec 10, 2006
He's a wonderful wonderful man for putting up with me for these last few days...he waits on me hand and foot and I don't know what I would do without him.? He makes me meals and makes sure I always have a full glass of ice water (crush ice of course)...speaking of eating...not able to do much more than 1-1/12 teaspoons of anything...I'm on a full liquid diet for the first month with includes lots of cream soups..sugar free jello and puddings...I eat cram of wheat in the morning with non-fat milk and sugar substitute. I have not really started my protein yet but will have to start that today...I will just have to sip sip sip throughout the day...I do not want to lose my hair...I've lost enough hair without the surgery (stress per my dermatologist). That is one of my biggest fears...HAIR LOSS...I know that won't happen for a few months but I do know it can be avoided as long as I keep up with vitamins and protein. I currently take one chewable flinstone vitamin the in the am and liquid zantac at night for the acid in the old stomach...to date I have not had nausea and have not dumped...I hope this is because I have stuck to my diet to the t. Well, I just needed to get on here and post some of the truth about what I have been going through since surg...I pray to God my regrets go away...the fat person thoughts need to go away too!!! I know I cannot eat...not only do I not feel hungry but when I do eat, I immediately feel full but when I see something like pizza or a hamburger...that is when the regrets start up again...boy do I want to just stuff a fat piece of meet or something bad in my mouth...guess I have to really work on the psych part about this. Pray for me..thank you...talk to you soon.
My journey
Nov 17, 2006
10/26/06
still waiting for a surgery date...recv'd approval in March of 2006 but have been going throught the motions since late 2004. My heaviest was back then..I was 292...as of this morning I am 257. When I was approved I was 270. I am with Kaiser therefore they have lots and lots of hurdles you must cross before actually getting approved and scheduled for the GBS. I have went through most hurdles thus far. At the approval meeting in April the surgeon said that it is now mandatory that we lose 10% of our approval weight (270=27 lbs) before they will schedule a date...I have only lost 13 lbs and they called me this month telling me that I am up for surg in December...woo hooo...guess it's not mandatory after all...maybe they just think that I've tried hard enough and are giving me a break. No matter what, I'm still going to continue to gradually lose weight before my surgery...I already had my lap done in August so I'm ready...I think
10/27/06
I am 255 today...loss of 2 lbs since yesterday...don't know how that happened. I did my walking though..skipped about a week and started up again last night. I guess that helped. Still waiting for that call from surgical scheduling with Kaiser. I'm sure I'm not going to get that call until the beginning of December or later. I have it on my calendar...the first of December is when I'm going to call them and see what they say. I've been promised a Dec date and I'm not going to let them change it without a good reason. I've done everything they've asked me to do. Last month when I went in after they called and said the doc has given the go ahead for the surg I weighed 262..they told me that I needed to maintain and not gain. I've lost since then...yippy!!! Anyhow...I'm anxious!!!
10/30/06
okay...got a call here at work this morning from surgical scheduling..they want me to go in and weigh today before 5pm or first thing in the am...If I haven't gained anything since 260 then my surg date is 12/05/06!!!!! I am kind of worried because the scale here we have in the office is way different than the one at the MD's office. They are always about 4-5 lbs off. We will see how bad it is in the am. I am going in first thing in the morning so I can take my water pill and hopefully get some of my leg swelling down the accrued over the weekend..will let you know in the morning...bye for now
10/31/06
Happy Halloween!!! I am definitely having surg on December 5th (no time set just yet)..went in at 730am this morning...spoke to the surgery scheduler...she didn't even need to weigh me...she said she has a lot of patients that won't show up because they know they haven't been trying to lose that 10%. I lost almost 2.5 lbs overnight just from water. I'm just so excited now. Joy, went over all the pre-op procedures with me (labs, EKG,chest x-ray all need to be done before my pre-op appt with the surg that is on 11/28). That same day I will be meeting with the pre-op nurse. I don't know what to feel right now. I'm so scared and excited all at the same time. I honestly do have mixed emotions and feeling about this whole thing now that I know it's just over a month away now...I am starting to really realized how much of a food addict I am. I hope and pray I am doing the right thing...this is permanent...this is a huge change in my life...WOW!!! It's really here after almost 2 years...OK, I'm done freaking out...will write later..
