mshough
Well, where do I begin? I have been "fat" my entire life. Even as a little kid, I was teased for being overweight. As I got older, the heavier I got. When I was depressed, I would eat to make myself feel better. Then of course, I would eat when I was happy too. I loved food - still do! While I was pregnant with my son, I lost 10 lbs. I lost 20 more pounds soon afterwards. It was great to be down to 230 lbs. I was in an abusive relationship and I would eat all the way to work, the whole time at work, and most of the way back to make myself feel better. It wasn't long and I was back up to 270 + lbs. I left him and moved back home with my son, but I was still depressed. I gained even more weight! In Nov. 2005, my sister got married. I weighed 300 lbs then. I have since gained an additional 15 lbs. I feel like I am out of control. I use food as a crutch and I don't know how to stop. I have been denied for WLS through my insurance. My employer has an exclusion policy and even though I see loops around it, the insurance company doesn't. I am afraid that one day, I won't wake up to my son......and he will be left without a mother.
