Michele S.

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I had my third session with the trainer on Friday and apparently that is when they step up the torture.  I had to go backwards on the elliptical trainer.  That has to be the hardest thing I have ever done.  I also have no glute strength which surprises me because I have a huge glute area.  I have three sessions next week and I am plan on doing cardio two other times as well.  I have finally joined the Ipod revolution  I thought it might be good to have for exercise and to occupy my time when I am off work.  Today begins my last week of solid foods prior to surgery. 

Today I had my first session with my fitness trainer.  I had lost three pounds since my last doctor's appointment.  It seems that I am able to lose weight now without even trying.  I have become more conscious of my portion sizes and it must be working.  My job is planning a little party for our next staff meeting.  We are ordering in soul food and I am looking forward to it, not the eating but the support.  I have told them that snacks will be banned when I return after the surgery. 

We are now one month away from surgery.  All the pre-op appointments are scheduled.  Liquid diet begins on memorial day.  I have started to go through my closet and box up clothes that are already too big.  My friends and family are already claiming the outfits they want.  I am fighting to keep myself from buying any new clothes for spring.  I did get one new dress for a conference I am presenting at on Monday and some new shoes.  Gotta look good still!

Today I played paintball for the first time.  I have always wanted to do this and it was a blast!  It also reinforced for me the reasons why I have chosen wls.  My knees are killing me from the running and jumping and sliding.  I cannot wait to get this weight off so I can move without as much pain.  Watch out next time!! 

I have had the booming social life as of late.  The weather has gotten nice and I have been enjoying happy hours and dinners out in the city.  Last week I was out every night for a social activity of some sort.  It wore me out but I had a great time.  My confidence level is really high now maybe because I feel like my life is headed in a good direction.  My pre-surgery liquid diet will begin on Memorial day so I have to get in a good summer barbecue prior to then. 

Post Date: 4/20/08 5:12 pm 
This is the question I posted on the message board:
I am just wondering if anyone else had the same concerns I have.  I am not dating currently but I am interested in someone.  I believe the interest is mutual but has not yet been formally expressed.  I am concerned about becoming involved with someone after the surgery who did not express their interest prior to the surgery.  After all I will be the same person, no matter what I weigh hopefully.  What about new men i will meet?  Men who may not have expressed interest in me when I was heavier.  Why am I mad at them already?  LOL  Let me know your feedback BAF.
Michele

It turns out that I am not the only one who has had these concerns and I was glad to know that.  However, as Ms. Rhonda pointed out , this is a problem within myself that I need to work on because thinness is no guarantee for a good man.

Today, I had an initial session with a personal trainer whose fees are more per month than my rent.  It was a nice place, not a crowded gym environment and the staff was great but I honestly cannot afford it.  They really stressed accountability partners and I definitely need someone to hold me accountable for my exercise habits as most of my friends are overweight and we don't spend our social time exercising.  We have spent it eating and that is going to change for me.  I am going to post two questions on the boards tonight, one about friendships and one about personal trainers on the exercise and fitness board.  I look forward to the answers.

Okay so maybe we will have to work up to daily blogging.  The interesting thing about my life today is that I actually have more confidence and feel better about myself than I have ever before in life.  Maybe the confidence comes from taking control over my eating and my health.  It lets me know that God is at work in my life and that what he has in store for my future is greater than I can even imagine.  Three years ago I was losing my mind from being in a job that I had outgrown, living in the same town my entire life and putting everyone else's needs ahead of my own.  I stepped out on faith and relocated and God has taken care of me all the way.  It was not an easy adjustment and I miss my family and friends terribly most of the time but I know that I am a better person for them because I am a better person for me.    I have many questions for those tht have gone ahead of me on this journey.  I will be posting my questions on the BAF and I look forward to everyone's responses.  I will post the answers here as well.
Michele

I got my date yesterday.  it will be June 9, 2008.  I immediately called  and texted everyone I knew with the great news.  I am going to try to update this blog daily because I think it is important to journal this time of preparation.  It has been so helpful for me to read about the experiences of others.  Actually getting the date was like a jumpstart to my life.  I feel like I have been siiting at a stoplight for the last few months and finally the light has turned green.  There is so much to plan for and consider as I move forward.  Look forward to regular updates!

I finally received approval a couple weeks ago and have been on pins and needles awaiting contact from the surgeon's office.  It finally happened on Friday and I was able to see him the same day.  Dr. Cantor was very nice and I have to only complete my pulmonary consulttion and bloodwork.  No problem, I say.  Took care of the blood work right then and went to the pulmonary office to schedule may appointment.  I was hoping for a quickly scheduled appointment but the pulmonary doc is taking a vacation for the next couple weeks.  The nerve of him!  He must not know that my life hangs in the balance waiting for his return  Anyway, I am scheduled for the 31st of March.