nancygp
April 26, 2008 Well I have had a bad week end. Worried this will not work for me and that I will be so weak I cannot exercise. I am guessing that I feel this way because my day is so far off July or maybe August because my surgeon will gone for the month of July. I will get it together but I read that some people are still very hungry...oh that would be awful!! I am trying to be optimistic and really looking forward to being healthier. Healthier is my goal and the looking better is just a benefit. I need to go do my housework and get ready for Monday, my days are very long and stressful. Thank you to any one who has any help to offer I greatly appreciate the emails and support. Sincerely, Nancygp
May 2, 2008 and it is a beautiful weekend in Texas. I had a very busy week at work and now and ready to enjoy my weekend. My son is a drag racer (goes 191 mi per hr) scares me to death. He is in Louisiana racing. I wish him safety and good luck. My Amanda just made head varsity cheerleader, I am so proud of her!! She overcame knee surgery last year, and fought back and SHE DID IT!!! I have been reading the pros and cons of gastric bypass and am more optimistic than ever that my life will be much healthier. I am so tired of being tired! I have managed to exercise several times this week after I get home from work and that is a huge accomplishment for me, I JUST DO IT. The sessions are not long but I have a real sense of accomplishment. I have my second meeting with my dietian this week...and am going to ask more about the protein supplements, and if I can take silica complex for hair loss. I have a lot of hair but I am wondering if I start taking a supplement now will it help later down the road. I just have one more meeting next month with the dietian and my phys eval next week and I believe all of my pre certification to be submitted to my insurance carrier will be complete. I hope I have my date by mid June. How long did you insurance carrier take to approve you. My carrier is Aetna. Thank you again for your suport, Nancygp
May 17, 2008 it is Saturday morning in Texas. A beautiful day and another work week gone. I have had by behavorial and I guess I passed. I also have had my second nutritionist counseling and only two more to go until I have finished all my pre certification. I will be pre certified by July but my surgeon will be gone the enire month, and I am waiting for him to return in August. He is worth waiting for, he is the best. I guess we all go through this wondering if we are doing he right thing, I am having some doubts. Can I do this myself, and why can't I do this myself? Then I remember trying, and remember the horrible sense of not being able to lose enough to impact my health. I hope this tool makes me stop, I do not want to dump, but I do hope without nausea I feel full and do not have head hunger all the time. I intend to not eat around my tool, but eat right, excercise the best I can (not much now I feel exhausted and I hate it), find the right proteins I can tolerate, take the vitamins and eat right and find the correct portions. I am keeping this blog so when I look back I can have a sense of the feelings I was going through during this journey, and hoping at the end of the ride say WOW it was all worth the time and self discipline required to make it work for me. I have meet so really nice and knowledgable friends on this site and am glad I have it to vent and keep a diary of my thoughts. I must go now and do the "housekeeping thing". Sincerely, Nancygp
May 31, 2008 and it is Saturday afternoon. We had a wonderful Memorial Day about 50 people, cannot believe that many but we had such a good time. The family stayed all weekend, and we enjoyed them so much and hated to see them leave. Then it was back to work. I am not feeling too good my diabetes is out of control and Dr Meyers increased my meds and they make me feel horrible. I am cooking right now to get ready ready for the Phillips Reunion at Sonny's and doing the house cleaning thing again. I was so excited I bought my Magic Bullet yesterday...one step closer to my new healthier life. I am feeling it is so far away but will give me time to prepare. Just wanted to put a few of my thoughts for the day in writing..will blog again soon.
June 8, 2008 another week gone and time to get ready to go back to work. Last week has extreme, up at 3:45AM and home at 8:00 PM...I am just now feeling a little better. It is very tiring and stressful. More responsibilities, less time, I am worried about being off work, but I must - I must start feeling better. I have met some really wonderful friends on my journey and gained a lot of knowledge and do not know what I would do without this board to vent, laugh and learn. More thoughts to document my journey. I meet with Jessilyn my nutritionist this week for the 3rd time, just one more to go and I have completed all of the testing and paperwork required except pre op diet instructions, leg doppler, pre admit to hospital. I am getting so ready for the DATE, but in perspective it is good for my mind, body and soul to wait my turn and get prepared.
June 23, 2008 well I had a really nice week end. My mother, daughter and my self went to watch Varsity Cheerleader Show Off at a college about 2 hours away. My grand daughter is Junior now in high school, but made Varsity Cheer Captain and we are so proud of her. We had a great time - then went to a FOUR GENERATION lunch. Everything else was the norm, but I was still very tired this morning when I got up for work at 3:45 and got home at 6:45 PM. Well I am going to rest and get ready for tomorrow, and get on the treadmill.
July 4, 2008 had a wonderful time at the lake - stayed at Al Gator's Camp. Good friends, family, borrowed my son's new motorhome he uses for drag racing (nice), and my brother in law and sister had their motorhome, and a lot of people were there. On the 4th we think there were 700 people at the beach area, there are tiki hut type areas and a stage where there was constant music. There was one "CC" she was great, sounded like Janice Joplin, she came to camp and gave us a private concert...it was wonderful. Looking forward to next year when maybe I will wear shorts...Sincerely, Nancygp
July 17, 2008 was approved Monday before noon it only took a few hours after a small problem on Thursday, the week before. The insurance needed a little more information about my three months nutritional consultation, when they received the information I was approved within 3-4 hours. What a blessing, no hassle, but I really need the surgery and they saw that in all of my recommendations from my doctors. I had all the feelings, cried, terrified, excited all wrapped up in a ball of emotions. Now that I have had a few days to let it soak in, I HAVE MY DATE, August 11 at 7:00AM Baylor Hospital, Dallas with the best surgeon in the world, I have calmed down and started thinking about things I need to get in place. Since I live so far out in the country, I need to really be prepared...I am starting that process tomorrow. I have been blessed with the chance to have a healthier life and I want to do it right, and follow the rules. I have one shot at this and I do not want to mess it up. I was told I will be on a liquid diet for one week, and will find out more about the details on July 29th when I have my meeting with the nutritionist, pre register at the hospital, have my leg dopplers, and what ever else I need to do. On July 21st I have an appointment with my OBYGEN for my yearly check, then an appointment with my cardio doctor (he is hovering) for pre op testing, EKG, lab work by his lab, and a physical. Well here I am approved so I must stay positive, but I still cannot help but be emotional because I am so anxious to feel better, I feel so exhausted and bad so much of the time. Sincerely, Nancygp
August 1, 2008 it seems like an eternity since I first started this blog. I am approved now and one week away from my new chance at a more healthful life. I am very fortunate it was not taken me forever and my insurance carrier approved me right away but I also made sure I followed their clinical guidelines exactly. I also had so many co morbids that it is to their benefit to try to make be healthier. My surgeon office and cardio doctors associates have been wonderful, returned my calls, and answered my questions. I am trying to make sure that I have everything I need since we live so far out of town and I am really close to be done. I am emotional right now, happy, scared that it will not work for me all the usual feelings I have heard. I must be strong at this, I quit smoking, and have tried not to whine about that...so I can do this too. I am really appreciative of all the friends I have me along this journey.
Sincerely, Nancygp
