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Well finally i got to come home yesterday. I was excited, to come home to my own bed. But also afraid. I am so scared that I will not be able to fit in all my liquids that the drs are drilling me to get in. everything tastes like crap. I am very nauseated and afriad that i will end up back into the hospital. Laying in bed last night my mind was running in every different direction. I kept thinking to myself was this really worth it??? I am taking the meds the best i can but everything trys to come right back up. even pepto which i have never had a problem with before. The smell just makes me quueezy~~~~~ yuck~ i am ready to fast forward through this part and get to the better part.... For all of those that have had surgery the past few days/weeks I wish you all the best.

Well friends, I go a call from the clinic on tuesday morning - "We are going to have reschedule your surgery!"
joyful -just my luck. The doctor had something come up suddenly. Everyting happens for a reason, For this I am unsure. But i went back to the surgeons office today and i am set for 8/20/12 - he said this is set in stone!!! so back to the liver shrinking diet and i go on the 17th for my pre-admission appointment. I'm soo ready for this. :) 

SO I'M A LITTLE LESS THAN 2 WEEKS OUT FROM MY SCHEDULED SURGERY, AND I AM HAVING ALL THE COMPULSIVE EMOITIONS THAT MOST HAVE, THE SECOND THOUGHTS, FEELING IF THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING? AFTER ALL THE FAILED DIETS, AND WORK-OUT PLANS...... WILL THIS 1 REALLY WORK???

I HAVE TO PUT FAITH INTO MYSELF AND KEEP TO THE PLAN, I HAVE PUT THIS OFF FOR YEARS, NO ONE IS GOING TO DO IT FOR ME, I HAV TO BE THEONE WHO HAS TO TAKE THE STEPS!!! i'VE ALREADY TAKEN THE BIGGEST AND THAT WAS PRECEDING WITH SURGERY.

I AM READY TO SEE THE NEW ME AND TO HAVE THE ENERGY TO PUSH THROUGH WORKOUTS AND FUN ACTIVITIES WITH OUT FEELING LIKE I AM GOING TO PASS OUT.
IM READY TO GO SHOPPING IN THE "NON- fAT" STORES AS A FRIEND CALLS IT. (lol)