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The first day of the rest of my life. I am on a spirutual journy, I seek inner peace, patience, success with school, good health,  financial breakthrough, and a repreive from addiction. This is going to be difficult but I must try.

Day 1
orange, and strawberries for breakfast
lunch-1/4 brown rice which I prompty hurled
snack-grapes, and nuts
dinner-baked potatoe, maybe salad
Protein drink

Protein is going to be a problem. I plan on supplementing with soy based shakes, I am awaiting a shipment.

22 days ago, I said that I was going to give up this this and that for 30 days. Well that was a fallacy. I stuck to no bread and no pasta for 90% of the time, but a turkey on wheat with mustard, lettuce, tomatoe and onion was SCREAMING my name...So I had it. I've also had the occasional glass of wine. And ya know what I'm not beating myself up. Because what I have accomplished sooooo outweighs  what I think I may have  'failed' at. I have consumed 1 gallon of water per day-surpassing my goal of 80 oz. I have not only done cardio, but began to weight train as well. I have not  had a more than an 1100 calorie day. I  have consumed 2-3 twenty three gram protein shakes per day. I have taken all vitamins and supplements, and even began a new regimen. I have not had a regular soda in 40 days. And I wore the pair of pants that I've had since November, talking about - 10 more pounds, 10 more pounds!!!! I am very proud of myself, and it is now more than ever I realize that this is a journey, and not a race. Never ending even at 2.5 yrs out.

I haven't pushed myself in a long time. I soooo need this family. I'm going on a cruise exactly 1 month from today. And I am on a mission, I don't want to buy anything new, I just want to look good in the stuff that I have. SO here we go....I'm on a mission ya'll wish me luck!

Here is what I am giving up for the next 30 days:

Alcohol - This is proving hard-can't quite let go of the wine yet ( edited 1/10)
Bread
Pasta 
I'd like to say fast food, but I am going to allow myself salads and chili

And here is what I will commit to:

1100 calorie diet 
2 20g protein shakes per day
80 oz of water
30min of cardio 7 days a week.

I know I said that I'd be better at updating this, but you know it goes. I've been playing with 3 pounds this week. But then again I've also been playing with alot of white carbs also...go figure. I'm doing ok on my water and protein, I have to stop snacking-specifically on those white carbs. I've done the 5dpt a couple of times, and I know that I'm still pretty restricted in regards to comsumption but I graze all damn day. Probably an issue for my therapist...Have a great week everyone, hopefully mine will be better.

a pound a day for 4 days! I'm a little bit more motivated now, I saw some pics and I did not like the way they looked! EWWWWWW. But another day is here. I'm going to do the best that I can until I can do better.

was horrible, and I'm am putting the full blame on PMS, and stupidity as well. Ended up fallin face first in NYC, and have a gash on y eyebrow to prove it. Mom had surgery, had to overcome a couple of finanical obstables, and my baby has a mouth abscess. The dang filling came out on Friday morning, and the dentist refused to see us on Saturday. A couple of hrs pass, and his right side of his face is swollen like a watermelon. Poor baby, he was in such pain, had to rush him to the ER for Pen VK and Tylenol with codeine, he's resting comfortably now, and I have an appointment with  a new dentist tommorow. But I had to cuss that dentist out, I mean what is the practices' procedure for emergencies?I'm fully insured and yet I had  to pay a $50 ER copay, when much pain and suffering could have been avoided with a simple filling via an office visit? Unaceptable. I'm debating on if I'm going to write a letter, or tell them how I feel face to face. Aetna will also be getting some correspondence regarding the horrible customer service. Being the stress eater that I am, need I say more? Here's to a better tommorow.

Well it wasn't really that bad, considering some that I've been on, but this guy was socially inept...maybe that's why he online dates, he seemed interested enough, but was very very very passive. I don't do well with passive.When asked how match was goin for him he said not too well, and then went on to share some of his horror studies...of course we had the 300 pound lady who desribed herself as "slender", but the kicker was when dude told me that a man had set him up, he had been conversing with "HER" for 3 months, and to finally meet only to have her be a HIM! When i asked how he handled it, he said that instead of ordering dinner, he just had coffee. WHOA buddy, people lose their lives behind things like that.  Oh well, on to the next one. 

Segway-I'm doing very well with my new commitment to myself and my tool, another pound down, and I feel as If a burden has been lifted, now that I've decided to do something about these 20 pounds. Wishing Everyone a happy Thanksgiving. Be Well.

For attempting to party like a rockstar on Thursday night, knowing damn well that I had class on Friday morning. I sincerely paid for it all day. Maybe I'll learn. I lost 6 pounds, thats a good thing, trying to get this weight tracker thing going, but I'm having difficulty. Since I've been back on the boards I've really come to realize that I've been taking too much for granted. Thats what happens when you get cocky, folks are fighting with all of their being for an oppurtunity that came relatively easy for me. I really am ashamed of myself. Slowly but surely, I'm getting things under control, and I vow to abuse my tool no longer.

Hey All,

I converted my profile, and lost all of the good stuff, so I'm starting from scratch. I felt the strong need to check back here after a really tough time, and some weight gain. It hasn't been a week yet, and I feel so supported and empowered. I remember hearing about this site on the eve of my surgery, and staying up all night exploring....And post op the friends I made here were like family, especially my maysters....then the holidays came, I lost more and more weight, I was seeing someone, and you know the rest, the boards become less and less a part of my life. Then the weight started creeping back up, I did WW, and saw a nutritionist, and although those things helped a bit, there is nothing like solid advise, techniques, and support from those who have been there, and know exactly what I'm talking about.  What was WW gonna tell me about a 5 day pouch test?